BackToManic-Nova
@backtomanic.bsky.social
Night auditor by day, YouTube script writer by night. Do I ever sleep? No.
Only broken English is available, sawry.
💈💈🇫🇷 girl
29yo
I purge my bad faith here
Only broken English is available, sawry.
💈💈🇫🇷 girl
29yo
I purge my bad faith here
I wonder how the digital nomad life is going to mess with my bipolar brain.
I wonder how dangerous it is to add more instability into the mix… but I don’t want to stay in a “safe place” forever either.
So I guess we just… figure it out as we go?
I wonder how dangerous it is to add more instability into the mix… but I don’t want to stay in a “safe place” forever either.
So I guess we just… figure it out as we go?
November 15, 2025 at 9:44 PM
I wonder how the digital nomad life is going to mess with my bipolar brain.
I wonder how dangerous it is to add more instability into the mix… but I don’t want to stay in a “safe place” forever either.
So I guess we just… figure it out as we go?
I wonder how dangerous it is to add more instability into the mix… but I don’t want to stay in a “safe place” forever either.
So I guess we just… figure it out as we go?
I feel guilty about leaving my country even though I have no family or even a career reason to stay.
Then I remember it’s just my emotional brain, still optimized for villages and tribes, not visas and planes.
Shut up brain, we’re leaving France and fixing our vitamin D deficiency in Thailand☀️🧳✈️
Then I remember it’s just my emotional brain, still optimized for villages and tribes, not visas and planes.
Shut up brain, we’re leaving France and fixing our vitamin D deficiency in Thailand☀️🧳✈️
November 15, 2025 at 9:32 PM
I feel guilty about leaving my country even though I have no family or even a career reason to stay.
Then I remember it’s just my emotional brain, still optimized for villages and tribes, not visas and planes.
Shut up brain, we’re leaving France and fixing our vitamin D deficiency in Thailand☀️🧳✈️
Then I remember it’s just my emotional brain, still optimized for villages and tribes, not visas and planes.
Shut up brain, we’re leaving France and fixing our vitamin D deficiency in Thailand☀️🧳✈️
my guilty pleasure: taking my AirPods out at Starbucks to listen to job interviews at the next table and mentally screaming “no, don’t trash your old job, that’s a red flag.” a red flag like… listening to strangers’ conversations. anyway, back to my scriptwriting
November 12, 2025 at 10:07 AM
my guilty pleasure: taking my AirPods out at Starbucks to listen to job interviews at the next table and mentally screaming “no, don’t trash your old job, that’s a red flag.” a red flag like… listening to strangers’ conversations. anyway, back to my scriptwriting
True crime videos used to teach my brain how to escape kidnappers.
Now “which one is AI” videos teach me whether those horses are really living their best life on a trampoline.
Neva know where danger is 🐎
Now “which one is AI” videos teach me whether those horses are really living their best life on a trampoline.
Neva know where danger is 🐎
October 30, 2025 at 5:21 PM
True crime videos used to teach my brain how to escape kidnappers.
Now “which one is AI” videos teach me whether those horses are really living their best life on a trampoline.
Neva know where danger is 🐎
Now “which one is AI” videos teach me whether those horses are really living their best life on a trampoline.
Neva know where danger is 🐎
I’m starting a project with a content creator that might let me quit my night auditor job.
My boss: “You’ve been glowing lately!”
Me: guilty af like an unfaithful wife after seeing her lover 🥲
My boss: “You’ve been glowing lately!”
Me: guilty af like an unfaithful wife after seeing her lover 🥲
October 26, 2025 at 1:37 AM
I’m starting a project with a content creator that might let me quit my night auditor job.
My boss: “You’ve been glowing lately!”
Me: guilty af like an unfaithful wife after seeing her lover 🥲
My boss: “You’ve been glowing lately!”
Me: guilty af like an unfaithful wife after seeing her lover 🥲
New bipolar phase unlocked : Nouvelle Vague.
Jean-Luc Godard behind the lens, no script : just smoke, jazz, black-and-white film grain and mood swings.
Jean-Luc Godard behind the lens, no script : just smoke, jazz, black-and-white film grain and mood swings.
October 24, 2025 at 11:54 AM
New bipolar phase unlocked : Nouvelle Vague.
Jean-Luc Godard behind the lens, no script : just smoke, jazz, black-and-white film grain and mood swings.
Jean-Luc Godard behind the lens, no script : just smoke, jazz, black-and-white film grain and mood swings.
The season has started ☕️🍂
September 18, 2025 at 10:01 PM
The season has started ☕️🍂
My diet-coded brain: “yum, a good piece of protein.”
My French brain: “OUI ! LET’S MELT SALTED BUTTER AND GARLIC ON THAT.” 🧄🧈🇫🇷
My French brain: “OUI ! LET’S MELT SALTED BUTTER AND GARLIC ON THAT.” 🧄🧈🇫🇷
September 12, 2025 at 7:44 PM
My diet-coded brain: “yum, a good piece of protein.”
My French brain: “OUI ! LET’S MELT SALTED BUTTER AND GARLIC ON THAT.” 🧄🧈🇫🇷
My French brain: “OUI ! LET’S MELT SALTED BUTTER AND GARLIC ON THAT.” 🧄🧈🇫🇷
Still time to drown your guilty playlist with cool underground tracks if you want a respectable Spotify Wrapped 2025 to show the world and your crush in two months.
Just saying 🙄
Just saying 🙄
September 12, 2025 at 6:35 PM
Still time to drown your guilty playlist with cool underground tracks if you want a respectable Spotify Wrapped 2025 to show the world and your crush in two months.
Just saying 🙄
Just saying 🙄
Me: “I’m bipolar, just so you’re not surprised when I vanish in bed for 3 weeks.”
Them: “Have you tried crystals / herbal tea / essential oils?”
It’s that weird mix of “I want to fix you” and “I don’t think it’s a real thing.”
Never know how to take it 🥹
Them: “Have you tried crystals / herbal tea / essential oils?”
It’s that weird mix of “I want to fix you” and “I don’t think it’s a real thing.”
Never know how to take it 🥹
September 5, 2025 at 1:01 PM
Me: “I’m bipolar, just so you’re not surprised when I vanish in bed for 3 weeks.”
Them: “Have you tried crystals / herbal tea / essential oils?”
It’s that weird mix of “I want to fix you” and “I don’t think it’s a real thing.”
Never know how to take it 🥹
Them: “Have you tried crystals / herbal tea / essential oils?”
It’s that weird mix of “I want to fix you” and “I don’t think it’s a real thing.”
Never know how to take it 🥹
I’m wearing my Britney skirt today.
I’m UNSTOPPABLE.
(Yep, the manic way)
I’m UNSTOPPABLE.
(Yep, the manic way)
August 25, 2025 at 7:53 AM
I’m wearing my Britney skirt today.
I’m UNSTOPPABLE.
(Yep, the manic way)
I’m UNSTOPPABLE.
(Yep, the manic way)
This manic episode is as powerful as the depressive one was lately.
I know I’ll burn myself playing with this fire, but life feels so good at this intensity.
Summoning the gods of reason to keep me from doing too much dumb shit 😅
I know I’ll burn myself playing with this fire, but life feels so good at this intensity.
Summoning the gods of reason to keep me from doing too much dumb shit 😅
August 19, 2025 at 6:48 PM
This manic episode is as powerful as the depressive one was lately.
I know I’ll burn myself playing with this fire, but life feels so good at this intensity.
Summoning the gods of reason to keep me from doing too much dumb shit 😅
I know I’ll burn myself playing with this fire, but life feels so good at this intensity.
Summoning the gods of reason to keep me from doing too much dumb shit 😅
The problem when I discover a new filmmaker is that I compulsively watch their entire filmography until there’s not a crumb left.
Where is the problem?
I haven’t slept in 35h and I’m now almost fluent in Norwegian (this time it’s Joachim Trier).
Where is the problem?
I haven’t slept in 35h and I’m now almost fluent in Norwegian (this time it’s Joachim Trier).
August 19, 2025 at 5:21 AM
The problem when I discover a new filmmaker is that I compulsively watch their entire filmography until there’s not a crumb left.
Where is the problem?
I haven’t slept in 35h and I’m now almost fluent in Norwegian (this time it’s Joachim Trier).
Where is the problem?
I haven’t slept in 35h and I’m now almost fluent in Norwegian (this time it’s Joachim Trier).
I’ve saved up for a car.
I’m passing my license next month, right after my 30th birthday.
But all I want is to burn it on a camera instead.
The adult in me says “car” (for my “””hotel career”””).
The scenarist in me says “stupid move” (to shoot projects).
Fuck adulthood
I’m passing my license next month, right after my 30th birthday.
But all I want is to burn it on a camera instead.
The adult in me says “car” (for my “””hotel career”””).
The scenarist in me says “stupid move” (to shoot projects).
Fuck adulthood
August 18, 2025 at 8:28 PM
I’ve saved up for a car.
I’m passing my license next month, right after my 30th birthday.
But all I want is to burn it on a camera instead.
The adult in me says “car” (for my “””hotel career”””).
The scenarist in me says “stupid move” (to shoot projects).
Fuck adulthood
I’m passing my license next month, right after my 30th birthday.
But all I want is to burn it on a camera instead.
The adult in me says “car” (for my “””hotel career”””).
The scenarist in me says “stupid move” (to shoot projects).
Fuck adulthood
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Today, for the first time in forever, I had nothing to do… so I panicked and booked 6 back-to-back cinema screenings.
…Turns out I just needed this to realize I’m completely manic 🥹
Now excuse me while I pack snacks for 10 hours at the cinema ☺️
…Turns out I just needed this to realize I’m completely manic 🥹
Now excuse me while I pack snacks for 10 hours at the cinema ☺️
August 17, 2025 at 6:54 AM
Today, for the first time in forever, I had nothing to do… so I panicked and booked 6 back-to-back cinema screenings.
…Turns out I just needed this to realize I’m completely manic 🥹
Now excuse me while I pack snacks for 10 hours at the cinema ☺️
…Turns out I just needed this to realize I’m completely manic 🥹
Now excuse me while I pack snacks for 10 hours at the cinema ☺️
Me listening to my audiobook but there are no chores left to do at the same time (yes, those tiny AirPods are hand-drawn, thank you)
August 11, 2025 at 6:55 AM
Me listening to my audiobook but there are no chores left to do at the same time (yes, those tiny AirPods are hand-drawn, thank you)
I have a soft spot for early-2000s French translations of novels about tech, AI, and the future — where the translator clearly had no idea what they were reading, so computers become esoteric and cryptic.
I’m sure Millennium hits different in English or Swedish, but I adore my goofy French version.
I’m sure Millennium hits different in English or Swedish, but I adore my goofy French version.
August 10, 2025 at 5:33 PM
I have a soft spot for early-2000s French translations of novels about tech, AI, and the future — where the translator clearly had no idea what they were reading, so computers become esoteric and cryptic.
I’m sure Millennium hits different in English or Swedish, but I adore my goofy French version.
I’m sure Millennium hits different in English or Swedish, but I adore my goofy French version.
Me: watching Spanish-subtitled Korean arthouse films in a damp 12-seat basement, staying through the end credits, staring into the void like I just understood all the subtleties🧐
Also me: ugly-crying at the end of Freaky Friday2, covered in popcorn crumbs🍿
Love movies ?You gotta love ALL the movies.
Also me: ugly-crying at the end of Freaky Friday2, covered in popcorn crumbs🍿
Love movies ?You gotta love ALL the movies.
August 9, 2025 at 3:25 PM
Me: watching Spanish-subtitled Korean arthouse films in a damp 12-seat basement, staying through the end credits, staring into the void like I just understood all the subtleties🧐
Also me: ugly-crying at the end of Freaky Friday2, covered in popcorn crumbs🍿
Love movies ?You gotta love ALL the movies.
Also me: ugly-crying at the end of Freaky Friday2, covered in popcorn crumbs🍿
Love movies ?You gotta love ALL the movies.
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It took me 20 minutes to work up the confidence to kick a pigeon out of my bedroom.
So this is life without a cat, huh?🤔
So this is life without a cat, huh?🤔
July 25, 2025 at 6:11 AM
It took me 20 minutes to work up the confidence to kick a pigeon out of my bedroom.
So this is life without a cat, huh?🤔
So this is life without a cat, huh?🤔
If my mood were a fruit, it’d be those bitter little berries on the neighborhood bush your parents told you not to eat because they’re poisonous😖
July 24, 2025 at 7:41 PM
If my mood were a fruit, it’d be those bitter little berries on the neighborhood bush your parents told you not to eat because they’re poisonous😖
I even miss his little tuna breath. 😞
Give your furry one an extra cuddle for me tonight.🧡
Give your furry one an extra cuddle for me tonight.🧡
I gave in and let my son use the tablet to fall asleep: any advice? Scared that theses cheesy mouse show could have a bad impact on him 🫣
July 21, 2025 at 10:16 PM
I even miss his little tuna breath. 😞
Give your furry one an extra cuddle for me tonight.🧡
Give your furry one an extra cuddle for me tonight.🧡
“You’re such a fraud!” —my roommate, watching me leave the house in a cute little dress, fresh haircut, makeup, and smile…
after seeing me wear the same oversized T-shirt for 3 months and survive exclusively on SunnyD straight from the bottle.
No sir, it’s not fraud—it’s a bipolar summer miracle 😌
after seeing me wear the same oversized T-shirt for 3 months and survive exclusively on SunnyD straight from the bottle.
No sir, it’s not fraud—it’s a bipolar summer miracle 😌
July 16, 2025 at 2:14 PM
“You’re such a fraud!” —my roommate, watching me leave the house in a cute little dress, fresh haircut, makeup, and smile…
after seeing me wear the same oversized T-shirt for 3 months and survive exclusively on SunnyD straight from the bottle.
No sir, it’s not fraud—it’s a bipolar summer miracle 😌
after seeing me wear the same oversized T-shirt for 3 months and survive exclusively on SunnyD straight from the bottle.
No sir, it’s not fraud—it’s a bipolar summer miracle 😌
30 years old and a nap plus a Pizza Hot Pocket still fixes a tearful breakdown
a man in a suit and tie has a hello kitty bow on his forehead
ALT: a man in a suit and tie has a hello kitty bow on his forehead
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July 8, 2025 at 5:53 PM
30 years old and a nap plus a Pizza Hot Pocket still fixes a tearful breakdown