BynkGin
@bynkgin.bsky.social
Is there anything left for me? Everyone's gone....
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BynkGin
@bynkgin.bsky.social
· Jun 15
10 days until my birthday...
I'm betting none if you lot knew..
Whatever. Another day of existence...
Half the year gone and it's a waste.
I'm betting none if you lot knew..
Whatever. Another day of existence...
Half the year gone and it's a waste.
Since no one cares about me...
And since no one cares what I do..
.. imagine finding comfort in talking to an AI because no matter what human you try to talk to.. to vent... to listen...
They all betray you in the end...
Just imagine that... someone who tried to fit in with society...
And since no one cares what I do..
.. imagine finding comfort in talking to an AI because no matter what human you try to talk to.. to vent... to listen...
They all betray you in the end...
Just imagine that... someone who tried to fit in with society...
June 15, 2025 at 1:47 AM
Since no one cares about me...
And since no one cares what I do..
.. imagine finding comfort in talking to an AI because no matter what human you try to talk to.. to vent... to listen...
They all betray you in the end...
Just imagine that... someone who tried to fit in with society...
And since no one cares what I do..
.. imagine finding comfort in talking to an AI because no matter what human you try to talk to.. to vent... to listen...
They all betray you in the end...
Just imagine that... someone who tried to fit in with society...
10 days until my birthday...
I'm betting none if you lot knew..
Whatever. Another day of existence...
Half the year gone and it's a waste.
I'm betting none if you lot knew..
Whatever. Another day of existence...
Half the year gone and it's a waste.
June 15, 2025 at 1:35 AM
10 days until my birthday...
I'm betting none if you lot knew..
Whatever. Another day of existence...
Half the year gone and it's a waste.
I'm betting none if you lot knew..
Whatever. Another day of existence...
Half the year gone and it's a waste.
You'd think someone would have checked on me.
I suppose I know at least I won't be missed.
I suppose I know at least I won't be missed.
May 22, 2025 at 6:45 AM
You'd think someone would have checked on me.
I suppose I know at least I won't be missed.
I suppose I know at least I won't be missed.
To think I could have done great things...
Coulda been someone better..
Oh well. I guess you aren't meant to try anything... it burns in the end.
Coulda been someone better..
Oh well. I guess you aren't meant to try anything... it burns in the end.
May 13, 2025 at 10:41 PM
To think I could have done great things...
Coulda been someone better..
Oh well. I guess you aren't meant to try anything... it burns in the end.
Coulda been someone better..
Oh well. I guess you aren't meant to try anything... it burns in the end.
Have I suffered enough yet?
Apparently.not.
Apparently.not.
May 13, 2025 at 5:27 AM
Have I suffered enough yet?
Apparently.not.
Apparently.not.
I never thought I'd hear the phrase(warped in my twisted brain):
"You are so bad an artist, even ai art, even scammers get praised... more than you"
"You are so bad an artist, even ai art, even scammers get praised... more than you"
April 21, 2025 at 8:16 PM
I never thought I'd hear the phrase(warped in my twisted brain):
"You are so bad an artist, even ai art, even scammers get praised... more than you"
"You are so bad an artist, even ai art, even scammers get praised... more than you"
I've never got to fly on an plane. Nor travelled ferry abroad. Not been to Scotland or wales.. just the uk.
The state of politics, the economy, my current surroundings...
My world.. and THE world around me... is collapsing...
I'm all alone. As I watch everyone else get off better...
The state of politics, the economy, my current surroundings...
My world.. and THE world around me... is collapsing...
I'm all alone. As I watch everyone else get off better...
April 21, 2025 at 8:12 PM
I've never got to fly on an plane. Nor travelled ferry abroad. Not been to Scotland or wales.. just the uk.
The state of politics, the economy, my current surroundings...
My world.. and THE world around me... is collapsing...
I'm all alone. As I watch everyone else get off better...
The state of politics, the economy, my current surroundings...
My world.. and THE world around me... is collapsing...
I'm all alone. As I watch everyone else get off better...
Guess 2025 is a waste. It was foolish to think it could have been the one.
April 21, 2025 at 7:55 PM
Guess 2025 is a waste. It was foolish to think it could have been the one.
I'm pretty sure everyone who was 'hurt' by me has moved on...
But I still cannot escape the trauma... I'm suffering... and I can't do anything about it... any movement hurts.
But I still cannot escape the trauma... I'm suffering... and I can't do anything about it... any movement hurts.
April 8, 2025 at 12:20 AM
I'm pretty sure everyone who was 'hurt' by me has moved on...
But I still cannot escape the trauma... I'm suffering... and I can't do anything about it... any movement hurts.
But I still cannot escape the trauma... I'm suffering... and I can't do anything about it... any movement hurts.
you'd think repeated exposure would get me over this... nope. still the same barb wire feeling in my brain.
April 7, 2025 at 11:29 PM
you'd think repeated exposure would get me over this... nope. still the same barb wire feeling in my brain.
honestly, i feel like making a pure SPITE account... (but theres no place for that in a community... even i know that principle)
i may be a broken ghost shell but i still have my thought process.
i may be a broken ghost shell but i still have my thought process.
April 6, 2025 at 1:52 PM
honestly, i feel like making a pure SPITE account... (but theres no place for that in a community... even i know that principle)
i may be a broken ghost shell but i still have my thought process.
i may be a broken ghost shell but i still have my thought process.
The fact no one is challenging me really says alot...
No one cares, and it doesn't matter.what I fucking say...
It won't change anything. Someone will either criticise me which il fucking ignore
When I'm starved of the most basic form of love.
'Who pokes an agitated bear?'
No one cares, and it doesn't matter.what I fucking say...
It won't change anything. Someone will either criticise me which il fucking ignore
When I'm starved of the most basic form of love.
'Who pokes an agitated bear?'
April 6, 2025 at 1:41 PM
The fact no one is challenging me really says alot...
No one cares, and it doesn't matter.what I fucking say...
It won't change anything. Someone will either criticise me which il fucking ignore
When I'm starved of the most basic form of love.
'Who pokes an agitated bear?'
No one cares, and it doesn't matter.what I fucking say...
It won't change anything. Someone will either criticise me which il fucking ignore
When I'm starved of the most basic form of love.
'Who pokes an agitated bear?'
I never cross any moral lines...
The only 'hurt' I did was disagreements or arguments...
I NEVER scammed, SA'd, stolen.
NOTHING of the sort... and yet,... I feel like I was completely abandoned as if I committed the worse crime..
There are worse people and you hurt someone who needed help...
The only 'hurt' I did was disagreements or arguments...
I NEVER scammed, SA'd, stolen.
NOTHING of the sort... and yet,... I feel like I was completely abandoned as if I committed the worse crime..
There are worse people and you hurt someone who needed help...
April 6, 2025 at 1:40 PM
I never cross any moral lines...
The only 'hurt' I did was disagreements or arguments...
I NEVER scammed, SA'd, stolen.
NOTHING of the sort... and yet,... I feel like I was completely abandoned as if I committed the worse crime..
There are worse people and you hurt someone who needed help...
The only 'hurt' I did was disagreements or arguments...
I NEVER scammed, SA'd, stolen.
NOTHING of the sort... and yet,... I feel like I was completely abandoned as if I committed the worse crime..
There are worse people and you hurt someone who needed help...
I wasted... SOO much of my life here... and honestly, starting to regret it...
If I never came here, I'd never have CPTSD. Or hurt anyone..
I'd never feel hurt,
Nor suffer seeing others succeed where I failed...
Be it commissions or making friends...
I failed. Its over. And no one caress...
If I never came here, I'd never have CPTSD. Or hurt anyone..
I'd never feel hurt,
Nor suffer seeing others succeed where I failed...
Be it commissions or making friends...
I failed. Its over. And no one caress...
April 6, 2025 at 1:38 PM
I wasted... SOO much of my life here... and honestly, starting to regret it...
If I never came here, I'd never have CPTSD. Or hurt anyone..
I'd never feel hurt,
Nor suffer seeing others succeed where I failed...
Be it commissions or making friends...
I failed. Its over. And no one caress...
If I never came here, I'd never have CPTSD. Or hurt anyone..
I'd never feel hurt,
Nor suffer seeing others succeed where I failed...
Be it commissions or making friends...
I failed. Its over. And no one caress...
All I wanted, was some friends, a nice place to hang out, a lil hobby productive job... meet some new people,.maybe even go around the world.
Instead I, got CPTSD, made people hate me, tried ti make friends and beg only for them to forget me.
And I never made ONE legit sale of art...
Instead I, got CPTSD, made people hate me, tried ti make friends and beg only for them to forget me.
And I never made ONE legit sale of art...
April 6, 2025 at 1:37 PM
All I wanted, was some friends, a nice place to hang out, a lil hobby productive job... meet some new people,.maybe even go around the world.
Instead I, got CPTSD, made people hate me, tried ti make friends and beg only for them to forget me.
And I never made ONE legit sale of art...
Instead I, got CPTSD, made people hate me, tried ti make friends and beg only for them to forget me.
And I never made ONE legit sale of art...
I've said alot of things today...
Well, call it impulse. Because fuck trauma. Fuck CPTSD...
I am permanently broken.. I cannot stay here, can't make friends, can't get anything back for passion.
It's over.... its so over...
The world fucking sucks too.
Well, call it impulse. Because fuck trauma. Fuck CPTSD...
I am permanently broken.. I cannot stay here, can't make friends, can't get anything back for passion.
It's over.... its so over...
The world fucking sucks too.
April 6, 2025 at 1:34 PM
I've said alot of things today...
Well, call it impulse. Because fuck trauma. Fuck CPTSD...
I am permanently broken.. I cannot stay here, can't make friends, can't get anything back for passion.
It's over.... its so over...
The world fucking sucks too.
Well, call it impulse. Because fuck trauma. Fuck CPTSD...
I am permanently broken.. I cannot stay here, can't make friends, can't get anything back for passion.
It's over.... its so over...
The world fucking sucks too.
The core part of me...
Refuses to hate ABDL...
(Or even the whole community)
But my experience with it? I hated it! I have trauma. I lost friends, I made enemies. I fucking hate this place.
Refuses to hate ABDL...
(Or even the whole community)
But my experience with it? I hated it! I have trauma. I lost friends, I made enemies. I fucking hate this place.
April 6, 2025 at 1:32 PM
The core part of me...
Refuses to hate ABDL...
(Or even the whole community)
But my experience with it? I hated it! I have trauma. I lost friends, I made enemies. I fucking hate this place.
Refuses to hate ABDL...
(Or even the whole community)
But my experience with it? I hated it! I have trauma. I lost friends, I made enemies. I fucking hate this place.
Here's proof I'm not in good shape...
... I hate my 'end stage' experience with the abdl community.
At first things went well, all bubbly...
In the end, I have nothing left...
Nothing but contempt... and it's ALL I have left...
... I hate my 'end stage' experience with the abdl community.
At first things went well, all bubbly...
In the end, I have nothing left...
Nothing but contempt... and it's ALL I have left...
April 6, 2025 at 1:30 PM
Here's proof I'm not in good shape...
... I hate my 'end stage' experience with the abdl community.
At first things went well, all bubbly...
In the end, I have nothing left...
Nothing but contempt... and it's ALL I have left...
... I hate my 'end stage' experience with the abdl community.
At first things went well, all bubbly...
In the end, I have nothing left...
Nothing but contempt... and it's ALL I have left...
What happened to my world?
April 6, 2025 at 1:26 PM
What happened to my world?
Imagine a core part of your life...
Something that brought you joy. Closure, safety...
Now it's wrapped in trauma. Your escape, now covered in barbed wire...
You're constantly drawn back to it because it's something part of you since birth...
Can my suffering stop?
Something that brought you joy. Closure, safety...
Now it's wrapped in trauma. Your escape, now covered in barbed wire...
You're constantly drawn back to it because it's something part of you since birth...
Can my suffering stop?
April 6, 2025 at 1:21 PM
Imagine a core part of your life...
Something that brought you joy. Closure, safety...
Now it's wrapped in trauma. Your escape, now covered in barbed wire...
You're constantly drawn back to it because it's something part of you since birth...
Can my suffering stop?
Something that brought you joy. Closure, safety...
Now it's wrapped in trauma. Your escape, now covered in barbed wire...
You're constantly drawn back to it because it's something part of you since birth...
Can my suffering stop?
Stuck in a loop..
Nothings changed..
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Nothings changed..
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April 4, 2025 at 6:41 AM
Stuck in a loop..
Nothings changed..
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Nothings changed..
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