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Anita 🦋
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life through words
The Reform conference made me come alive in a way I didn't expect. I talked with people; I heard their stories. I found pieces to a future I hope for. The mental chatter cleared, and I felt at ease. This is who I want to be, at ease, filled with clarity.

May I strive for true alignment

#reform
November 16, 2025 at 4:19 PM
So many edits, an invisible pen made vocal by nosy eyes. I didn't ask for your help; your life isn't one I want.

Fuck that!

My peace matters more to me than the ramblings of a desperate woman.
November 1, 2025 at 5:06 PM
I sat outside and lay in the grass. I let the breeze carry me with tender songs in my ears. I drifted away to versions of myself. I wiggled my feet in the grass...

I grounded. I needed to.

Who knows where I will be soon? Will I choose me or shrink?

(May I choose me, in all my foliage)
October 26, 2025 at 11:23 PM
Love By The 10th Date ✨️
Just what the doctor ordered on this rainy fall day. Cozy with a flannel, fleece blanket, Keri, Kelly, and Meagan light the screen with truths and memorable moments.
October 12, 2025 at 11:02 PM
To whom it concerns,

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sorry your kind soul is feeling the loss of a loved one. Please let it out, however, that it is. May you cry, let the tears flow. I hope you have arms ready to hold you as you fall apart.

May you grow tender, not hard with each wave, C.
October 12, 2025 at 8:54 PM
I will never forget your kindness. Your bright smile is mirrored only by your kindness.

I still yearn
September 23, 2025 at 6:54 PM
We almost were (again). I got scared. I'm sorry I hurt your heart. Maybe my yearn is my fate.

To look from afar.

I wish you keep that shine. I hope your heart grows. I wish you know love, true love. I wish you are held and cherished. I wish...❤️

I still yearn.

#theyearn
September 23, 2025 at 6:47 PM
I wish I told you how I felt then. The endless stream of time that your eyes hold. The sparkle in eyes that stills my heart. Your smile, so bright, even years later.

I'm sorry that I was scared. I was afraid that you would change my life. You still did even miles and time away.

#theyearn
September 23, 2025 at 6:37 PM
A Match Made At Christmas...
So good, I got teary-eyed!
September 19, 2025 at 5:55 AM
Could it be real? After all this time, did I miss the subtle way you care... about me?
August 5, 2025 at 2:15 AM
Flashes of us flicker in my mind. One moment, your smile, another your laugh, and then your eyes. I catch a shadow of something beneath, somberness. They hold mine as I smile, a pause in conversation. There is a hint between words said across us in my memory. Something palpable

Could it be...you?
August 5, 2025 at 2:10 AM
I feel empty. My eyes stare blank, spark fading. Where can I restore my spark?

Looking at pictures, I feel sad. The light has dimmed from my eyes.

#life
July 1, 2025 at 9:59 PM
My soul needed this trip. Tired but more grounded.

I'm back to make moves.
June 23, 2025 at 2:44 PM
Seated at the edge of the view, the Vista speaks. People laugh and commune. A breeze strolls through.

I ponder my last hours here. I almost didn't come here.

Kate Sessions in her glory...

San Diego still has my heart.

#GoingBacktoSD
June 22, 2025 at 8:16 PM
I miss this place.
The community I thought I lost, I found it tonight. At a farewell party, I realized there it was. It was closer than I thought, just under my nose. The party wasn't mine, but the closeness was.

#GoingBackSD
June 22, 2025 at 8:34 AM
It's hot. I don't know how I had no AC here. I couldn't even enjoy my food; I got full fast.
June 17, 2025 at 7:24 PM
I loved this place, so much. It is different now. The love changed. I changed. I thought I would move back so many times...

#GoingBackSD
June 17, 2025 at 12:16 AM
I came back, and I noticed the cracks. The paint was faded. Did I really love this place? Maybe I just changed...

I wouldn't be here if I didn't.

#GoingBack
June 16, 2025 at 8:48 PM
Happy Father's Day, Dad!
June 16, 2025 at 3:50 AM
I feel giddy!
May 21, 2025 at 4:27 PM
I stumbled onto a live so serene. The voice bellowed and whispered among the trees and creeks. My restless soul was soothed. Calmed by the soul strumming his guitar.

I wanted to stay there forever.
Each scar healed as the song played.

#serenity
May 13, 2025 at 3:25 PM
Sometimes, I need to get out of the house.
April 24, 2025 at 3:14 AM
I let it happen. The strength and fervor overwhelmed me. I tried to escape, but I was already voliated.

After. My smile was a little crooked, and my laugh dry, I was ushered out.

I remained home, unshowered.
I ordered food.
Silent. Screaming on the inside.

"Why?"

#beingviolated
April 14, 2025 at 1:37 AM
Today, I found out you died. My day was going one way, but it changed.

At this point, you were long gone. All the memories rushed forth.

Prom. Homecoming. College.

You married a man named Raj.
You thrived.

Suddenly, you died...

May your soul rest in perfect peace, my dear friend.
April 5, 2025 at 7:22 PM
I reflect on the evening spent listening to jazz. Alone, a bit scared, but content.

I made it out that night. I sat with myself and listened to the beautiful melodies around me.

The slight chill added to the tranquil evening. A whole world open to me....

#jazzynights
April 2, 2025 at 3:13 AM