im just so fucking tired of trying to be enough

i just wish my mom could be more gentle

now that im actually around people with good mothers, it makes me jealous almost, but.. i dont want what they have, i want what i couldve had too. what i shouldve had.

is it so much to ask to be loved by my own mom??????

she's always making me feel like an unlovable burden, that's kinda funny tho.

like i'm so sorry, mom. i also wish i didn't turn out this way.

i love my mom but sometimes she makes me so sad…