ashafenn
@ashafenn.bsky.social
A disabled writer and artist, dedicated to stealing as much joy and flow as i can from this life, dancing with letter and line. https://patreon.com/ashafenn
Got my patreon queued up for members and for the public through mid January. i feel so grateful that i have been able to post daily. Rated for adults, like most of my content, because there is discussion of trauma and pain and illness, since the only way i have ever found to joy was through the rest
ashafenn | Patreon
dancing in letter and line
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December 19, 2025 at 3:01 PM
Got my patreon queued up for members and for the public through mid January. i feel so grateful that i have been able to post daily. Rated for adults, like most of my content, because there is discussion of trauma and pain and illness, since the only way i have ever found to joy was through the rest
Thinking of @greenleejw.bsky.social when this came up on my youtube feed: youtube.com/shorts/U2yae...
Where the Heck Do Eels Come From!??
YouTube video by Today I Learned Science
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December 8, 2025 at 4:49 PM
Thinking of @greenleejw.bsky.social when this came up on my youtube feed: youtube.com/shorts/U2yae...
Besotted with breath
in this little nirvana i made,
i plead with change
to not break me again.
Please, i got all my shards
back together,
years of effort,
held together
by duct tape and twine.
Before i wallow,
remember:
do my woes matter
when so many suffer
beyond the grasp
of mercy?
10/24/25
in this little nirvana i made,
i plead with change
to not break me again.
Please, i got all my shards
back together,
years of effort,
held together
by duct tape and twine.
Before i wallow,
remember:
do my woes matter
when so many suffer
beyond the grasp
of mercy?
10/24/25
October 25, 2025 at 12:19 AM
Besotted with breath
in this little nirvana i made,
i plead with change
to not break me again.
Please, i got all my shards
back together,
years of effort,
held together
by duct tape and twine.
Before i wallow,
remember:
do my woes matter
when so many suffer
beyond the grasp
of mercy?
10/24/25
in this little nirvana i made,
i plead with change
to not break me again.
Please, i got all my shards
back together,
years of effort,
held together
by duct tape and twine.
Before i wallow,
remember:
do my woes matter
when so many suffer
beyond the grasp
of mercy?
10/24/25
Two paths lie before me
like so many in the past,
but in this case,
i know,
that the winds of change
will blow,
without a second thought
to my bliss.
i create all the joy i can
in these moments i have
to cultivate compassion
and realize gratitude is grace.
23 October 2025, 11:07 pm by ashafenn
like so many in the past,
but in this case,
i know,
that the winds of change
will blow,
without a second thought
to my bliss.
i create all the joy i can
in these moments i have
to cultivate compassion
and realize gratitude is grace.
23 October 2025, 11:07 pm by ashafenn
October 24, 2025 at 3:08 AM
Two paths lie before me
like so many in the past,
but in this case,
i know,
that the winds of change
will blow,
without a second thought
to my bliss.
i create all the joy i can
in these moments i have
to cultivate compassion
and realize gratitude is grace.
23 October 2025, 11:07 pm by ashafenn
like so many in the past,
but in this case,
i know,
that the winds of change
will blow,
without a second thought
to my bliss.
i create all the joy i can
in these moments i have
to cultivate compassion
and realize gratitude is grace.
23 October 2025, 11:07 pm by ashafenn
Screens pour sorrow
into my lap,
until i can barely see
anything else -
and here i am,
using the same vehicle
to remind myself
that there is compassion,
even if all i have
is what i create here
in my solitude
and safety.
Let me use this time well
for i will never know
how long i have.
22 Oct 2025
into my lap,
until i can barely see
anything else -
and here i am,
using the same vehicle
to remind myself
that there is compassion,
even if all i have
is what i create here
in my solitude
and safety.
Let me use this time well
for i will never know
how long i have.
22 Oct 2025
October 23, 2025 at 1:14 AM
Screens pour sorrow
into my lap,
until i can barely see
anything else -
and here i am,
using the same vehicle
to remind myself
that there is compassion,
even if all i have
is what i create here
in my solitude
and safety.
Let me use this time well
for i will never know
how long i have.
22 Oct 2025
into my lap,
until i can barely see
anything else -
and here i am,
using the same vehicle
to remind myself
that there is compassion,
even if all i have
is what i create here
in my solitude
and safety.
Let me use this time well
for i will never know
how long i have.
22 Oct 2025
Wearing down,
i dissolve
in this joy
i manufacture -
and i know cannot last,
for change is the only constant.
So i create compassion
in music, language, and painting,
so i can be held aloft
as the ground shifts
under my feet.
Lost and blessed,
i have become expert
in enduring.
22 oct 2025
i dissolve
in this joy
i manufacture -
and i know cannot last,
for change is the only constant.
So i create compassion
in music, language, and painting,
so i can be held aloft
as the ground shifts
under my feet.
Lost and blessed,
i have become expert
in enduring.
22 oct 2025
October 22, 2025 at 4:20 PM
Wearing down,
i dissolve
in this joy
i manufacture -
and i know cannot last,
for change is the only constant.
So i create compassion
in music, language, and painting,
so i can be held aloft
as the ground shifts
under my feet.
Lost and blessed,
i have become expert
in enduring.
22 oct 2025
i dissolve
in this joy
i manufacture -
and i know cannot last,
for change is the only constant.
So i create compassion
in music, language, and painting,
so i can be held aloft
as the ground shifts
under my feet.
Lost and blessed,
i have become expert
in enduring.
22 oct 2025
Change
exhausts me.
The world
of people and things
terrifies us all,
so many suffer;
being safe is a privilege
like never before in my life.
i keep telling people
about passing by default,
poverty, pain,
all the suffering,
because i need to remember
that i endure,
flowing like water.
20 Oct 2025
exhausts me.
The world
of people and things
terrifies us all,
so many suffer;
being safe is a privilege
like never before in my life.
i keep telling people
about passing by default,
poverty, pain,
all the suffering,
because i need to remember
that i endure,
flowing like water.
20 Oct 2025
October 20, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Change
exhausts me.
The world
of people and things
terrifies us all,
so many suffer;
being safe is a privilege
like never before in my life.
i keep telling people
about passing by default,
poverty, pain,
all the suffering,
because i need to remember
that i endure,
flowing like water.
20 Oct 2025
exhausts me.
The world
of people and things
terrifies us all,
so many suffer;
being safe is a privilege
like never before in my life.
i keep telling people
about passing by default,
poverty, pain,
all the suffering,
because i need to remember
that i endure,
flowing like water.
20 Oct 2025
She was the friend
i never thought i'd lose,
the one who swore
the camaraderie
would flourish
until one of us
exhaled that last time.
Like sisters,
we shared so much.
Only, now i'm finally clear headed
in a way i haven't been in years,
coaxing this unreasonable hope,
1/3
#impromptupoetry
i never thought i'd lose,
the one who swore
the camaraderie
would flourish
until one of us
exhaled that last time.
Like sisters,
we shared so much.
Only, now i'm finally clear headed
in a way i haven't been in years,
coaxing this unreasonable hope,
1/3
#impromptupoetry
October 18, 2025 at 7:54 PM
She was the friend
i never thought i'd lose,
the one who swore
the camaraderie
would flourish
until one of us
exhaled that last time.
Like sisters,
we shared so much.
Only, now i'm finally clear headed
in a way i haven't been in years,
coaxing this unreasonable hope,
1/3
#impromptupoetry
i never thought i'd lose,
the one who swore
the camaraderie
would flourish
until one of us
exhaled that last time.
Like sisters,
we shared so much.
Only, now i'm finally clear headed
in a way i haven't been in years,
coaxing this unreasonable hope,
1/3
#impromptupoetry
After years,
i can cry
with both eyes
and the tears
have been welling up
at random intervals.
i am so grateful.
Beloved breath
no longer has to be
supervised.
Speaking is clear,
singing even better,
and my eyes improved.
1/2
#impromptupoetry
i can cry
with both eyes
and the tears
have been welling up
at random intervals.
i am so grateful.
Beloved breath
no longer has to be
supervised.
Speaking is clear,
singing even better,
and my eyes improved.
1/2
#impromptupoetry
October 13, 2025 at 7:30 PM
After years,
i can cry
with both eyes
and the tears
have been welling up
at random intervals.
i am so grateful.
Beloved breath
no longer has to be
supervised.
Speaking is clear,
singing even better,
and my eyes improved.
1/2
#impromptupoetry
i can cry
with both eyes
and the tears
have been welling up
at random intervals.
i am so grateful.
Beloved breath
no longer has to be
supervised.
Speaking is clear,
singing even better,
and my eyes improved.
1/2
#impromptupoetry
Most of my ancestors
left destruction
among their families,
in the world.
i know what privilege & luck
have bought me.
This peace was not earned
any more than the trauma
that preceded it.
i pray to do better
than the past,
to lead with love,
cultivating compassion
rather than cruelty.
10/13/2025
left destruction
among their families,
in the world.
i know what privilege & luck
have bought me.
This peace was not earned
any more than the trauma
that preceded it.
i pray to do better
than the past,
to lead with love,
cultivating compassion
rather than cruelty.
10/13/2025
October 13, 2025 at 5:34 PM
Most of my ancestors
left destruction
among their families,
in the world.
i know what privilege & luck
have bought me.
This peace was not earned
any more than the trauma
that preceded it.
i pray to do better
than the past,
to lead with love,
cultivating compassion
rather than cruelty.
10/13/2025
left destruction
among their families,
in the world.
i know what privilege & luck
have bought me.
This peace was not earned
any more than the trauma
that preceded it.
i pray to do better
than the past,
to lead with love,
cultivating compassion
rather than cruelty.
10/13/2025
Tonight’s video is a poem, ‘each breath beloved’ youtu.be/7FmI1_x9t4A?...
every breath beloved
YouTube video by asha fenn
youtu.be
October 13, 2025 at 4:15 AM
Tonight’s video is a poem, ‘each breath beloved’ youtu.be/7FmI1_x9t4A?...
Filled with trepidation,
i try to solve the problem
myself,
as always.
It has felt
my whole life
like i am the only one
that i can rely on.
1/3
i try to solve the problem
myself,
as always.
It has felt
my whole life
like i am the only one
that i can rely on.
1/3
October 12, 2025 at 1:48 PM
Filled with trepidation,
i try to solve the problem
myself,
as always.
It has felt
my whole life
like i am the only one
that i can rely on.
1/3
i try to solve the problem
myself,
as always.
It has felt
my whole life
like i am the only one
that i can rely on.
1/3
Change is the only constant,
i know,
but today has been edging to tears
since kind help left,
In my impotence,
i've been learning
about points and other things,
selling this home
i've cherished for so long
became real.
1/3 #impromptupoetry
i know,
but today has been edging to tears
since kind help left,
In my impotence,
i've been learning
about points and other things,
selling this home
i've cherished for so long
became real.
1/3 #impromptupoetry
October 11, 2025 at 5:28 PM
Change is the only constant,
i know,
but today has been edging to tears
since kind help left,
In my impotence,
i've been learning
about points and other things,
selling this home
i've cherished for so long
became real.
1/3 #impromptupoetry
i know,
but today has been edging to tears
since kind help left,
In my impotence,
i've been learning
about points and other things,
selling this home
i've cherished for so long
became real.
1/3 #impromptupoetry
If you don't know spoon theory, then have fun with the googling, but sweet kittens, i set every metaphorical spoon i have on fire. And, today was a miracle of joy - another area of the house has been addressed. My messy nirvana is slowly becoming a neat one. i'm beyond grateful. #disabledjoy
October 9, 2025 at 7:43 PM
If you don't know spoon theory, then have fun with the googling, but sweet kittens, i set every metaphorical spoon i have on fire. And, today was a miracle of joy - another area of the house has been addressed. My messy nirvana is slowly becoming a neat one. i'm beyond grateful. #disabledjoy
Art from the first week of October, with a song i write two days ago. My voice was good, for once, so i started singing poems as rounds and omg, it's spooky and cool. Art made in Artstudio Pro, music Garageband. #art #music youtube.com/shorts/e1U86...
october 2025 no 1 by ashafenn
YouTube video by asha fenn
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October 7, 2025 at 1:07 PM
Art from the first week of October, with a song i write two days ago. My voice was good, for once, so i started singing poems as rounds and omg, it's spooky and cool. Art made in Artstudio Pro, music Garageband. #art #music youtube.com/shorts/e1U86...
Took me half an hour to get my body able to move today the pain was so bad, but i keep the tablet with me (i have a whole bed desk situation) and this morning was able to start with some wonderful painting. #art
October 6, 2025 at 2:33 PM
Took me half an hour to get my body able to move today the pain was so bad, but i keep the tablet with me (i have a whole bed desk situation) and this morning was able to start with some wonderful painting. #art
Just wrote three rounds and one of them i recorded twice, with and without drums. Garage band is the coolest and transformed a few hours of my life into bliss. #makingmusic
October 6, 2025 at 2:02 AM
Just wrote three rounds and one of them i recorded twice, with and without drums. Garage band is the coolest and transformed a few hours of my life into bliss. #makingmusic
Usually, patreon buys me food for the last half of the month. This time, i had to invest in myself as an artist and writer due to a failure of technology and patreon made it possible. i'm grateful beyond words. patreon.com/ashafenn/ 1/2
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dancing in letter and line
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October 5, 2025 at 1:23 PM
Usually, patreon buys me food for the last half of the month. This time, i had to invest in myself as an artist and writer due to a failure of technology and patreon made it possible. i'm grateful beyond words. patreon.com/ashafenn/ 1/2
Besotted with breath,
i spent the day,
whole and enough,
tucked
within letter and line,
thankful
for this time
to grow drunk
on my love
for how colors blend,
and the stories
that a smile
can tell. 1/2
i spent the day,
whole and enough,
tucked
within letter and line,
thankful
for this time
to grow drunk
on my love
for how colors blend,
and the stories
that a smile
can tell. 1/2
October 4, 2025 at 9:57 PM
Besotted with breath,
i spent the day,
whole and enough,
tucked
within letter and line,
thankful
for this time
to grow drunk
on my love
for how colors blend,
and the stories
that a smile
can tell. 1/2
i spent the day,
whole and enough,
tucked
within letter and line,
thankful
for this time
to grow drunk
on my love
for how colors blend,
and the stories
that a smile
can tell. 1/2
@imanibarbarin.bsky.social is brilliant and what she's saying needs to be heard. Like every disabled person, i have stories of people saying they'd rather die than live my life, saying i'm crazy to be grateful, giving thanks i didn't have children... www.instagram.com/reel/DPWkukV...
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October 3, 2025 at 10:36 PM
@imanibarbarin.bsky.social is brilliant and what she's saying needs to be heard. Like every disabled person, i have stories of people saying they'd rather die than live my life, saying i'm crazy to be grateful, giving thanks i didn't have children... www.instagram.com/reel/DPWkukV...
Beloved breath
moving through my lungs
with such tender effort,
i am grateful
for this moment
of safety and mercy
in a world gone mad.
Let's dance
in letter and line,
building compassion
until it covers everything
like the tide
has come in.
Let's live inside our loving.
10/2/2025 by ashafenn
moving through my lungs
with such tender effort,
i am grateful
for this moment
of safety and mercy
in a world gone mad.
Let's dance
in letter and line,
building compassion
until it covers everything
like the tide
has come in.
Let's live inside our loving.
10/2/2025 by ashafenn
October 3, 2025 at 2:14 AM
Beloved breath
moving through my lungs
with such tender effort,
i am grateful
for this moment
of safety and mercy
in a world gone mad.
Let's dance
in letter and line,
building compassion
until it covers everything
like the tide
has come in.
Let's live inside our loving.
10/2/2025 by ashafenn
moving through my lungs
with such tender effort,
i am grateful
for this moment
of safety and mercy
in a world gone mad.
Let's dance
in letter and line,
building compassion
until it covers everything
like the tide
has come in.
Let's live inside our loving.
10/2/2025 by ashafenn
@nealharkness.bsky.social now i have a new ear worm youtu.be/jq30l5-vBbo?...
Lana Del Rey - Freak
YouTube video by LanaDelReyVEVO
youtu.be
October 2, 2025 at 6:22 PM
@nealharkness.bsky.social now i have a new ear worm youtu.be/jq30l5-vBbo?...
Painting time-lapses from the last half of September 2025. All made on the artstudio pro app, using oil, ink and smudging brushes. Everything is bearable, even the constant pain, when i'm able to drown my sorrows in art. There are images of pain and some non graphic nudes. youtu.be/5hJzdPw35ss
September 2025 painting timelapses
YouTube video by asha fenn
youtu.be
September 30, 2025 at 8:32 PM
Painting time-lapses from the last half of September 2025. All made on the artstudio pro app, using oil, ink and smudging brushes. Everything is bearable, even the constant pain, when i'm able to drown my sorrows in art. There are images of pain and some non graphic nudes. youtu.be/5hJzdPw35ss
So worried about the sale of the house and not having heat - i need a new fuel oil tank. This is a scary assed time to be disabled and surrounded by unmet need.
September 27, 2025 at 12:16 AM
So worried about the sale of the house and not having heat - i need a new fuel oil tank. This is a scary assed time to be disabled and surrounded by unmet need.
Balanced on my breath,
i flow.
Each exhale
wheezes it sway out
soaked in gratitude,
while every inhale
is seduced
by the wonders
that can be made
with pen and paper,
letter and line,
and a few hours
of my time.
impromptu poems by ashafenn,
25 September 2025
#poetry
i flow.
Each exhale
wheezes it sway out
soaked in gratitude,
while every inhale
is seduced
by the wonders
that can be made
with pen and paper,
letter and line,
and a few hours
of my time.
impromptu poems by ashafenn,
25 September 2025
#poetry
September 26, 2025 at 2:42 AM
Balanced on my breath,
i flow.
Each exhale
wheezes it sway out
soaked in gratitude,
while every inhale
is seduced
by the wonders
that can be made
with pen and paper,
letter and line,
and a few hours
of my time.
impromptu poems by ashafenn,
25 September 2025
#poetry
i flow.
Each exhale
wheezes it sway out
soaked in gratitude,
while every inhale
is seduced
by the wonders
that can be made
with pen and paper,
letter and line,
and a few hours
of my time.
impromptu poems by ashafenn,
25 September 2025
#poetry