Rachel (she/xe) 🇸🇬 | Autistic As Fxxk ♾️
@autisticasfxxk.com
For Autistic punks, rebels and misfits forging their own path in a neurotypical world.
🇸🇬 Singaporean Chinese, semi-speaking, low-medium support needs
https://www.autisticasfxxk.com
🇸🇬 Singaporean Chinese, semi-speaking, low-medium support needs
https://www.autisticasfxxk.com
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Hi all!
My name is Rachel (she/her or xe/xem) and I’m from Singapore. 🇸🇬
I run an Instagram (www.instagram.com/autisticasfxxk) and blog (www.autisticasfxxk.com) where I share my experiences as an Autistic person in Singapore and create/share resources for Autistic adults.
My name is Rachel (she/her or xe/xem) and I’m from Singapore. 🇸🇬
I run an Instagram (www.instagram.com/autisticasfxxk) and blog (www.autisticasfxxk.com) where I share my experiences as an Autistic person in Singapore and create/share resources for Autistic adults.
Here’s a life hack you could try out this year if you’re prone to rejection sensitivity and impostor syndrome. (It has become kind of a tradition for me to repost this every new year!)
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
How I deal with impostor syndrome and rejection sensitivity
I keep a log of compliments I’ve received in a note-taking app on my phone. I take a look at them whenever I’m experiencing impostor syndrome or rejection sensitivity.
www.autisticasfxxk.com
January 8, 2026 at 2:39 PM
Here’s a life hack you could try out this year if you’re prone to rejection sensitivity and impostor syndrome. (It has become kind of a tradition for me to repost this every new year!)
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
Reminders for the new year!
January 7, 2026 at 1:17 AM
Reminders for the new year!
Tired of explaining why neither “selective” nor “situational” mutism fits my experience. Here’s a term that actually does.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/virtual...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/virtual...
Selective mutism? Situational mutism? No. I am a virtual mute.
Tired of explaining why neither “selective” nor “situational” mutism fits my experience. Here’s a term that actually does.
www.autisticasfxxk.com
December 29, 2025 at 1:22 PM
Tired of explaining why neither “selective” nor “situational” mutism fits my experience. Here’s a term that actually does.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/virtual...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/virtual...
I probably sound a little bitchy and defensive in this post. But honestly, who wouldn’t be if they had to endure a lifetime of bullshit? I’m done accommodating people’s comfort at my own expense.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/actuall...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/actuall...
Do I actually have selective mutism?
Recently, I’ve been questioning my selective mutism diagnosis—a label that defined me and explained my differences for most of my life (I only got an autism diagnosis when I was 20).
www.autisticasfxxk.com
December 24, 2025 at 1:24 PM
I probably sound a little bitchy and defensive in this post. But honestly, who wouldn’t be if they had to endure a lifetime of bullshit? I’m done accommodating people’s comfort at my own expense.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/actuall...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/actuall...
When every system tells you the same story about yourself—that you’re defective, lazy, unintelligent, incapable—it’s almost impossible not to believe it.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/systemi...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/systemi...
How systemic inequities lead to internalised ableism
When every system tells you the same story about yourself—that you’re defective, lazy, unintelligent, incapable—it’s almost impossible not to believe it.
www.autisticasfxxk.com
November 5, 2025 at 11:38 AM
When every system tells you the same story about yourself—that you’re defective, lazy, unintelligent, incapable—it’s almost impossible not to believe it.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/systemi...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/systemi...
For a very long time, I had this impression that only people who went to university, were super learned, and spoke eloquently could be advocates or activists. I’m just a girl who can’t speak “normally” and never attended university.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
Impostor syndrome as a semi-speaking advocate
Surely there are other Singaporean Autistic advocates who are much more intelligent, qualified, eloquent, and respectable than I am. I’m just a girl who can’t speak “normally” and never attended unive...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
October 29, 2025 at 2:23 PM
For a very long time, I had this impression that only people who went to university, were super learned, and spoke eloquently could be advocates or activists. I’m just a girl who can’t speak “normally” and never attended university.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/imposto...
Identifying your level of support needs in Singapore is confusing (at least in my experience).
I hope this blog post gives you a nuanced view of how autism and support needs are perceived in different cultural contexts!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/medium-...
I hope this blog post gives you a nuanced view of how autism and support needs are perceived in different cultural contexts!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/medium-...
Coming to terms with having medium support needs
Identifying your level of Autistic support needs in Singapore is confusing (at least in my experience).
www.autisticasfxxk.com
October 23, 2025 at 1:18 AM
Identifying your level of support needs in Singapore is confusing (at least in my experience).
I hope this blog post gives you a nuanced view of how autism and support needs are perceived in different cultural contexts!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/medium-...
I hope this blog post gives you a nuanced view of how autism and support needs are perceived in different cultural contexts!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/medium-...
🤯 Found out that October is an awareness month for many things…
- Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month
- ADHD Awareness Month
- AAC Awareness Month
- Disability Employment Awareness Month
- Down Syndrome Awareness Month
- Breast Cancer Awareness Month
- Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month
- ADHD Awareness Month
- AAC Awareness Month
- Disability Employment Awareness Month
- Down Syndrome Awareness Month
- Breast Cancer Awareness Month
October 2, 2025 at 3:09 AM
🤯 Found out that October is an awareness month for many things…
- Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month
- ADHD Awareness Month
- AAC Awareness Month
- Disability Employment Awareness Month
- Down Syndrome Awareness Month
- Breast Cancer Awareness Month
- Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month
- ADHD Awareness Month
- AAC Awareness Month
- Disability Employment Awareness Month
- Down Syndrome Awareness Month
- Breast Cancer Awareness Month
For Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month, I’m reposting these 2 deeply vulnerable posts I wrote earlier this year. I hope my sharing helps people better understand the deeper aspects of Selective/Situational Mutism.
Part 1: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
Part 1: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
How my selective mutism is connected to childhood trauma
I was diagnosed with selective mutism at the age of four, and my selective mutism has always been unusual in its pattern: I was completely mute around my grandparents until the day they died, while I ...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
October 2, 2025 at 3:06 AM
For Selective/Situational Mutism Awareness Month, I’m reposting these 2 deeply vulnerable posts I wrote earlier this year. I hope my sharing helps people better understand the deeper aspects of Selective/Situational Mutism.
Part 1: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
Part 1: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
Idk what possessed me to write a long-ass post about my celebrity crushes but here ya go!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/celebri...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/celebri...
Special interest infodump: a history of my celebrity crushes
It was a consistent recurring pattern throughout my life: I would go through phases of becoming completely obsessed with a particular male celebrity. And then after a period of time—around a year or s...
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September 11, 2025 at 9:49 AM
Idk what possessed me to write a long-ass post about my celebrity crushes but here ya go!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/celebri...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/celebri...
I wonder if there are other Autistic or Neurodivergent people out there who play The Sims in a similar way that I do. Let me know if you do!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/inner-w...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/inner-w...
Exploring my inner world through The Sims
I had an idea one day to create and play Sims that represent different parts of myself, as a supplement to my Internal Family Systems (IFS) work. I figured it’d be a fun and creative way to visualise ...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
September 1, 2025 at 4:47 PM
I wonder if there are other Autistic or Neurodivergent people out there who play The Sims in a similar way that I do. Let me know if you do!
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/inner-w...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/inner-w...
Here are some ideas I have on what I’d like to see in a job training programme for Autistic people, based on my lived experience: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...
What I would like to see in a job training programme for Autistic people
After sharing about my horrific experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore, I’ve been thinking a lot about what a truly supportive programme would look like. Here are so...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
August 25, 2025 at 1:09 PM
Here are some ideas I have on what I’d like to see in a job training programme for Autistic people, based on my lived experience: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...
For most of my life, I didn’t know how to scream. Now I’m learning to scream like my rock idols and reclaiming my anger. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/learnin...
Learning to scream like my rock idols
For most of my life, I didn’t know how to scream. Now I’m learning to scream like my rock idols and reclaiming my anger.
www.autisticasfxxk.com
July 8, 2025 at 1:11 PM
For most of my life, I didn’t know how to scream. Now I’m learning to scream like my rock idols and reclaiming my anger. www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/learnin...
This was a difficult post for me to write, but I felt it was important to share this story so that other Singaporean Autistics who had similar experiences wouldn’t feel alone.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...
My horrible experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore
I’ve mentioned a few times before that I had an awful experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore. I talked a bit about it in my “Autistic As Fxxk manifesto” post, but af...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
June 18, 2025 at 1:10 PM
This was a difficult post for me to write, but I felt it was important to share this story so that other Singaporean Autistics who had similar experiences wouldn’t feel alone.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/job-tra...
Reposted by Rachel (she/xe) 🇸🇬 | Autistic As Fxxk ♾️
I look at close to 100 stories a week and even more outside of work. I’ve done this ten years.
This is among the most horrific things I’ve ever read — testimony from dying children whose access to medicine has been cut off by the Trump administration.
www.npr.org/sections/goa...
This is among the most horrific things I’ve ever read — testimony from dying children whose access to medicine has been cut off by the Trump administration.
www.npr.org/sections/goa...
Haunted by hopelessness: 12 Zambians share their stories as HIV drugs run out
Mothers and children, husbands and wives, doctors, truck drivers and religious leaders are all grappling with the fallout from the sudden U.S. cuts in aid.
www.npr.org
April 17, 2025 at 1:58 AM
I look at close to 100 stories a week and even more outside of work. I’ve done this ten years.
This is among the most horrific things I’ve ever read — testimony from dying children whose access to medicine has been cut off by the Trump administration.
www.npr.org/sections/goa...
This is among the most horrific things I’ve ever read — testimony from dying children whose access to medicine has been cut off by the Trump administration.
www.npr.org/sections/goa...
In response to RFK Jr. saying that Autistic people “will never pay taxes. They’ll never hold a job. They’ll never play baseball. They’ll never write a poem. They’ll never go out on a date. Many of them will never use a toilet unassisted.”
April 17, 2025 at 1:46 AM
In response to RFK Jr. saying that Autistic people “will never pay taxes. They’ll never hold a job. They’ll never play baseball. They’ll never write a poem. They’ll never go out on a date. Many of them will never use a toilet unassisted.”
Sharing this interview I did with Autism Dialogues for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! I think it gives a good overview of my background and experiences as an Autistic person in Singapore.
autismdialogues.com/2024/08/15/i...
autismdialogues.com/2024/08/15/i...
Interview 41: Rachel (from Autistic As Fxxk)
Forty-first interview on Autism Dialogues.
autismdialogues.com
April 15, 2025 at 4:26 PM
Sharing this interview I did with Autism Dialogues for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! I think it gives a good overview of my background and experiences as an Autistic person in Singapore.
autismdialogues.com/2024/08/15/i...
autismdialogues.com/2024/08/15/i...
This Autism Acceptance/Awareness Month, please remember our neurokin who lost their lives to systemic racism and ableism.
Rest in peace Victor Perez. And I still haven’t forgotten Ryan Gainer, who we lost last year. 💔
Rest in peace Victor Perez. And I still haven’t forgotten Ryan Gainer, who we lost last year. 💔
April 14, 2025 at 3:44 PM
This Autism Acceptance/Awareness Month, please remember our neurokin who lost their lives to systemic racism and ableism.
Rest in peace Victor Perez. And I still haven’t forgotten Ryan Gainer, who we lost last year. 💔
Rest in peace Victor Perez. And I still haven’t forgotten Ryan Gainer, who we lost last year. 💔
Reposted by Rachel (she/xe) 🇸🇬 | Autistic As Fxxk ♾️
Police violence against neurodivergent and disabled people is a pervasive and systemic problem. We collect resources on our page “The Cult of Compliance and the Policing of the Norm”.
stimpunks.org/policing/
stimpunks.org/policing/
April 13, 2025 at 12:47 PM
Police violence against neurodivergent and disabled people is a pervasive and systemic problem. We collect resources on our page “The Cult of Compliance and the Policing of the Norm”.
stimpunks.org/policing/
stimpunks.org/policing/
Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month as a reminder that some countries and cultures are decades behind in their views of autism (and disability in general), and Autistic people such as myself struggle a lot in such places.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autism-...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autism-...
How autism is viewed in Singapore (spoiler alert: it’s bad!)
Consuming content about autism in most Singaporean media can be triggering for me. The narrative is often either “Look how brave and inspiring these parents are for having to care for this poor tragic...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
April 11, 2025 at 3:24 PM
Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month as a reminder that some countries and cultures are decades behind in their views of autism (and disability in general), and Autistic people such as myself struggle a lot in such places.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autism-...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autism-...
Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! ♾️
Download My Autistic Survival Kit customisable mini-zine for free and print it out or fill it out digitally!
Download link: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autisti...
Download My Autistic Survival Kit customisable mini-zine for free and print it out or fill it out digitally!
Download link: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autisti...
April 9, 2025 at 3:47 PM
Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! ♾️
Download My Autistic Survival Kit customisable mini-zine for free and print it out or fill it out digitally!
Download link: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autisti...
Download My Autistic Survival Kit customisable mini-zine for free and print it out or fill it out digitally!
Download link: www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/autisti...
After sharing my last post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, more memories and realisations have continued to surface. Perhaps they finally feel safe enough to resurface now that both my grandparents are gone.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
April 7, 2025 at 12:35 PM
After sharing my last post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, more memories and realisations have continued to surface. Perhaps they finally feel safe enough to resurface now that both my grandparents are gone.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! ♾️
I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/manifesto
I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/manifesto
Autistic As Fxxk manifesto
I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation.
www.autisticasfxxk.com
April 2, 2025 at 1:18 PM
Sharing this for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! ♾️
I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/manifesto
I wrote this manifesto in 2016, after quitting a job I was placed in by a job training programme from an autism organisation.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/manifesto
I’m running a 15% off sale at my Etsy shop for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! Check it out at autisticasfxxk.etsy.com!
Buying stuff from my Etsy shop is a way to support the work I do here, so that I can continue creating more free content and resources for Autistic folks!
Buying stuff from my Etsy shop is a way to support the work I do here, so that I can continue creating more free content and resources for Autistic folks!
autisticasfxxk.etsy.com
April 1, 2025 at 11:45 AM
I’m running a 15% off sale at my Etsy shop for Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month! Check it out at autisticasfxxk.etsy.com!
Buying stuff from my Etsy shop is a way to support the work I do here, so that I can continue creating more free content and resources for Autistic folks!
Buying stuff from my Etsy shop is a way to support the work I do here, so that I can continue creating more free content and resources for Autistic folks!
Ding ding ding! I think I finally figured out why I started whispering. Since my grandparents lived with us and I was completely mute to them, I had to whisper when talking to my parents or sister so that my grandparents wouldn’t overhear my voice.
This was a very hard and deeply vulnerable post for me to write, but my inner child really wants people to understand what I went through.
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
www.autisticasfxxk.com/blog/selecti...
How my selective mutism is connected to childhood trauma
I was diagnosed with selective mutism at the age of four, and my selective mutism has always been unusual in its pattern: I was completely mute around my grandparents until the day they died, while I ...
www.autisticasfxxk.com
March 29, 2025 at 7:57 AM
Ding ding ding! I think I finally figured out why I started whispering. Since my grandparents lived with us and I was completely mute to them, I had to whisper when talking to my parents or sister so that my grandparents wouldn’t overhear my voice.