I ordered a food scale, I'm so excited. I can't wait to finally see how bad I've been calculating my meals, so I can fix it.

I had a nap and I had a nightmare, I was fighting with my older sister about food. I hate nightmares like that, can they leave me alone.

Sometimes I hate being numb (after arguments), because there are so many things that I should be worrying about, but because I've forced myself to not feel my raw emotions for a period of time, I can't give a fuck about what I would normally care about.

I wish there was a way to not eat for as long as possible, without experiencing side affects. I don't want to be passing out when I'm not in bed just because I haven't eaten for a few days, when I'm in the middle of passing out, it doesn't feel good. Only after it I get validation.

Speed running, eating everyday has made my face puffy again.

And it's rising like crazy. #edsky #catipillarsky #edbsky

Fasting again, and convincing myself that eating is energy, and time consuming, to distract myself from my bank account. #edsky #catipillarsky #edbsky

My family called a mental health intervention on me, I haven't slept, I'm mad and tired, I am not sick, why have they done this.

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ᦗ SHEDSKY/BPDSKY
ᦗ adult¡¡!! not new
ᦗ gw: 105lbs
ᦗ ugw: 83lbs
☙-16 dni/ basic dni
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