Even2death
@even2death.bsky.social
Casual gamer. Insomniac navigating life with BPD, DPD, CPTSD, OCD, & dissociative amnesia.
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LGBTQIA & Trans Lives Matter, BLM, Free Palestine 🇵🇸, Her body/Her choice. Human Rights are not negotiable!
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Even2death@gmail.com for inquiries
Being at "The Happiest Place On Earth" and dealing with my suicidal ideation is a really great representation of my life.
I looked someone dead in their eye and said I'm going to end my life when we get home and then went to a waterpark.
Nothing changes. Nothing gets better.
It's all too much for me
I looked someone dead in their eye and said I'm going to end my life when we get home and then went to a waterpark.
Nothing changes. Nothing gets better.
It's all too much for me
June 12, 2025 at 8:35 PM
Being at "The Happiest Place On Earth" and dealing with my suicidal ideation is a really great representation of my life.
I looked someone dead in their eye and said I'm going to end my life when we get home and then went to a waterpark.
Nothing changes. Nothing gets better.
It's all too much for me
I looked someone dead in their eye and said I'm going to end my life when we get home and then went to a waterpark.
Nothing changes. Nothing gets better.
It's all too much for me
What the fuck is the point in this life anymore?!
Every avenue is filled with it's own bullshit and stress.
I don't remember the last time I felt like I got a win in life.
I'm really fuckin over it.
Every avenue is filled with it's own bullshit and stress.
I don't remember the last time I felt like I got a win in life.
I'm really fuckin over it.
June 2, 2025 at 12:38 AM
What the fuck is the point in this life anymore?!
Every avenue is filled with it's own bullshit and stress.
I don't remember the last time I felt like I got a win in life.
I'm really fuckin over it.
Every avenue is filled with it's own bullshit and stress.
I don't remember the last time I felt like I got a win in life.
I'm really fuckin over it.
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Preorders for some popular prints that sold out over the weekend at my last festival are now available! 20% off, too :)
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May 2, 2025 at 8:04 PM
Preorders for some popular prints that sold out over the weekend at my last festival are now available! 20% off, too :)
www.beastieandbone.com/shop
www.beastieandbone.com/shop
I wonder what it's like to be understood on a deep level by people in your life.
So often I'm told to stop expressing my emotions for others comfort because they don't like how I phrase things.
I really don't have anywhere I feel safe and welcome to express myself, besides therapy. This fuckin sucks
So often I'm told to stop expressing my emotions for others comfort because they don't like how I phrase things.
I really don't have anywhere I feel safe and welcome to express myself, besides therapy. This fuckin sucks
April 28, 2025 at 11:43 PM
I wonder what it's like to be understood on a deep level by people in your life.
So often I'm told to stop expressing my emotions for others comfort because they don't like how I phrase things.
I really don't have anywhere I feel safe and welcome to express myself, besides therapy. This fuckin sucks
So often I'm told to stop expressing my emotions for others comfort because they don't like how I phrase things.
I really don't have anywhere I feel safe and welcome to express myself, besides therapy. This fuckin sucks
8wks ago I had a cervical disc replaced.
Today was my 4th day back to work. I hurt my neck 2hrs into my day. I have an appointment with my Dr. tomorrow morning, but this is really a big defeat for me physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I need a break somewhere....
Today was my 4th day back to work. I hurt my neck 2hrs into my day. I have an appointment with my Dr. tomorrow morning, but this is really a big defeat for me physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I need a break somewhere....
April 28, 2025 at 7:33 PM
8wks ago I had a cervical disc replaced.
Today was my 4th day back to work. I hurt my neck 2hrs into my day. I have an appointment with my Dr. tomorrow morning, but this is really a big defeat for me physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I need a break somewhere....
Today was my 4th day back to work. I hurt my neck 2hrs into my day. I have an appointment with my Dr. tomorrow morning, but this is really a big defeat for me physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I need a break somewhere....
The BPD & DPD Combo will be the death of me someday.
There's no fixing this; there's only coping. It isn't sustainable. It is exhausting. I'm not sure there's really any reason to persist.
There's no fixing this; there's only coping. It isn't sustainable. It is exhausting. I'm not sure there's really any reason to persist.
April 27, 2025 at 6:30 PM
The BPD & DPD Combo will be the death of me someday.
There's no fixing this; there's only coping. It isn't sustainable. It is exhausting. I'm not sure there's really any reason to persist.
There's no fixing this; there's only coping. It isn't sustainable. It is exhausting. I'm not sure there's really any reason to persist.
I really wish the hell that is my life would end already.
I'm tired of hearing how strong I am for living with BPD and DPD.
IT DOESN'T HELP ANYTHING!
I'm tired of hearing how strong I am for living with BPD and DPD.
IT DOESN'T HELP ANYTHING!
April 27, 2025 at 12:17 PM
I really wish the hell that is my life would end already.
I'm tired of hearing how strong I am for living with BPD and DPD.
IT DOESN'T HELP ANYTHING!
I'm tired of hearing how strong I am for living with BPD and DPD.
IT DOESN'T HELP ANYTHING!
I'm at my breaking point with life, and I am returning to work today after being off since Feb. 13.
I'm sure things will only be great today! /s
Fuckin hate my life and everything about it
I'm sure things will only be great today! /s
Fuckin hate my life and everything about it
April 22, 2025 at 9:13 AM
I'm at my breaking point with life, and I am returning to work today after being off since Feb. 13.
I'm sure things will only be great today! /s
Fuckin hate my life and everything about it
I'm sure things will only be great today! /s
Fuckin hate my life and everything about it
I'm over the daily battles, misunderstandings, lack of communication, and overwhelming disappointments.
I haven't had a positive anything in so long, I don't know I'd recognize one.
I'm tired of my efforts constantly being in vain or unwanted.
I just wish it would end.
I haven't had a positive anything in so long, I don't know I'd recognize one.
I'm tired of my efforts constantly being in vain or unwanted.
I just wish it would end.
April 21, 2025 at 10:09 PM
I'm over the daily battles, misunderstandings, lack of communication, and overwhelming disappointments.
I haven't had a positive anything in so long, I don't know I'd recognize one.
I'm tired of my efforts constantly being in vain or unwanted.
I just wish it would end.
I haven't had a positive anything in so long, I don't know I'd recognize one.
I'm tired of my efforts constantly being in vain or unwanted.
I just wish it would end.
Days like today show me that the world will go on fine without me.
April 19, 2025 at 4:24 PM
Days like today show me that the world will go on fine without me.
I really hate what my life has become and wish it would end.
I'm running out of reasons to persist.
I'm running out of reasons to persist.
April 19, 2025 at 12:35 AM
I really hate what my life has become and wish it would end.
I'm running out of reasons to persist.
I'm running out of reasons to persist.
It makes sense why the right wants to get rid of Drag performers reading books to children....Donnie can't read and they're trying to avoid another disaster!
This tool has on more makeup than Trixie Mattel!
This tool has on more makeup than Trixie Mattel!
April 17, 2025 at 12:07 AM
It makes sense why the right wants to get rid of Drag performers reading books to children....Donnie can't read and they're trying to avoid another disaster!
This tool has on more makeup than Trixie Mattel!
This tool has on more makeup than Trixie Mattel!
Having arthritic hands and a molting bird is bad for both of us! 😅🤣
My hands are tired of working on new feathers on the head of #PeanutTheAmazon
#birdbitch #birdsofbluesky #parrot #bird
My hands are tired of working on new feathers on the head of #PeanutTheAmazon
#birdbitch #birdsofbluesky #parrot #bird
April 7, 2025 at 11:21 PM
Having arthritic hands and a molting bird is bad for both of us! 😅🤣
My hands are tired of working on new feathers on the head of #PeanutTheAmazon
#birdbitch #birdsofbluesky #parrot #bird
My hands are tired of working on new feathers on the head of #PeanutTheAmazon
#birdbitch #birdsofbluesky #parrot #bird
Heading to an overcrowded cannabis event....by myself....for the second year in a row.
Rick And Morty I Cant Take It Anymore I Just Want To Die GIF
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April 6, 2025 at 11:55 AM
Heading to an overcrowded cannabis event....by myself....for the second year in a row.
I'm beyond tired of my existence
April 5, 2025 at 10:46 PM
I'm beyond tired of my existence
I just need one good day....
April 5, 2025 at 12:32 PM
I just need one good day....
I really can't handle being the disposable person in everyone's fuckin life.
Life was never supposed to be like this.
Life was never supposed to be like this.
March 29, 2025 at 4:37 PM
I really can't handle being the disposable person in everyone's fuckin life.
Life was never supposed to be like this.
Life was never supposed to be like this.
I hate being around people that think they know things, but they're really just spewing buzzwords they've heard.
March 29, 2025 at 12:48 PM
I hate being around people that think they know things, but they're really just spewing buzzwords they've heard.
I'm tired of life
a man is standing in front of a red brick wall and pointing at it .
ALT: a man is standing in front of a red brick wall and pointing at it .
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March 28, 2025 at 12:51 AM
I'm tired of life
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I would like to nominate Maxwell Smart for national security advisor.
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March 25, 2025 at 1:32 AM
I would like to nominate Maxwell Smart for national security advisor.
My DPD/BPD combo will be the death of me.
Eventually I will be a statistic.
People will speak poorly of me. They'll call me a coward & say I took the easy way out.
Every minute is a struggle.
There is no peace with this.
Every day is a fight & I'm tired.
I really am trying.
I AM TIRED!
Eventually I will be a statistic.
People will speak poorly of me. They'll call me a coward & say I took the easy way out.
Every minute is a struggle.
There is no peace with this.
Every day is a fight & I'm tired.
I really am trying.
I AM TIRED!
March 22, 2025 at 11:18 PM
My DPD/BPD combo will be the death of me.
Eventually I will be a statistic.
People will speak poorly of me. They'll call me a coward & say I took the easy way out.
Every minute is a struggle.
There is no peace with this.
Every day is a fight & I'm tired.
I really am trying.
I AM TIRED!
Eventually I will be a statistic.
People will speak poorly of me. They'll call me a coward & say I took the easy way out.
Every minute is a struggle.
There is no peace with this.
Every day is a fight & I'm tired.
I really am trying.
I AM TIRED!
In the 8ish years that I have kept a beard on my face it has only been because I thought it looked good.
Today it hit me that I am now growing my beard to hide my scar.
In sooo many areas of my life....it was never supposed to be like this.....
Today it hit me that I am now growing my beard to hide my scar.
In sooo many areas of my life....it was never supposed to be like this.....
March 22, 2025 at 12:21 PM
In the 8ish years that I have kept a beard on my face it has only been because I thought it looked good.
Today it hit me that I am now growing my beard to hide my scar.
In sooo many areas of my life....it was never supposed to be like this.....
Today it hit me that I am now growing my beard to hide my scar.
In sooo many areas of my life....it was never supposed to be like this.....
I have tried to stream the last couple days, but I have ended up sleeping instead.
Depression naps suck.
Depression naps suck.
March 19, 2025 at 8:47 PM
I have tried to stream the last couple days, but I have ended up sleeping instead.
Depression naps suck.
Depression naps suck.