Electrovator
@electrovator.bsky.social
Writer. Musician. Father. General Nice Guy. 28 Years Old. Social Anxiety, Depression, ADHD, OCD, Bipolar. Seasonal Affective Disorder (S.A.D). Abused.
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Electrovator
@electrovator.bsky.social
· Jul 23
My only worth is being useful to others.
If I'm not useful, I don't deserve to live.
What I feel, what I want, what I need, none of it matters.
I don't deserve happiness. I deserve this loneliness because I exist.
If I'm not useful, I don't deserve to live.
What I feel, what I want, what I need, none of it matters.
I don't deserve happiness. I deserve this loneliness because I exist.
I'm done trusting people, even family. It just leads to disappointment and betrayal.
December 15, 2025 at 4:48 PM
I'm done trusting people, even family. It just leads to disappointment and betrayal.
Abandoned by my mother once again. This time after she said they'd give us a ride to the foodbank.
Can't fucking rely on anyone even when I don't have enough to eat.
I hate this world.
Can't fucking rely on anyone even when I don't have enough to eat.
I hate this world.
December 15, 2025 at 4:12 PM
Abandoned by my mother once again. This time after she said they'd give us a ride to the foodbank.
Can't fucking rely on anyone even when I don't have enough to eat.
I hate this world.
Can't fucking rely on anyone even when I don't have enough to eat.
I hate this world.
HP Sauce and Popcorn.
I am weird.
I am weird.
December 15, 2025 at 12:11 AM
HP Sauce and Popcorn.
I am weird.
I am weird.
Despite having YouTube Premium (free trial), I just got a gambling ad.
I am actively pissed.
I am actively pissed.
December 14, 2025 at 11:42 PM
Despite having YouTube Premium (free trial), I just got a gambling ad.
I am actively pissed.
I am actively pissed.
I could see Man Vs Baby becoming a Christmas classic. That was delightful.
December 11, 2025 at 10:17 PM
I could see Man Vs Baby becoming a Christmas classic. That was delightful.
Who knows, maybe getting hit by that car will make me sleep better.
December 11, 2025 at 6:29 AM
Who knows, maybe getting hit by that car will make me sleep better.
Car messed up my leg a bit. Hurts to stand on it but I'm okay
December 10, 2025 at 9:25 PM
Car messed up my leg a bit. Hurts to stand on it but I'm okay
I GOT HIT BY A FUCKING CAR
December 10, 2025 at 6:57 PM
I GOT HIT BY A FUCKING CAR
I have a damn appointment at 11 AM tomorrow, not looking forward to it.
Mostly because I have to get up early and walk for half an hour in the fucking snow.
I hate winter so much.. I hate the cold..
I don't want to go damn it.
Mostly because I have to get up early and walk for half an hour in the fucking snow.
I hate winter so much.. I hate the cold..
I don't want to go damn it.
December 9, 2025 at 9:25 PM
I have a damn appointment at 11 AM tomorrow, not looking forward to it.
Mostly because I have to get up early and walk for half an hour in the fucking snow.
I hate winter so much.. I hate the cold..
I don't want to go damn it.
Mostly because I have to get up early and walk for half an hour in the fucking snow.
I hate winter so much.. I hate the cold..
I don't want to go damn it.
I have an obsession with cooking potatoes, applying butter, and then smothering my plate of potatoes in sour cream with salt and pepper.
And if there's Barbecue sauce available, even better on top of all that, especially left over from cooking with pork chops in a pan.
And if there's Barbecue sauce available, even better on top of all that, especially left over from cooking with pork chops in a pan.
December 8, 2025 at 12:26 AM
I have an obsession with cooking potatoes, applying butter, and then smothering my plate of potatoes in sour cream with salt and pepper.
And if there's Barbecue sauce available, even better on top of all that, especially left over from cooking with pork chops in a pan.
And if there's Barbecue sauce available, even better on top of all that, especially left over from cooking with pork chops in a pan.
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December 7, 2025 at 12:43 AM
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I have now seen Five Nights At Freddy's 2 twice. My sister loves it as much as me.
December 6, 2025 at 2:59 AM
I have now seen Five Nights At Freddy's 2 twice. My sister loves it as much as me.
I was super excited to get into Blood Refreshed Supply and have community mods so I can play hundreds of user campaigns like DOOM + DOOM 2, but what do I find after starting it up? No community mods on consoles.
I am not happy.
I am not happy.
December 5, 2025 at 8:21 PM
I was super excited to get into Blood Refreshed Supply and have community mods so I can play hundreds of user campaigns like DOOM + DOOM 2, but what do I find after starting it up? No community mods on consoles.
I am not happy.
I am not happy.
@p31mission.bsky.social hey how are you doing?
December 5, 2025 at 6:50 AM
@p31mission.bsky.social hey how are you doing?
How are you doing?
December 4, 2025 at 5:41 AM
How are you doing?
"I'm finding it hard to exist
After you let go of me
Centuries of doing the same old thing
Sitting and staring at the same scenery
The seasons will pass like rain
But my feelings for you will remain
I'll wait here as you go your way
And hope I can see you again someday"
These lyrics hit so hard...
After you let go of me
Centuries of doing the same old thing
Sitting and staring at the same scenery
The seasons will pass like rain
But my feelings for you will remain
I'll wait here as you go your way
And hope I can see you again someday"
These lyrics hit so hard...
December 1, 2025 at 9:19 PM
"I'm finding it hard to exist
After you let go of me
Centuries of doing the same old thing
Sitting and staring at the same scenery
The seasons will pass like rain
But my feelings for you will remain
I'll wait here as you go your way
And hope I can see you again someday"
These lyrics hit so hard...
After you let go of me
Centuries of doing the same old thing
Sitting and staring at the same scenery
The seasons will pass like rain
But my feelings for you will remain
I'll wait here as you go your way
And hope I can see you again someday"
These lyrics hit so hard...
My DOOM stats are getting bigger heh.
November 30, 2025 at 2:13 AM
My DOOM stats are getting bigger heh.
I'm half tempted to go on my hour walk in the freezing cold just because I'm feeling completely miserable and upset. Again.
November 30, 2025 at 1:48 AM
I'm half tempted to go on my hour walk in the freezing cold just because I'm feeling completely miserable and upset. Again.
Its so hard to live without her.
But I don't want her ever finding that out. I don't want her feeling guilty for the way the things that happened affected me.
If I have to die for her to be safe from that guilt, and for her to be able to live happily, so be it.
But I don't want her ever finding that out. I don't want her feeling guilty for the way the things that happened affected me.
If I have to die for her to be safe from that guilt, and for her to be able to live happily, so be it.
November 30, 2025 at 1:01 AM
Its so hard to live without her.
But I don't want her ever finding that out. I don't want her feeling guilty for the way the things that happened affected me.
If I have to die for her to be safe from that guilt, and for her to be able to live happily, so be it.
But I don't want her ever finding that out. I don't want her feeling guilty for the way the things that happened affected me.
If I have to die for her to be safe from that guilt, and for her to be able to live happily, so be it.
I am so sick of telling YouTube not to recommend specific channels over and over again because it just decides to start recommending the channels I told it not to again.
November 28, 2025 at 12:45 AM
I am so sick of telling YouTube not to recommend specific channels over and over again because it just decides to start recommending the channels I told it not to again.
I may not have an Irish Accent, having been born in Canada and all, but I am very proud to be Irish to be honest.
November 27, 2025 at 10:19 PM
I may not have an Irish Accent, having been born in Canada and all, but I am very proud to be Irish to be honest.
Crow Country is PHENOMENAL.
Highly recommend it.
Highly recommend it.
Despite all odds we now somehow have multiple physical game releases
November 27, 2025 at 9:34 PM
Crow Country is PHENOMENAL.
Highly recommend it.
Highly recommend it.
Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends.
November 27, 2025 at 9:33 PM
Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends.
Been finding it harder to do anything due to lack of energy from lack of food.
I don't get paid till Friday so I have nothing till then but it's gotten harder to wait for that.
I don't get paid till Friday so I have nothing till then but it's gotten harder to wait for that.
November 26, 2025 at 1:05 AM
Been finding it harder to do anything due to lack of energy from lack of food.
I don't get paid till Friday so I have nothing till then but it's gotten harder to wait for that.
I don't get paid till Friday so I have nothing till then but it's gotten harder to wait for that.
I must starve till Friday
November 25, 2025 at 5:16 AM
I must starve till Friday