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my friend's brother smashed a tool into a tiny fish's skull but he missed first and the fish just bled. i watched him do it a second and third time and he still missed until he just dug the knife into the brain
January 14, 2026 at 5:23 PM
i just ate everything ehre and still want to throw it all up
January 14, 2026 at 5:21 PM
i smelled it everywhere. i threw my shirt on the highway. i deep cleaned everything and threw out my couch. i feel sick
January 14, 2026 at 5:20 PM
death is rarely beautiful. if ever. suko looked the same as he passed too. his eyes open. two seconds.
January 14, 2026 at 5:20 PM
cw //

his limbs were cold and stiff and his eyes dead staring his mouth slightly pulled back but his chest was warm. he was twisted as he died. momentarily mummified. he had choked. i know he did. he smelled like shit and piss as he died
January 14, 2026 at 5:20 PM
even when i
January 14, 2026 at 5:18 PM
i feel ill. i feel ill at the memory of holding his body
January 14, 2026 at 5:18 PM
i didnt even know he was sick. they didnt tell me
January 14, 2026 at 5:18 PM
its so much easier to blame myself because then i can just move on. then i can just live with my pain. and know i cant die because of my cats.
January 14, 2026 at 5:18 PM
even though i know its not true this time. even when i thought i did everything right. even when i know he shouldve gotten care sooner from his owners. even when the vets said it was okay. even when i stayed home and took him with me everywhere and monitored his food and drinking and
January 14, 2026 at 5:17 PM
i know i did everything right. but its always easier to blame myself for all the awful things so i dont hurt others. so i dont get angry at others. ive always blamed myself for everything thats ever happened.
January 14, 2026 at 5:16 PM
even when i took a breather. he hadnt done it before. i cant
January 14, 2026 at 5:15 PM
im tired. i want to scream all the time. but i cant. im just numb. i screamed when i found him and i screamed but i had to wrap him in a towel when i handed him to his owners i told them not to look. but theyre the ones who found him
January 14, 2026 at 5:15 PM
im not okay. i did everything i could and i fell asleep for 5 hours. chrissie died the same way. i was asleep when they both passed. and its been five years nearly and its been nearly the same and its fucked me up
January 14, 2026 at 5:14 PM
cw death details //

he suffocated down the back of the couch. he pushed himself in there as he had an attack. his owners found him in the middle of rigor mortis. its fucked me up
January 14, 2026 at 5:13 PM
it was awful and it was sad and it was probably lonely and terrifying and scary
January 14, 2026 at 5:12 PM
i wasnt there. i was asleep. i thought he was fine. the way he died was awful
January 14, 2026 at 5:12 PM
the way he died was awful
January 14, 2026 at 5:11 PM
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INTO THE SOUND!!
#art #abstractart
January 14, 2026 at 7:46 AM
i didnt know. I really didnt
January 13, 2026 at 5:54 AM
ive left a message for her to call me back this afternoon bc hopefully we can talk about how i can approach having casper in my care and also going to my internship bc its stressing me the actual fuck out at the thought of having to leave him alone
January 11, 2026 at 9:03 PM
i need to talk to my internship mentor lmao i feel sick from all of this
January 11, 2026 at 9:00 PM
rip it off like a bandaid so to speak. but im autistic and mentally ill i. cant just adjust so easily like others
January 11, 2026 at 1:54 PM
everytime i do Something new or whatever the universe wants to throw every horrific scenario at me to get it out of the way and harden me quickly so i wont breakdown during the middle of it all and quit like i have in the past
January 11, 2026 at 1:51 PM
and thats okay, im okay doing this, but for 2 weeks its been nonstop despair and death and pain and i wanted to ease into vet nursing carefully.
January 11, 2026 at 1:50 PM