carnivalisforever
@carnivalisforever.bsky.social
34. she/her. 🇺🇸
always a slut for death metal
always a slut for death metal
Pinned
I have wrestled with death
It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine
It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot
With nothing around, without spectators
Without clamor, without glory
Without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat
It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine
It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot
With nothing around, without spectators
Without clamor, without glory
Without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat
insisting someone with mental illness should act in opposition to that mental illness is like telling someone who has no legs to just fucking get up and walk
February 16, 2026 at 12:53 AM
insisting someone with mental illness should act in opposition to that mental illness is like telling someone who has no legs to just fucking get up and walk
being borderline/bipolar sucks so much because i feel like i'm gaslighting my own self for having such deep and tumultuous emotions over everything when like no one else fucking cares, no one loves like i do, no one hurts the way i hurt
i literally feel crazy so much of the time
i literally feel crazy so much of the time
February 15, 2026 at 3:57 AM
being borderline/bipolar sucks so much because i feel like i'm gaslighting my own self for having such deep and tumultuous emotions over everything when like no one else fucking cares, no one loves like i do, no one hurts the way i hurt
i literally feel crazy so much of the time
i literally feel crazy so much of the time
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Living with BPD is the equivalent of constantly being at war with yourself. You don’t get quiet moments.
February 14, 2026 at 6:36 PM
Living with BPD is the equivalent of constantly being at war with yourself. You don’t get quiet moments.
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Proud of you always<3
February 14, 2026 at 7:17 PM
Proud of you always<3
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Don’t date women with bpd if you can’t handle the actions that can come with bpd
February 14, 2026 at 1:06 AM
Don’t date women with bpd if you can’t handle the actions that can come with bpd
I have wrestled with death
It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine
It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot
With nothing around, without spectators
Without clamor, without glory
Without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat
It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine
It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot
With nothing around, without spectators
Without clamor, without glory
Without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat
February 15, 2026 at 12:42 AM
I have wrestled with death
It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine
It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot
With nothing around, without spectators
Without clamor, without glory
Without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat
It is the most unexciting contest you can imagine
It takes place in an impalpable grayness, with nothing underfoot
With nothing around, without spectators
Without clamor, without glory
Without the great desire of victory, without the great fear of defeat
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As someone who has had manic crashouts—even before I was diagnosed with bipolar—this shit isn’t cute.
It’s:
- loss of touch with reality/delusions that left me suicidal
- self-harm and reckless behavior that could have gotten me arrested/killed
- justifiably lost/strained friend/relationships
It’s:
- loss of touch with reality/delusions that left me suicidal
- self-harm and reckless behavior that could have gotten me arrested/killed
- justifiably lost/strained friend/relationships
February 13, 2026 at 12:13 PM
As someone who has had manic crashouts—even before I was diagnosed with bipolar—this shit isn’t cute.
It’s:
- loss of touch with reality/delusions that left me suicidal
- self-harm and reckless behavior that could have gotten me arrested/killed
- justifiably lost/strained friend/relationships
It’s:
- loss of touch with reality/delusions that left me suicidal
- self-harm and reckless behavior that could have gotten me arrested/killed
- justifiably lost/strained friend/relationships
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Tomás Sánchez
Contemplar, 1995
Contemplar, 1995
February 13, 2026 at 11:49 PM
Tomás Sánchez
Contemplar, 1995
Contemplar, 1995
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It’s amazing how Trump does something so awful, so egregious, so repellent like posting a video of the Obamas as apes that he should be driven from office. But instead it’s all forgotten a week later. It is as much about our country as about him.
February 14, 2026 at 3:04 PM
It’s amazing how Trump does something so awful, so egregious, so repellent like posting a video of the Obamas as apes that he should be driven from office. But instead it’s all forgotten a week later. It is as much about our country as about him.
Kennedy's favorite vocalist being Peter Dolving and Steven's favorite guitarist being Adam D and Ali loving Mario & Haake as drummers
no wonder I love BFW so much, lots of their influences are my absolute faves too
no wonder I love BFW so much, lots of their influences are my absolute faves too
February 13, 2026 at 3:35 AM
Kennedy's favorite vocalist being Peter Dolving and Steven's favorite guitarist being Adam D and Ali loving Mario & Haake as drummers
no wonder I love BFW so much, lots of their influences are my absolute faves too
no wonder I love BFW so much, lots of their influences are my absolute faves too
I love when healthy masculinity
February 13, 2026 at 3:30 AM
I love when healthy masculinity
ordered Irn-Bru and I am excited to try it when it arrives
BFW have talked about it in like every single interview and I am easy to convince when it comes to my faves
Just like when Bastian talked about a specific chocolate he really liked, I bought and tried that too lol
BFW have talked about it in like every single interview and I am easy to convince when it comes to my faves
Just like when Bastian talked about a specific chocolate he really liked, I bought and tried that too lol
February 13, 2026 at 3:29 AM
ordered Irn-Bru and I am excited to try it when it arrives
BFW have talked about it in like every single interview and I am easy to convince when it comes to my faves
Just like when Bastian talked about a specific chocolate he really liked, I bought and tried that too lol
BFW have talked about it in like every single interview and I am easy to convince when it comes to my faves
Just like when Bastian talked about a specific chocolate he really liked, I bought and tried that too lol
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watching multiple BFW interviews over the last few days so I can hyperfixate on something and I think it's funny how female interviewers always flirt with the guys. I don't blame them at all, I'd probably do the same, they are all cute and seem chill and sweet
February 12, 2026 at 2:21 AM
watching multiple BFW interviews over the last few days so I can hyperfixate on something and I think it's funny how female interviewers always flirt with the guys. I don't blame them at all, I'd probably do the same, they are all cute and seem chill and sweet
Nothing more defeating than having to take a shit right after you've showered.
February 12, 2026 at 12:23 AM
Nothing more defeating than having to take a shit right after you've showered.
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AOC on DHS Warehouses: I think every American should be alarmed. They are building—and have built—a black box system that disappears people, both immigrants and U.S. citizens alike.
February 10, 2026 at 1:30 AM
AOC on DHS Warehouses: I think every American should be alarmed. They are building—and have built—a black box system that disappears people, both immigrants and U.S. citizens alike.
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Lighthouse Hill (1927) sets a stark white lighthouse above a shadowed cottage on a grassy rise. The vertical beacon cuts through shifting clouds and wind. Its certainty contrasts with the house’s dark façade, symbolizing artificial guidance standing firm amid atmospheric chaos.
February 9, 2026 at 11:18 PM
Lighthouse Hill (1927) sets a stark white lighthouse above a shadowed cottage on a grassy rise. The vertical beacon cuts through shifting clouds and wind. Its certainty contrasts with the house’s dark façade, symbolizing artificial guidance standing firm amid atmospheric chaos.
found exactly what i was looking for thanks BFW
February 9, 2026 at 2:44 AM
found exactly what i was looking for thanks BFW
I predict the detainment facilities will soon become labor camps - where detainees (not just undocumented folk, btw - it will soon be anyone who disagrees with the regime) are forced to work as slaves to make up for all the lost agriculture/construction workers
February 8, 2026 at 11:59 PM
I predict the detainment facilities will soon become labor camps - where detainees (not just undocumented folk, btw - it will soon be anyone who disagrees with the regime) are forced to work as slaves to make up for all the lost agriculture/construction workers
I think guys in metal bands should kiss each other
February 8, 2026 at 1:58 AM
I think guys in metal bands should kiss each other
there are still people claiming that kamala would be just as bad or worse....
what world do these people live in?
what world do these people live in?
February 1, 2026 at 10:51 PM
there are still people claiming that kamala would be just as bad or worse....
what world do these people live in?
what world do these people live in?
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Another day, another outrage; ICE under Trump is going to deport dozens of people to Iran, including two gay men previously arrested by the regime who face the death penalty for their orientation, and despite the ongoing crackdowns which have killed thousands.
An administration of total inhumanity.
An administration of total inhumanity.
January 23, 2026 at 1:25 PM
Another day, another outrage; ICE under Trump is going to deport dozens of people to Iran, including two gay men previously arrested by the regime who face the death penalty for their orientation, and despite the ongoing crackdowns which have killed thousands.
An administration of total inhumanity.
An administration of total inhumanity.