Bananaheathen
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Today I lost my dad for the last time 🤍 It's a heartbreak and a relief. It doesn't feel real and it feels infinitely real.
He was the easiest and the hardest person to love. And I will love him and miss him forever. Just like I always have.
He was the easiest and the hardest person to love. And I will love him and miss him forever. Just like I always have.
November 5, 2025 at 6:05 AM
Today I lost my dad for the last time 🤍 It's a heartbreak and a relief. It doesn't feel real and it feels infinitely real.
He was the easiest and the hardest person to love. And I will love him and miss him forever. Just like I always have.
He was the easiest and the hardest person to love. And I will love him and miss him forever. Just like I always have.
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I absolutely love The Aces and The Beaches and I love knowing Louis loves them too 😭💛
October 10, 2025 at 4:32 PM
I absolutely love The Aces and The Beaches and I love knowing Louis loves them too 😭💛
Watched the interview, and genuinely (and I don't even mean this to be cute) but like... Louis truly is a great person to just sit and admire what he's like.
October 9, 2025 at 8:20 PM
Watched the interview, and genuinely (and I don't even mean this to be cute) but like... Louis truly is a great person to just sit and admire what he's like.
Posted this on Tumblr but then I wanted it over here too 💛
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There are new freckles speckled over his cheekbones. Probably from late spring evenings playing footie. Harry counts them under his breath and loves them. It doesn’t ever seem to get old, waking up here, sharing a bed and sharing a life, thinking sometimes that he knows the details of Louis’ face better than his own.
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He reaches over, touches his finger to the tip of Louis’ nose, and when Louis tilts his chin up at the contact, Harry lets his finger slip down onto the cushion of his lower lip. He gets another grin. A gentle kiss for his fingerprint. So, he takes his meandering caress on a tour along the cliff’s edge of Louis’ jaw, and follows a handsome vein down the line of his neck. Feels the pretty thrum of his pulse.
“What’re you doing?” Louis murmurs as Harry traces his shoulder, then ventures beneath the sheets rucked up against his back, flattening his palm along the path of Louis’ spine. “Surveying your kingdom?”
- Of Mates and Men, Chapter 53](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:m5gbirbnan4amp4i3z355gzm/bafkreifai7fwjdur5w63ysdbrmnpvti32v74lfuidzvzcztcc3tfstvgpq@jpeg)
October 7, 2025 at 9:02 PM
Posted this on Tumblr but then I wanted it over here too 💛
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You know that bit in Mates where Lottie and Gemma are both staying at the house and H+L both bring flowers back for each other and they call them unbearable? That’s what this week feels like, especially now with H carrying literal sunflowers
October 7, 2025 at 5:55 PM
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"And Harry thinks it’s ridiculous that Louis doesn’t believe in romance because, really, he *is* romance — just walking around dressed as the most beautiful boy Harry’s ever seen. A collection of brooding angles and soft divots, messy and complicated and undeniable."
October 7, 2025 at 3:17 PM
"And Harry thinks it’s ridiculous that Louis doesn’t believe in romance because, really, he *is* romance — just walking around dressed as the most beautiful boy Harry’s ever seen. A collection of brooding angles and soft divots, messy and complicated and undeniable."
“Jesus,” he says, glancing at the monitor. “Got all the right bones in your face, didn’t you?”
October 6, 2025 at 4:04 PM
“Jesus,” he says, glancing at the monitor. “Got all the right bones in your face, didn’t you?”
you ever go, oh huh yeah, there ARE exactly 28 days between Louis' birthday and the release date for How Did I Get Here?
what a fun coincidence!
what a fun coincidence!
October 6, 2025 at 1:44 AM
you ever go, oh huh yeah, there ARE exactly 28 days between Louis' birthday and the release date for How Did I Get Here?
what a fun coincidence!
what a fun coincidence!
walls ➡️ faith in the future ➡️ how did i get here? 🤝 misfit boys Louis ➡️ mates Louis ➡️ babes Louis
September 25, 2025 at 7:22 PM
walls ➡️ faith in the future ➡️ how did i get here? 🤝 misfit boys Louis ➡️ mates Louis ➡️ babes Louis
"Suppose it could be said the whole mess starts here."
Today marks 5 years since I first published the Mates prologue 😭 I had no idea then what I was in for. I'd just thought, "Oh, this one might be a lil longer than the last one" (which was 11k).
And now it's 5 years & almost 1M words later 💛🫠
Today marks 5 years since I first published the Mates prologue 😭 I had no idea then what I was in for. I'd just thought, "Oh, this one might be a lil longer than the last one" (which was 11k).
And now it's 5 years & almost 1M words later 💛🫠
September 25, 2025 at 3:49 PM
"Suppose it could be said the whole mess starts here."
Today marks 5 years since I first published the Mates prologue 😭 I had no idea then what I was in for. I'd just thought, "Oh, this one might be a lil longer than the last one" (which was 11k).
And now it's 5 years & almost 1M words later 💛🫠
Today marks 5 years since I first published the Mates prologue 😭 I had no idea then what I was in for. I'd just thought, "Oh, this one might be a lil longer than the last one" (which was 11k).
And now it's 5 years & almost 1M words later 💛🫠
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easy!!! breezy!!! beautiful!!!!
September 24, 2025 at 4:53 PM
easy!!! breezy!!! beautiful!!!!
all these snippets are making me think...
techno is my boyfriend.
techno is my boyfriend.
September 22, 2025 at 9:05 PM
all these snippets are making me think...
techno is my boyfriend.
techno is my boyfriend.
"Darling,” Zayn coos. “I absolutely adore you. I would never for any reason, under any circumstances, ask you to go to Las Vegas.”
September 22, 2025 at 5:12 PM
"Darling,” Zayn coos. “I absolutely adore you. I would never for any reason, under any circumstances, ask you to go to Las Vegas.”
i love jackets!
September 22, 2025 at 3:07 AM
i love jackets!
when's the part when i can just sit down and write fic for days and days? that's all i want.
September 16, 2025 at 11:14 PM
when's the part when i can just sit down and write fic for days and days? that's all i want.
"Louis promised himself that he wasn’t ever going to download TikTok. Because he’s been talking shit about it for ages, and because he’s 28 and he doesn’t really understand how it works..."
archiveofourown.org/works/44023329
archiveofourown.org/works/44023329
September 16, 2025 at 5:26 PM
"Louis promised himself that he wasn’t ever going to download TikTok. Because he’s been talking shit about it for ages, and because he’s 28 and he doesn’t really understand how it works..."
archiveofourown.org/works/44023329
archiveofourown.org/works/44023329
idk why "it's both at once" is making me emotional but here we are
September 16, 2025 at 3:39 PM
idk why "it's both at once" is making me emotional but here we are
"Ooh, wear the yellow jumper. Not a lot that’s more adorable than you in yellow.”
He hadn’t thought of the yellow. The idea of it makes Louis grin thinking of daffodils and sunflowers and, “Yeah, that’ll be brilliant, Zed. Thanks.”
He hadn’t thought of the yellow. The idea of it makes Louis grin thinking of daffodils and sunflowers and, “Yeah, that’ll be brilliant, Zed. Thanks.”
September 15, 2025 at 5:37 PM
"Ooh, wear the yellow jumper. Not a lot that’s more adorable than you in yellow.”
He hadn’t thought of the yellow. The idea of it makes Louis grin thinking of daffodils and sunflowers and, “Yeah, that’ll be brilliant, Zed. Thanks.”
He hadn’t thought of the yellow. The idea of it makes Louis grin thinking of daffodils and sunflowers and, “Yeah, that’ll be brilliant, Zed. Thanks.”
you're so golden, etc.
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September 15, 2025 at 5:27 PM
you're so golden, etc.
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Mates H in Doncaster 🥹💛
You’re mine. Not to own; to take care of.
September 10, 2025 at 3:39 PM
Mates H in Doncaster 🥹💛
“We used to just go to regular pubs."
"Yes, well. We used to be 19."
"Yes, well. We used to be 19."
September 8, 2025 at 4:39 AM
“We used to just go to regular pubs."
"Yes, well. We used to be 19."
"Yes, well. We used to be 19."
May I present to you, Hazza and Dad 💛😭
September 1, 2025 at 6:27 PM
May I present to you, Hazza and Dad 💛😭
wow i went to bed so nervous after writing the content warnings on this chapter, but y'all have already been so kind 😭💛 thank you so much for loving this story and this family along with me. getting to share them with you is the best feeling.
August 31, 2025 at 10:06 PM
wow i went to bed so nervous after writing the content warnings on this chapter, but y'all have already been so kind 😭💛 thank you so much for loving this story and this family along with me. getting to share them with you is the best feeling.
August 31, 2025 at 8:59 AM