I hope MCDM gets some dark magic boons from me suffering so much for the latest two pieces I've done for them haha.

they are lovely, i love working for them , but ive just been going thru it while working on each illustration for unrelated reasons

can i get a fuckig break man

i wish all my trauma triggers werent such stupid and honestly pathetic topics and sensations, like, can i have atleast one badass one?

you know, the thing that is very normal to want and possible to achieve?

my favourite season being tainted by a few triggers that come up with the weather change is actually so mean wtf

i am glad its finally colder what do you mean feeling cold inside a house does bad things to my brain nauurrrr

modern cinema is a miracle. not because what you might think but just by how baffling it is that any movies or shows even get made with the state productions are in jesus

having worked in publishing and TTRPGs and 1 videogame, i thought book illu was bad

im so glad i dropped out of film school wow

didnt think that going thru all my social media, looking for posts mentioning a specific thing and deleting them would be on the agenda today... i spoke to some people tho and now im worried about a group so better be safe than sorry. idk.
i know the group has a twitter account.

anyway.
intersectionality sucks and none of this would happen if i didnt have a fucking chronic illness.
I'll regret crying about it on the internet and delete tommorrow probably lol

looked at the prague pride program and uuughh.

like half of the things I'd be interested in are in the form of a walk in the city. i think they are doing better on accesible buildings this year but... i cant walk for that long man..

the formal/informal pronouns might be generational as well.. idk.

like. i will only use informal language to a stranger if i think they are obviously younger than me by like 10 years or if we are in a setting thats already casual. like.. meeting people at pride for example.

im so salty about that email with the informal pronouns i got hahahhaha

whenever i yap online i get worried it gets read like im pissed off or rude.

meanwhile im just afflicted with the permanent de-buff of speaking half sarcastically 90% of the time & being salty is just my default state.

if i try to alter the way i phrase things it feels so fake tho, cant do it

banished privateers concert next week!

i shall curate a pirate outfit

man I love good Art Directors so much. I love being told what exactly to do clearly and given constructive feedback and feeling like its not me holding the clients hand but i have someone holding MY hand intead.