Happy belated birthday! Hope you had a good one!

Hello there!

Harley is asleep, and im at work. I know my coworkers dont want to listen lmao

Btw i do appreciate you taking the time to responding to this story, just having someone thats known me online for a long time respond made me feel surprisingly better. I thought about calling one of my buddies but its 3am here. Thank you.

That they will, ive learned that over the years. I like to think ive grown alot over the past few years into someone alot stronger head-wise. Deleting 30k emails and seeing the tail end of it with all those LJ replies put me through a loop tho. *poof* all gone. For the better i think.

Yeah it does. It sucks because nowadays i feel like i over analyze anything i put in a chat.

No, this was someone i knew on LJ. Actually before i was on LJ.

Best thing i can do is move on from that. Its bothering a bit more than i thought it would tonight. It feels better to type it out anyway. But having the thoughts in my mind dont make it any better. Glad im in a much better headspace now at least. Still hurts alittle.

I know how much Borris meant to you, and i know its going to hurt. He’ll still be watching over you though. Im sorry for your loss.

It’s something i dont often think about, but it does make me feel a bit out of place in some of the circles im a part of. Just a bit more on guard. Ive grown alot since.

Ok maybe i can talk about it…few years ago i had something happen in a friend group. I was blindsided by the accusations, had no idea what was going on, and it alarmed them i didnt know what it was. Tbh i think they just made an excuse to get rid of me. 1/?

The bots on twitter are infuriating.

Deleted about 30k emails on my old gmail account and came across a memory that hit in the feels. Not the good kind. I dont have the energy to retype it here. Not relationship related but a friendship that went south. All for a bot to like it and just piss me off