Gab is not here
@gabisnothere.bsky.social
He/They. 26. Earth native. Scruffy red panda cub. They also call me Percy. Among the last frontiers where mental jökulhlaups are written.
I know it really is a happy birthday. My meds are making me struggle feeling the "happy" part lang.
But my heart is sincere. And it is full and content. Because of the people around me who made me feel loved sufficiently.
But my heart is sincere. And it is full and content. Because of the people around me who made me feel loved sufficiently.
December 12, 2025 at 3:30 PM
I know it really is a happy birthday. My meds are making me struggle feeling the "happy" part lang.
But my heart is sincere. And it is full and content. Because of the people around me who made me feel loved sufficiently.
But my heart is sincere. And it is full and content. Because of the people around me who made me feel loved sufficiently.
Happy birthday, self. Why did you survive this long…
December 11, 2025 at 4:00 PM
Happy birthday, self. Why did you survive this long…
I want to surprise him before Christmas. But I have a tight budget. What do I do…
December 8, 2025 at 2:42 PM
I want to surprise him before Christmas. But I have a tight budget. What do I do…
I just hope he'll be ever understanding during the tougher times because of my volatility. I don't like being medicated but I have to do it to be better.
December 8, 2025 at 1:48 PM
I just hope he'll be ever understanding during the tougher times because of my volatility. I don't like being medicated but I have to do it to be better.
That kind of conversation reassures me that this is more than just liking. I am falling even deeper, further.
December 8, 2025 at 1:44 PM
That kind of conversation reassures me that this is more than just liking. I am falling even deeper, further.
I got ignored on that part. Solidifying what I was afraid of.
That this isn't what people around me are used to. I'm afraid that if they see the change, I'll be loved less, perceived less.
Maybe it is bound to happen. This is my reality now.
That this isn't what people around me are used to. I'm afraid that if they see the change, I'll be loved less, perceived less.
Maybe it is bound to happen. This is my reality now.
December 7, 2025 at 10:09 AM
I got ignored on that part. Solidifying what I was afraid of.
That this isn't what people around me are used to. I'm afraid that if they see the change, I'll be loved less, perceived less.
Maybe it is bound to happen. This is my reality now.
That this isn't what people around me are used to. I'm afraid that if they see the change, I'll be loved less, perceived less.
Maybe it is bound to happen. This is my reality now.
Idk if it's my head overthinking again and beating me up to a pulp or I'm just noticing matter-of-facts.
December 7, 2025 at 10:06 AM
Idk if it's my head overthinking again and beating me up to a pulp or I'm just noticing matter-of-facts.
Trying to figure things out and stopping myself from falling into despair at the same time.
All while I'm impaired like this.
All while I'm impaired like this.
December 7, 2025 at 9:59 AM
Trying to figure things out and stopping myself from falling into despair at the same time.
All while I'm impaired like this.
All while I'm impaired like this.
:(( Lord, sana mag-stay pa rin siya kahit mahirap. Siya talaga gusto ko eh.
December 4, 2025 at 3:18 PM
:(( Lord, sana mag-stay pa rin siya kahit mahirap. Siya talaga gusto ko eh.
What if he leaves me when I start taking all these meds?
December 4, 2025 at 1:10 PM
What if he leaves me when I start taking all these meds?
It's ironic that I'm feeling anxious about taking anxiety meds.
So baka need ko nga talaga. FML.
So baka need ko nga talaga. FML.
December 4, 2025 at 12:21 PM
It's ironic that I'm feeling anxious about taking anxiety meds.
So baka need ko nga talaga. FML.
So baka need ko nga talaga. FML.
Left PGH in a shell-shocked state. Eme. Idk what to feel from the diagnosis. owo
December 4, 2025 at 5:02 AM
Left PGH in a shell-shocked state. Eme. Idk what to feel from the diagnosis. owo
I'm so worried about him but idk what to do. I feel helpless.
December 3, 2025 at 1:19 PM
I'm so worried about him but idk what to do. I feel helpless.
He eases my worries just the way I need it to be. 🥺
Lord, 'di ko na 'to papakawalan. Siya na 'to oh.
Lord, 'di ko na 'to papakawalan. Siya na 'to oh.
December 1, 2025 at 4:16 PM
He eases my worries just the way I need it to be. 🥺
Lord, 'di ko na 'to papakawalan. Siya na 'to oh.
Lord, 'di ko na 'to papakawalan. Siya na 'to oh.
Still tired today. I need his hugs.
November 30, 2025 at 12:52 AM
Still tired today. I need his hugs.
A company would've been nice. Does feel alone when I'm literally alone in the hotel room. 😅
November 26, 2025 at 5:10 PM
A company would've been nice. Does feel alone when I'm literally alone in the hotel room. 😅
Felt.
November 26, 2025 at 7:21 AM
Felt.
So stretched thin. Ang daming nangyayari and I'm being pulled from all corners. Gusto ko na mag-cry. ;-;
November 26, 2025 at 6:52 AM
So stretched thin. Ang daming nangyayari and I'm being pulled from all corners. Gusto ko na mag-cry. ;-;
Hirap naman, parang wala na akong ginawang tama.
November 26, 2025 at 6:26 AM
Hirap naman, parang wala na akong ginawang tama.
You're overthinking again, Gab. What are you doing? 🙂
November 25, 2025 at 3:16 PM
You're overthinking again, Gab. What are you doing? 🙂
I really should have done sub-oat. Goddamn, my tummy hurts.
November 24, 2025 at 2:39 PM
I really should have done sub-oat. Goddamn, my tummy hurts.
I know I shouldn't feel bad about it, but I can't help it. 😅 Maybe I shouuuuuld tone it down.
November 24, 2025 at 2:26 PM
I know I shouldn't feel bad about it, but I can't help it. 😅 Maybe I shouuuuuld tone it down.
Paskomiket haul posting!
• I forgot who's the furry artist. Aaaaaa.
• The hardbound cover komiks is worth it.
• Also, Alamat prints?! Ooh, my fanboy heart. 🥺💜
• I love the pins. New things to collect. HEHE.
• I forgot who's the furry artist. Aaaaaa.
• The hardbound cover komiks is worth it.
• Also, Alamat prints?! Ooh, my fanboy heart. 🥺💜
• I love the pins. New things to collect. HEHE.
November 24, 2025 at 1:11 PM
Paskomiket haul posting!
• I forgot who's the furry artist. Aaaaaa.
• The hardbound cover komiks is worth it.
• Also, Alamat prints?! Ooh, my fanboy heart. 🥺💜
• I love the pins. New things to collect. HEHE.
• I forgot who's the furry artist. Aaaaaa.
• The hardbound cover komiks is worth it.
• Also, Alamat prints?! Ooh, my fanboy heart. 🥺💜
• I love the pins. New things to collect. HEHE.
Three seconds after maghiwalay sa Shaw Blvd station: miss ko na siya. :((
November 24, 2025 at 12:54 PM
Three seconds after maghiwalay sa Shaw Blvd station: miss ko na siya. :((
This guy is the sweetest. 😭🥺 Siya na po talaga gusto ko, Lord. Akin na lang po siya pls pls.
November 23, 2025 at 3:57 PM
This guy is the sweetest. 😭🥺 Siya na po talaga gusto ko, Lord. Akin na lang po siya pls pls.