Eden Flux
@edens-hide-corner.bsky.social
My little hidey-hole. I'm sharing things here I'm uncomfortable about on my main. We'll see how this goes
I think it must be "shark week" for my manager, because her tone is so snarky the last few days. "You must change this" was a literal response to me saying "I think it should be all good like this."
May 22, 2025 at 1:52 PM
I think it must be "shark week" for my manager, because her tone is so snarky the last few days. "You must change this" was a literal response to me saying "I think it should be all good like this."
Okay, so using femme nouns in third person is still really weird for me ... it feels like I'm lying, like I'm an imposter, yet hearing others refer to me with them feel nice, I started enjoying that though. So we're slowly getting there I suppose
April 23, 2025 at 1:21 PM
Okay, so using femme nouns in third person is still really weird for me ... it feels like I'm lying, like I'm an imposter, yet hearing others refer to me with them feel nice, I started enjoying that though. So we're slowly getting there I suppose
Still kinda worried that new mannerisms might annoy people, I just hope that people see me being ever so slightly (shy AF) a bit more myself and more expressive
April 22, 2025 at 12:10 PM
Still kinda worried that new mannerisms might annoy people, I just hope that people see me being ever so slightly (shy AF) a bit more myself and more expressive
I might be tired and hyper self-aware because of that ... But I hope people don't find it annoying that I'm behaving slightly different than before I revealed all of this stuff. It's just very freeing, like a lot of weight has been lifted from my shoulders
April 17, 2025 at 11:06 PM
I might be tired and hyper self-aware because of that ... But I hope people don't find it annoying that I'm behaving slightly different than before I revealed all of this stuff. It's just very freeing, like a lot of weight has been lifted from my shoulders
Well, that went definitely better than expected ... I don't know half of the people who react to it, but they are supportive, so it's all goood ^^
April 15, 2025 at 2:59 PM
Well, that went definitely better than expected ... I don't know half of the people who react to it, but they are supportive, so it's all goood ^^
Changed my pronouns most places ... I still feel scared/shy to say it out loud, and for now I'm trying she/they ... because I don't hate they/them, but I do kinda wanna see how it feels outside the little bubble I've been experimenting in.
April 15, 2025 at 8:10 AM
Changed my pronouns most places ... I still feel scared/shy to say it out loud, and for now I'm trying she/they ... because I don't hate they/them, but I do kinda wanna see how it feels outside the little bubble I've been experimenting in.
Boundaries towards adopting the pronouns she/her are so much more intimidating than they/them were. It feels like more of a commitment, and even though it doesn't have to mean anything more than preferences, it still feels like it does... I might wanna make the push, but it's scary! So scary
April 14, 2025 at 3:28 PM
Boundaries towards adopting the pronouns she/her are so much more intimidating than they/them were. It feels like more of a commitment, and even though it doesn't have to mean anything more than preferences, it still feels like it does... I might wanna make the push, but it's scary! So scary
Never have I been so confused about my own gender identity. Being called cutesy nouns have been making me feel nice, people trying to flirt with me is weird... but somehow I feel like an imposter, like I'm lying to people. Also my body dysphoria is at an all time high 💀
April 10, 2025 at 9:48 AM
Never have I been so confused about my own gender identity. Being called cutesy nouns have been making me feel nice, people trying to flirt with me is weird... but somehow I feel like an imposter, like I'm lying to people. Also my body dysphoria is at an all time high 💀
Frustrated with myself, the lack of energy to work on art ... and also kinda with the socials. I feel like I'm slipping into a void where no one really bothers looking.
I want to blame it on the move and the several life changes, but I really don't know if that's the case
I want to blame it on the move and the several life changes, but I really don't know if that's the case
April 9, 2025 at 4:53 PM
Frustrated with myself, the lack of energy to work on art ... and also kinda with the socials. I feel like I'm slipping into a void where no one really bothers looking.
I want to blame it on the move and the several life changes, but I really don't know if that's the case
I want to blame it on the move and the several life changes, but I really don't know if that's the case
Feeling the urge again 🫣
March 26, 2025 at 3:40 PM
Feeling the urge again 🫣
Anxiety-driven boredom is the worst, it's like you wanna do something... You want it to be "useful", you don't want it to be "lonely", but the what how where, and when are a struggle
March 22, 2025 at 10:01 PM
Anxiety-driven boredom is the worst, it's like you wanna do something... You want it to be "useful", you don't want it to be "lonely", but the what how where, and when are a struggle
So, experimenting with different nouns than non-binary ones, and interestingly enough I have aversion against my assigned ones, and feel okay, neutral, fine with the ones of the opposite gender ... not really different from nb, I guess I'm still genderfluid, but the space on the spectrum has moved?
March 21, 2025 at 10:24 AM
So, experimenting with different nouns than non-binary ones, and interestingly enough I have aversion against my assigned ones, and feel okay, neutral, fine with the ones of the opposite gender ... not really different from nb, I guess I'm still genderfluid, but the space on the spectrum has moved?
Doing my ever living best not to worry people, but I'm very much not in a good headspace.
March 15, 2025 at 9:31 PM
Doing my ever living best not to worry people, but I'm very much not in a good headspace.
What if I made a spicy version of my persona ... I'm unsure because I feel like it'd make my dysphoria maybe worse
March 11, 2025 at 5:33 PM
What if I made a spicy version of my persona ... I'm unsure because I feel like it'd make my dysphoria maybe worse
I feel like I should tell people that my newest OC is kind of a persona, but ah! I feel like it'd be weird, then again, which artist doesn't throw a lot of theirself into a character ... so maybe it's fine?
March 1, 2025 at 8:02 PM
I feel like I should tell people that my newest OC is kind of a persona, but ah! I feel like it'd be weird, then again, which artist doesn't throw a lot of theirself into a character ... so maybe it's fine?
I finally told some people about this name ... and as you'd expect ... way less scary than my mind made it look
February 17, 2025 at 2:44 PM
I finally told some people about this name ... and as you'd expect ... way less scary than my mind made it look
Anxiety riddled, I just wanna curl up in bed and pretend nobody knows of my existence 😭
February 11, 2025 at 9:35 AM
Anxiety riddled, I just wanna curl up in bed and pretend nobody knows of my existence 😭
Hello social anxiety, it's been a while ... why do I suddenly worry about being annoying with my speech patterns, this is a new version of the anxiety... Guess it was a system update overnight
February 6, 2025 at 10:22 AM
Hello social anxiety, it's been a while ... why do I suddenly worry about being annoying with my speech patterns, this is a new version of the anxiety... Guess it was a system update overnight
I don't know why I'm so scared to tell people about this name 😩
January 17, 2025 at 11:24 AM
I don't know why I'm so scared to tell people about this name 😩
The silence is deafening today... and I don't know what's different from yesterday
January 12, 2025 at 2:55 PM
The silence is deafening today... and I don't know what's different from yesterday
I don't wanna have to clarify that I go by they/them for the hundredth time. I don't want to explain what it means for me. Same for being ace. I also don't wanna need to have an opinion ready on anything art or gaming. But people expect it
January 11, 2025 at 9:26 AM
I don't wanna have to clarify that I go by they/them for the hundredth time. I don't want to explain what it means for me. Same for being ace. I also don't wanna need to have an opinion ready on anything art or gaming. But people expect it
I thought the longer I'd be on this earth, the easier it'd be to be myself. But it seems like with everything I like, and want to be, I have to have an opinion and be ready to defend it with my whole ass. It's exhausting to "be" 😩
January 11, 2025 at 9:15 AM
I thought the longer I'd be on this earth, the easier it'd be to be myself. But it seems like with everything I like, and want to be, I have to have an opinion and be ready to defend it with my whole ass. It's exhausting to "be" 😩
What happened to block and don't engage? I see so many people I follow suddenly complain with screenshots of some weird take, or reply... And it really makes my follow feed less fun to scroll through
January 5, 2025 at 12:22 PM
What happened to block and don't engage? I see so many people I follow suddenly complain with screenshots of some weird take, or reply... And it really makes my follow feed less fun to scroll through
I wanna play games again, but half of my library makes me anxious momentarily... Great games, but I just don't wanna feel lonely. And I'm not referring to co-op/multiplayer. A lot of games I normally like are kind of lone-wolf RPGs, in huge worlds, and I'm just not mentally there rn
December 30, 2024 at 8:31 PM
I wanna play games again, but half of my library makes me anxious momentarily... Great games, but I just don't wanna feel lonely. And I'm not referring to co-op/multiplayer. A lot of games I normally like are kind of lone-wolf RPGs, in huge worlds, and I'm just not mentally there rn