Æ.
@aesthr.com
Call me Esther, Aesthr, or Æ if you want to be extra.
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
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To be referred to as “young people” (demographically) when it wouldn’t be weird, if I was a grandma 🙃
November 11, 2025 at 10:25 AM
To be referred to as “young people” (demographically) when it wouldn’t be weird, if I was a grandma 🙃
Doc appointment today to hopefully address their fuckup from three weeks ago …
November 11, 2025 at 9:42 AM
Doc appointment today to hopefully address their fuckup from three weeks ago …
What really makes Satisfactory work for me is that there’s no survival mechanics. Those stress me out in a very bad way.
I’ve been in situations where I couldn’t afford enough food. I really don’t want a video game about that.
I’ve been in situations where I couldn’t afford enough food. I really don’t want a video game about that.
November 11, 2025 at 8:12 AM
What really makes Satisfactory work for me is that there’s no survival mechanics. Those stress me out in a very bad way.
I’ve been in situations where I couldn’t afford enough food. I really don’t want a video game about that.
I’ve been in situations where I couldn’t afford enough food. I really don’t want a video game about that.
Despite struggles, i finished today’s workout
November 11, 2025 at 12:04 AM
Despite struggles, i finished today’s workout
Strip Dark Souls Couch Co-op:
Every time a player dies, they take off a piece of clothing and hand the controller to the next player.
Repeat.
Add other “penalties” according to taste when clothing runs out.
Every time a player dies, they take off a piece of clothing and hand the controller to the next player.
Repeat.
Add other “penalties” according to taste when clothing runs out.
November 10, 2025 at 11:53 PM
Strip Dark Souls Couch Co-op:
Every time a player dies, they take off a piece of clothing and hand the controller to the next player.
Repeat.
Add other “penalties” according to taste when clothing runs out.
Every time a player dies, they take off a piece of clothing and hand the controller to the next player.
Repeat.
Add other “penalties” according to taste when clothing runs out.
Official mod support.
This would solve pretty much all other issues.
This would solve pretty much all other issues.
November 10, 2025 at 11:46 PM
Official mod support.
This would solve pretty much all other issues.
This would solve pretty much all other issues.
Me, a child, naive and foolish:
“I bet I can play Satisfactory in a non-wasteful way”
“I bet I can play Satisfactory in a non-wasteful way”
November 10, 2025 at 10:36 PM
Me, a child, naive and foolish:
“I bet I can play Satisfactory in a non-wasteful way”
“I bet I can play Satisfactory in a non-wasteful way”
Damn, you all really did. Thanks 😊
It's boring medicine lecture time again.
Please send good distractions
Please send good distractions
November 10, 2025 at 5:52 PM
Damn, you all really did. Thanks 😊
entitlement.jpg
The sidewalk is not for parking at all but this one just decided to block this pretty wide sidewalk entirely
The sidewalk is not for parking at all but this one just decided to block this pretty wide sidewalk entirely
November 10, 2025 at 5:21 PM
entitlement.jpg
The sidewalk is not for parking at all but this one just decided to block this pretty wide sidewalk entirely
The sidewalk is not for parking at all but this one just decided to block this pretty wide sidewalk entirely
Recently I had some doubts about my ability to switch. I hadn't really felt the desire to sub/bottom in a while. But the weekend very much settled that concern.
November 10, 2025 at 4:43 PM
Recently I had some doubts about my ability to switch. I hadn't really felt the desire to sub/bottom in a while. But the weekend very much settled that concern.
It's boring medicine lecture time again.
Please send good distractions
Please send good distractions
November 10, 2025 at 4:38 PM
It's boring medicine lecture time again.
Please send good distractions
Please send good distractions
Autism, the game
November 10, 2025 at 3:41 PM
Autism, the game
This game is going to consume my entire brain, I can already feel it
November 10, 2025 at 3:38 PM
This game is going to consume my entire brain, I can already feel it
Oops 🤷🏻♀️
Satisfactory is out for Playstation now and I must resist
November 10, 2025 at 1:29 PM
Oops 🤷🏻♀️
Despite one of them being pretty old now and certainly a bit clunky in terms of writing, these two pieces remain a really good introduction.
If you want to get to know and understand me, I recommend reading both.
If you want to get to know and understand me, I recommend reading both.
Since all of this bubbled up again today …
I wrote this over eleven years ago. A lot has changed since then but it’s not gone.
www.selfawaresoup.com/translations...
I wrote this over eleven years ago. A lot has changed since then but it’s not gone.
www.selfawaresoup.com/translations...
Why I Am Scared | selfaware soup
www.selfawaresoup.com
November 10, 2025 at 1:28 PM
Despite one of them being pretty old now and certainly a bit clunky in terms of writing, these two pieces remain a really good introduction.
If you want to get to know and understand me, I recommend reading both.
If you want to get to know and understand me, I recommend reading both.
Many of my favorite movies and shows are absolutely packed with trauma, loss, grief, depression, etc:
Arrival, Arcane, Evangelion, Grave of the Fireflies, Godzilla Minus One, … I love these things deeply. The important part is that they are cathartic and treat these issues with respect.
Arrival, Arcane, Evangelion, Grave of the Fireflies, Godzilla Minus One, … I love these things deeply. The important part is that they are cathartic and treat these issues with respect.
Right, now I remember why I didn’t continue watching Invasion back when it started.
The second episode was giving me really bad flashbacks and the insufferably passive-aggressive parent couple wasn’t exactly helping either.
The second episode was giving me really bad flashbacks and the insufferably passive-aggressive parent couple wasn’t exactly helping either.
November 10, 2025 at 1:25 PM
Many of my favorite movies and shows are absolutely packed with trauma, loss, grief, depression, etc:
Arrival, Arcane, Evangelion, Grave of the Fireflies, Godzilla Minus One, … I love these things deeply. The important part is that they are cathartic and treat these issues with respect.
Arrival, Arcane, Evangelion, Grave of the Fireflies, Godzilla Minus One, … I love these things deeply. The important part is that they are cathartic and treat these issues with respect.
Being around other trans people has made it so I basically have no expectations of anyone’s voices sound like.
It’s just an empty spot but when I eventually hear them, it’s always a surprise because it’s necessarily different from “nothing”.
It’s just an empty spot but when I eventually hear them, it’s always a surprise because it’s necessarily different from “nothing”.
November 10, 2025 at 1:06 PM
Being around other trans people has made it so I basically have no expectations of anyone’s voices sound like.
It’s just an empty spot but when I eventually hear them, it’s always a surprise because it’s necessarily different from “nothing”.
It’s just an empty spot but when I eventually hear them, it’s always a surprise because it’s necessarily different from “nothing”.
Same. I have pretty much one outfit.
But you know what? It looks good.
And at least I'm not running around in the typical German yellow outdoor utility jacket that everyone else is wearing.
But you know what? It looks good.
And at least I'm not running around in the typical German yellow outdoor utility jacket that everyone else is wearing.
I have extremely critical fashion opinions about folks I pass in the city for a person who regularly leaves the house wearing sweatpants.
November 10, 2025 at 12:06 PM
Same. I have pretty much one outfit.
But you know what? It looks good.
And at least I'm not running around in the typical German yellow outdoor utility jacket that everyone else is wearing.
But you know what? It looks good.
And at least I'm not running around in the typical German yellow outdoor utility jacket that everyone else is wearing.
Really starting to reject followers by outright blocking them.
Way too many creepy old men coming in and I know exactly why they’re here now.
Way too many creepy old men coming in and I know exactly why they’re here now.
November 10, 2025 at 11:28 AM
Really starting to reject followers by outright blocking them.
Way too many creepy old men coming in and I know exactly why they’re here now.
Way too many creepy old men coming in and I know exactly why they’re here now.
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Many of you 🤭
November 10, 2025 at 1:30 AM
Many of you 🤭
Btw I have been mistaken for being from the US again based on how I speak English.
Almost nobody ever gets this right but the wrong guesses are always funny. I’ve had people guess US-American, Canadian, and British. It doesn’t make any sense.
Almost nobody ever gets this right but the wrong guesses are always funny. I’ve had people guess US-American, Canadian, and British. It doesn’t make any sense.
November 10, 2025 at 11:17 AM
Btw I have been mistaken for being from the US again based on how I speak English.
Almost nobody ever gets this right but the wrong guesses are always funny. I’ve had people guess US-American, Canadian, and British. It doesn’t make any sense.
Almost nobody ever gets this right but the wrong guesses are always funny. I’ve had people guess US-American, Canadian, and British. It doesn’t make any sense.
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1000 times this. It's the worst when writers or illustrators or filmmakers apply that to their own works. So fucking degrading.
No other word has done more damage to the craft of writing in recent years than “content”. Even if you’re using the word “content” ironically, or as a cute little joke, don’t. When someone calls writing “content” they’re pissing on someone’s hard work & passion. “Content” is Technosatan’s henchword.
November 10, 2025 at 10:19 AM
1000 times this. It's the worst when writers or illustrators or filmmakers apply that to their own works. So fucking degrading.