The-asshole-you-made
@dragonass69.bsky.social
49, male, freak. loves horror movies,animals and being weird. Lgbtq
This is my feelings/vent page. It's gonna be all over the place.
This is my feelings/vent page. It's gonna be all over the place.
I miss your touch,your smell,your embrace. I miss how we were before things got messed up. Even when you frustrate me my love for you never diminishes. I want US back. I hate not being able to kiss you when you're close. Thanks for the hug today.
#painwontfade #dragonlovesowl
#painwontfade #dragonlovesowl
November 16, 2025 at 8:56 AM
I miss your touch,your smell,your embrace. I miss how we were before things got messed up. Even when you frustrate me my love for you never diminishes. I want US back. I hate not being able to kiss you when you're close. Thanks for the hug today.
#painwontfade #dragonlovesowl
#painwontfade #dragonlovesowl
Is it wrong that I still watch you and admire your beauty? My heart aches for you.
November 11, 2025 at 2:54 AM
Is it wrong that I still watch you and admire your beauty? My heart aches for you.
Today I'm just lost.Should I start looking for places?Should I just start not being around her as much as possible?Being around her is a double edged sword. I still love everything about her, her smile,her laugh,her eyes, even when she's mad she's so beautiful. Im dying slowly, my mask is slipping.
November 9, 2025 at 1:01 PM
Today I'm just lost.Should I start looking for places?Should I just start not being around her as much as possible?Being around her is a double edged sword. I still love everything about her, her smile,her laugh,her eyes, even when she's mad she's so beautiful. Im dying slowly, my mask is slipping.
"Do I need to buy you your grocery stuff." Umm so that's where we are now. Ok so you need to give me $50 for the cell, $50 for the internet and $20 for the pay channels I pay for. I can get petty..
November 8, 2025 at 2:21 PM
"Do I need to buy you your grocery stuff." Umm so that's where we are now. Ok so you need to give me $50 for the cell, $50 for the internet and $20 for the pay channels I pay for. I can get petty..
As angry and hurt as I am,I cant stay angry at you. And I certainly cant stop loving you. When I said the song "I won't give up" I meant it. I'll be there for till my dying breath even if i dont hear from you for years. You call,I'll find a way to be there. #dragonlovesowl4ever
November 6, 2025 at 4:39 PM
As angry and hurt as I am,I cant stay angry at you. And I certainly cant stop loving you. When I said the song "I won't give up" I meant it. I'll be there for till my dying breath even if i dont hear from you for years. You call,I'll find a way to be there. #dragonlovesowl4ever
I rant here in frustration and anger,but im mostly angry at myself. I fucked up the one good thing I had in my life and I dont know if I can live with the sadness and regret. I am pathetic and would do anything to have you back,even quit smoking. Nothing in my heart has changed about you. #brokenman
November 6, 2025 at 4:04 AM
I rant here in frustration and anger,but im mostly angry at myself. I fucked up the one good thing I had in my life and I dont know if I can live with the sadness and regret. I am pathetic and would do anything to have you back,even quit smoking. Nothing in my heart has changed about you. #brokenman
If she has her phone in her hand,even if shes just surfing fb do not try to talk to her. She won't hear you or pay you any attention
November 4, 2025 at 2:15 AM
If she has her phone in her hand,even if shes just surfing fb do not try to talk to her. She won't hear you or pay you any attention
Fuck today! Fuck the bus system! Fuck NY! Fuck women! Fuck my life! Im so over this shit.
#isitworthit? #whatsthepoint
#isitworthit? #whatsthepoint
November 3, 2025 at 12:12 PM
Fuck today! Fuck the bus system! Fuck NY! Fuck women! Fuck my life! Im so over this shit.
#isitworthit? #whatsthepoint
#isitworthit? #whatsthepoint
Lost lost lost. Do I show ot or not? Does it matter? Why are you so happy? 8 years and you smile like it was nothing. And to call me your "roommate"? What we're not friends anymore?
November 3, 2025 at 8:18 AM
Lost lost lost. Do I show ot or not? Does it matter? Why are you so happy? 8 years and you smile like it was nothing. And to call me your "roommate"? What we're not friends anymore?
We sat on the couch watching a movie. I felt your hand touching mine. I know it didnt mean anything but it made me feel calm and happy. Im pathetic
#hopeless #fantasyworld
#hopeless #fantasyworld
November 1, 2025 at 12:01 PM
We sat on the couch watching a movie. I felt your hand touching mine. I know it didnt mean anything but it made me feel calm and happy. Im pathetic
#hopeless #fantasyworld
#hopeless #fantasyworld
Things have been quiet.I had my night of a breakdown,sobbing and laying in the fetal position about 3 weeks ago when I was finally alone. She's changed schedules and updated fb to say single.I just have waves of anger,sadness, feeling lost, unattractive, lonely. Therapist says im normal in this. 😢💔
October 23, 2025 at 3:11 PM
Things have been quiet.I had my night of a breakdown,sobbing and laying in the fetal position about 3 weeks ago when I was finally alone. She's changed schedules and updated fb to say single.I just have waves of anger,sadness, feeling lost, unattractive, lonely. Therapist says im normal in this. 😢💔
And so it begins.She's splitting things up. It was just the cookbooks but it still hit hard. I just said "doesn't matter, get rid of them all." At this point I'm not ready,it hasn't even been 3 weeks. I had to walk away. I dont think she knows how hard this is on me. *Panic attack and crying* #NotOk
October 9, 2025 at 11:21 AM
And so it begins.She's splitting things up. It was just the cookbooks but it still hit hard. I just said "doesn't matter, get rid of them all." At this point I'm not ready,it hasn't even been 3 weeks. I had to walk away. I dont think she knows how hard this is on me. *Panic attack and crying* #NotOk
After 2 weeks & 3 days I was not sick and alone to have my emotional breakdown. I got some relief from the anger and ugly cried for a bit. But I know there is more to come. Ive been so very calm these last 2 weeks,some has to do with being so ill. Dr appt in the AM to get my physical health back.
October 8, 2025 at 7:48 AM
After 2 weeks & 3 days I was not sick and alone to have my emotional breakdown. I got some relief from the anger and ugly cried for a bit. But I know there is more to come. Ive been so very calm these last 2 weeks,some has to do with being so ill. Dr appt in the AM to get my physical health back.
I hate that you seem so happy. Im slowly dying physically and emotionally. And you act as if nothing has happened. How can you be so callous about breaking my heart? And have no problem taking my money for b.s. items.
October 6, 2025 at 1:58 AM
I hate that you seem so happy. Im slowly dying physically and emotionally. And you act as if nothing has happened. How can you be so callous about breaking my heart? And have no problem taking my money for b.s. items.
I can feel the breakdown coming. I just need to hold it off till Tuesday.
#breakdown #gonnaloseit #hopeicanstopcrying
#breakdown #gonnaloseit #hopeicanstopcrying
October 3, 2025 at 4:00 AM
I can feel the breakdown coming. I just need to hold it off till Tuesday.
#breakdown #gonnaloseit #hopeicanstopcrying
#breakdown #gonnaloseit #hopeicanstopcrying
Been quiet cause I got some kind of plague and haven't been feeling like💩.So my emotional breakdown hasn't fully come cause I've been concentrating on my physical health.But I still went w her to urgent care cause she got sick.Then I got worse. #sucker #hopelessromantic #broken
October 2, 2025 at 1:26 PM
Been quiet cause I got some kind of plague and haven't been feeling like💩.So my emotional breakdown hasn't fully come cause I've been concentrating on my physical health.But I still went w her to urgent care cause she got sick.Then I got worse. #sucker #hopelessromantic #broken
I still dont understand. As I walk around the house seeing all the love notes I've left for her how she ever thought I didnt love her. All the surprises all the songs I dedicated to her. I may have verbally gotten quiet but not once did I ever stop loving or trying to tell her how I felt.
September 24, 2025 at 2:51 PM
I still dont understand. As I walk around the house seeing all the love notes I've left for her how she ever thought I didnt love her. All the surprises all the songs I dedicated to her. I may have verbally gotten quiet but not once did I ever stop loving or trying to tell her how I felt.
Wow she cares more about me now that she dumped me. Go figure. #wtf #atleastshecaresnow
September 24, 2025 at 6:09 AM
Wow she cares more about me now that she dumped me. Go figure. #wtf #atleastshecaresnow
Thrashing angry dreams. Woke myself up several times by yelling or thrashing around fighting. Puked after I got up and ate. Anxiety and panic attacks when its quiet. Not that any of you care.
September 23, 2025 at 12:40 AM
Thrashing angry dreams. Woke myself up several times by yelling or thrashing around fighting. Puked after I got up and ate. Anxiety and panic attacks when its quiet. Not that any of you care.