IYNX
@diviningiynx.bsky.social
Sacred sensuality // Healing from trauma and cult abuse // Channeled music, art, and more
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IYNX
@diviningiynx.bsky.social
· Nov 11
This account came into being because we felt the need to speak our truth into the public void. I was raised in an abusive cult and was subjected to ritual abuse, sex trafficking, and torture from the time I was a toddler.
I've been debating how to bear witness to my own trauma while not glorifying the violence or attracting abusers. It's a gray area for me because I recall reading accounts of abuse in Trauma and Recovery when I was younger and feeling triggered and aroused by them. I was trained to react that way…
January 22, 2026 at 9:28 AM
I've been debating how to bear witness to my own trauma while not glorifying the violence or attracting abusers. It's a gray area for me because I recall reading accounts of abuse in Trauma and Recovery when I was younger and feeling triggered and aroused by them. I was trained to react that way…
New book on my wishlist.
January 22, 2026 at 9:05 AM
New book on my wishlist.
Hi there. It's MLK Jr. Day. When he was fighting for human rights, he was jailed, called an "agitator," and bugged by the FBI. These things happen in real life. Stop writing people off as crazy for telling the truth or trying to change things for the better.
www.npr.org/2021/01/18/9...
www.npr.org/2021/01/18/9...
Documentary Exposes How The FBI Tried To Destroy MLK With Wiretaps, Blackmail
MLK/FBI director Sam Pollard chronicles the FBI's campaign against Martin Luther King Jr., which included sending King a letter suggesting that he kill himself.
www.npr.org
January 19, 2026 at 10:38 PM
Hi there. It's MLK Jr. Day. When he was fighting for human rights, he was jailed, called an "agitator," and bugged by the FBI. These things happen in real life. Stop writing people off as crazy for telling the truth or trying to change things for the better.
www.npr.org/2021/01/18/9...
www.npr.org/2021/01/18/9...
I forgot. The world doesn’t care. The universe doesn’t care. We can only be happy. Nothing bad ever happens. We can only be happy. I will stop complaining. I’m grateful to the world and universe for reminding me to die with a smile on my face.
January 19, 2026 at 8:41 PM
I forgot. The world doesn’t care. The universe doesn’t care. We can only be happy. Nothing bad ever happens. We can only be happy. I will stop complaining. I’m grateful to the world and universe for reminding me to die with a smile on my face.
January 18, 2026 at 9:16 PM
Is it weird to want to find your own CP? Not to watch necessarily but just another concrete thing that others are privy to and profiting from but I don't have access to.
January 16, 2026 at 9:32 AM
Is it weird to want to find your own CP? Not to watch necessarily but just another concrete thing that others are privy to and profiting from but I don't have access to.
I had a mini panic attack yesterday, thinking about people possibly no longer talking about the Epstein files, and the surface closing back over the small small opening the Epstein files have made, and being trapped under the surface again while others walk by without a care or notice.
January 15, 2026 at 9:02 PM
I had a mini panic attack yesterday, thinking about people possibly no longer talking about the Epstein files, and the surface closing back over the small small opening the Epstein files have made, and being trapped under the surface again while others walk by without a care or notice.
This is a song I wrote two years ago when I was feeling more than I could express in words.
on.soundcloud.com/Mo4eA8ScaN7v...
on.soundcloud.com/Mo4eA8ScaN7v...
allele (demo)
From the end of May
soundcloud.com
January 6, 2026 at 1:58 AM
This is a song I wrote two years ago when I was feeling more than I could express in words.
on.soundcloud.com/Mo4eA8ScaN7v...
on.soundcloud.com/Mo4eA8ScaN7v...
Trafficking is organized crime with attendant violence, murder, kidnapping, often drugs, laundering, and other crimes. The government, even before this admin, has been complicit as traffickers. Individual government figures have also been complicit as clients and who knows what else.
January 5, 2026 at 6:22 PM
Trafficking is organized crime with attendant violence, murder, kidnapping, often drugs, laundering, and other crimes. The government, even before this admin, has been complicit as traffickers. Individual government figures have also been complicit as clients and who knows what else.
memory, my friend, my
torn apart unraveled overexposed film
reels back in horror
the scene of horror unfolds!
and there is no looking away
unfolding and folding
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
i cometh
i regain my senses
i am here
torn apart unraveled overexposed film
reels back in horror
the scene of horror unfolds!
and there is no looking away
unfolding and folding
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
i cometh
i regain my senses
i am here
January 4, 2026 at 8:50 PM
memory, my friend, my
torn apart unraveled overexposed film
reels back in horror
the scene of horror unfolds!
and there is no looking away
unfolding and folding
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
i cometh
i regain my senses
i am here
torn apart unraveled overexposed film
reels back in horror
the scene of horror unfolds!
and there is no looking away
unfolding and folding
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
don't you remember me
i cometh
i regain my senses
i am here
Don't let the new year distract you. That’s is how we got here. Don't pull the veil over your own eyes trying to shut the curtain on a "bad year."
January 1, 2026 at 2:41 AM
Don't let the new year distract you. That’s is how we got here. Don't pull the veil over your own eyes trying to shut the curtain on a "bad year."
December 30, 2025 at 7:19 PM
December 26, 2025 at 9:14 AM
Remember the so-called "Satanic Panic"? Look around you. Do you think the government always tells the truth? Do you think coverups are fantasy? Do you think violence is a fairy tale? Do you think people, civil people like colonial powers, wouldn't hurt babies? What about the babies they bombed and
December 25, 2025 at 7:21 PM
Remember the so-called "Satanic Panic"? Look around you. Do you think the government always tells the truth? Do you think coverups are fantasy? Do you think violence is a fairy tale? Do you think people, civil people like colonial powers, wouldn't hurt babies? What about the babies they bombed and
Don't look away from the violence. It is real. It happens to people on a daily basis. I've seen people outright dismiss records of victims' claims because they thought they were too extreme. That allows perpetrators to continue freely.
December 25, 2025 at 7:19 PM
Don't look away from the violence. It is real. It happens to people on a daily basis. I've seen people outright dismiss records of victims' claims because they thought they were too extreme. That allows perpetrators to continue freely.
Drawing is a language through which my parts and alters often communicate. We can speak in the symbolic language of dreams until it comes up to the surface in words. Posting these helps to draw out the memory to be processed. Like a motif that reminds you of something, or a familiar smell.
December 25, 2025 at 3:18 AM
Drawing is a language through which my parts and alters often communicate. We can speak in the symbolic language of dreams until it comes up to the surface in words. Posting these helps to draw out the memory to be processed. Like a motif that reminds you of something, or a familiar smell.
Happy solstice and Yule.
December 22, 2025 at 2:53 AM
Happy solstice and Yule.
Now I want to laugh. The staff and therapists used to say over and over "your parents did everything right, your parents were perfect, your parents did the best they could" anytime I broached even their surface-level abuse and neglect, and they would hush me into silence. It was fucking weird.
Speaking of that, they eventually sent me to abusive programs in the TTI to re-break me and my mind. Which it did. And it took even longer to put myself back together.
December 14, 2025 at 9:57 PM
Now I want to laugh. The staff and therapists used to say over and over "your parents did everything right, your parents were perfect, your parents did the best they could" anytime I broached even their surface-level abuse and neglect, and they would hush me into silence. It was fucking weird.
Sometimes I think if the internet had been more helpful when I was a kid I could have learned how to file for emancipation or gotten in touch with someone who could help. My phone calls to anyone I could think of, including radio shows and phone sex operators, led to nothing.
December 14, 2025 at 9:54 PM
Sometimes I think if the internet had been more helpful when I was a kid I could have learned how to file for emancipation or gotten in touch with someone who could help. My phone calls to anyone I could think of, including radio shows and phone sex operators, led to nothing.
On the theme of retaliation, I was targeted by others my abuser parents crossed, too. Like keying a car lol but a lot worse. One time a group of men kidnapped me for three brutal days
December 14, 2025 at 9:51 PM
On the theme of retaliation, I was targeted by others my abuser parents crossed, too. Like keying a car lol but a lot worse. One time a group of men kidnapped me for three brutal days