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Kaffebeanz
@kaffebeanz.bsky.social
Twitch streamer, dog/duck mom and dog sitter, sometimes writer, always coffee drinker (she/they)
Everything feels so hopeless lately, I was clinging to something that got my hopes up for a couple of days. Having that hope totally crushed has triggered a wild grief response...
February 4, 2026 at 4:14 PM
I'm trying to write again, and it's harder than it used to be. Reminding myself that a lot of non-writing things count as writing, like world building and character sketches.
February 4, 2026 at 8:13 AM
When 90% of the support system you had years ago is gone, you have to be your own champion... Even if you have nothing left...
January 22, 2026 at 4:57 PM
Currently have three dogs and one duck in my house...
January 3, 2026 at 11:04 AM
Doing everything I can to not move one of the ducks back into the bathroom, but we are prepared regardless...
January 2, 2026 at 8:05 PM
Up so late with Puppy (Zero is truly the worst patient ever, but is okay) so I am streaming today but taking a little break from Dexathon, at least to start. My brain can't hold all that info right now. 2v8 should be fine though, right?
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Oops, I tripped and fell into the fog ☕ !socials !pupdate
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August 26, 2025 at 10:37 AM
Tell me why I take a challenge and make it even harder for myself??

Anyway, more Dexathon today. twitch.tv/kaffebeanz
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August 25, 2025 at 10:11 AM
DAY 2 of the Dexathon is on now. And puppy let me sleep last night so hopefully we can get stuff done today.
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August 20, 2025 at 10:00 AM
Okay, going live for a new play of Legends Arceus and doing my Dexathon.

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DEXATHON DAY 1 | 0/242 !dexathon ☕ !socials !pupdate
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August 19, 2025 at 10:32 AM
Just falling apart at the seams, but then again that is the vibe of *gestures broadly*
July 25, 2025 at 12:52 PM
Weird how doing the best you can with almost no tools in a scenario where everyone is thrown into the deep end, then being told off for not using the tools (even though you did but they are bad), makes you suddenly disinterested in continuing a thing...
July 17, 2025 at 3:47 PM
Some days (most days) I'm just going through the motions...
July 14, 2025 at 10:31 AM
Spicy brain means no sleep, only anxious overthinking. I get a breath of logic to calm myself and then overwhelmed by panic again.
July 9, 2025 at 12:56 AM
The world is falling apart piece by piece and I am sobbing over a loss that happened three years ago. Honestly, that tracks.
July 7, 2025 at 10:11 PM
Another day, another stream twitch.tv/kaffebeanz
July 7, 2025 at 10:47 AM
It's my birthday, I'm gaming, we're hanging, distraction zone is live twitch.tv/kaffebeanz
July 4, 2025 at 10:47 AM
Something I never thought I would say: I am so relieved duck mating season is finally over.
July 3, 2025 at 9:05 AM
Birthday is next week. Probably doing a low-key bday stream. Low stress, low expectations.
June 27, 2025 at 7:18 PM
Alto's surgery went well and he is finally resting back at home 💙

Now two weeks of recovery involving "don't let him use his leg as much as possible" which I am sure he will be very chill about.
June 2, 2025 at 11:44 AM
Happy Pride 🏳️‍🌈
June 1, 2025 at 9:26 PM
Just ordered 100 half sized egg cartons and am looking into building a little farm stand because even with just two layers we cannot keep up with all these eggs...
May 23, 2025 at 11:51 AM
Ducks are my whole personality now. But still coffee. Ducks and coffee.
May 23, 2025 at 9:19 AM
I've been sick long enough with this cold/flu thing that I'm now having other minor issues because of lifestyle things (being more sedentary, diet and hydration, etc). All while still having to take care of all the animals mostly solo. Hell yeah...
May 22, 2025 at 2:31 PM
This summer I may actually get to play D&D for the first time in years! I'm so excited but also a little nervous. Just a few one shots, so low commitment but it will be nice to roll dice again.
May 21, 2025 at 4:49 PM
My brain's ability to create problems where there are none is wild. I will quadruple-check everything, be sure, and then an hour later it says, "But what if you are just wrong and it's all wrong and everything is bad??"
May 1, 2025 at 8:59 PM