Ziekensphere
@ziekensphere.bsky.social
28: F: Tired of recovery, but I’m more tired of being disgusted with myself. This is my diary of disaster.
Feed me, not with food, but with starving motivation.
I fully support your recovery. Rooting for you, babe.
Feed me, not with food, but with starving motivation.
I fully support your recovery. Rooting for you, babe.
Been sick for almost two weeks now and barely starting to feel like myself again. Those fever dreams were on another level… had a nightmare of my mother crying and screaming at me to kill myself. I could still hear the crying in my head when I woke up..
January 17, 2025 at 8:55 PM
Been sick for almost two weeks now and barely starting to feel like myself again. Those fever dreams were on another level… had a nightmare of my mother crying and screaming at me to kill myself. I could still hear the crying in my head when I woke up..
Brushed my teeth and did my skincare routine early to keep myself from eating more dark chocolate only to make a vodka cranberry mix right after.🫣
January 5, 2025 at 3:27 AM
Brushed my teeth and did my skincare routine early to keep myself from eating more dark chocolate only to make a vodka cranberry mix right after.🫣
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I’m high for the first time in a long time and when the munchies hit my brain still restricted and only allowed myself a rice cake with LC light cheese. Am I skinny yet?
December 29, 2024 at 10:20 PM
I’m high for the first time in a long time and when the munchies hit my brain still restricted and only allowed myself a rice cake with LC light cheese. Am I skinny yet?
Coffee and hard boiled eggs this morning. And yes, I put a disgusting amount of mustard on those damn eggs. 🥚
December 29, 2024 at 4:50 PM
Coffee and hard boiled eggs this morning. And yes, I put a disgusting amount of mustard on those damn eggs. 🥚
I caved and ate hard boiled eggs.. Don’t you dare ask me how many!
December 28, 2024 at 8:57 PM
I caved and ate hard boiled eggs.. Don’t you dare ask me how many!
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December 28, 2024 at 6:04 PM
All these backup account… shiiiit, if my account gets scrapped, that’s it for me. I’ll be too lazy to make another account. Ya’ll might just have to miss me.🧍🏻♀️
December 28, 2024 at 5:51 PM
All these backup account… shiiiit, if my account gets scrapped, that’s it for me. I’ll be too lazy to make another account. Ya’ll might just have to miss me.🧍🏻♀️
Two small pieces of dark chocolate and a sugar free monster later. 80 calories too much already. Someone stop me.
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December 28, 2024 at 5:20 PM
Two small pieces of dark chocolate and a sugar free monster later. 80 calories too much already. Someone stop me.
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i’m the loneliest i’ve ever been
December 25, 2024 at 2:55 PM
i’m the loneliest i’ve ever been
The older I get the more pathetic and useless I feel. Will I ever stop hating myself? Will I ever be free? When will it finally come to an end?
December 28, 2024 at 2:15 AM
The older I get the more pathetic and useless I feel. Will I ever stop hating myself? Will I ever be free? When will it finally come to an end?
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I used to tell myself that it's okay, I'm young, I have time.
I'm not young anymore.
I'm not young anymore.
December 27, 2024 at 12:51 AM
I used to tell myself that it's okay, I'm young, I have time.
I'm not young anymore.
I'm not young anymore.
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I have been eating somewhat like a normal person for the past several days and it’s all I can think about… Time to start my bullshit again and lock in.
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December 27, 2024 at 10:41 PM
I have been eating somewhat like a normal person for the past several days and it’s all I can think about… Time to start my bullshit again and lock in.
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got that dog in me & it needs to be euthanized
December 24, 2024 at 2:13 AM
got that dog in me & it needs to be euthanized
What a terrible fucking day.💖
December 16, 2024 at 3:31 AM
What a terrible fucking day.💖
It’s that time again, I guess.🍸
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December 15, 2024 at 5:10 AM
It’s that time again, I guess.🍸
Got a lot of crazy stares for turning down pizza at a party today so I bit a little off the breading from a cupcake and then squished the rest in a napkin when no one was looking. This mental health has me mad pathetic.. sorry, saving my cal intake for the vodka at home. 🤷♀️
December 15, 2024 at 12:59 AM
Got a lot of crazy stares for turning down pizza at a party today so I bit a little off the breading from a cupcake and then squished the rest in a napkin when no one was looking. This mental health has me mad pathetic.. sorry, saving my cal intake for the vodka at home. 🤷♀️
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i want to look like L, but unfortunately i look like XL.
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December 11, 2024 at 3:12 PM
i want to look like L, but unfortunately i look like XL.
Eating fire noodles because my brain is having a fuck it moment and I want my insides to burn from the inside out but these noodles aren’t doing shit… guess now I have a reason to not finish them. 🤷♀️
December 11, 2024 at 11:53 PM
Eating fire noodles because my brain is having a fuck it moment and I want my insides to burn from the inside out but these noodles aren’t doing shit… guess now I have a reason to not finish them. 🤷♀️
I think my new obsession is putting an insane amount of mustard on almost everything I’ve been snacking on and I don’t understand it but it’s happening.
December 8, 2024 at 11:35 PM
I think my new obsession is putting an insane amount of mustard on almost everything I’ve been snacking on and I don’t understand it but it’s happening.
Wow.. the feeling of being drunk. I think I missed this. I think I can keep going.
December 6, 2024 at 1:02 AM
Wow.. the feeling of being drunk. I think I missed this. I think I can keep going.
I ate something today so that means I can drink tonight, right?
Right?
Right?
December 5, 2024 at 10:12 PM
I ate something today so that means I can drink tonight, right?
Right?
Right?
Did I really just wrap toast around string cheese and cover it in an ungodly amount of mustard? Yes.
Am I ashamed? Yes.
Did I do it again right after? Also yes.
Am I ashamed? Yes.
Did I do it again right after? Also yes.
December 5, 2024 at 9:18 PM
Did I really just wrap toast around string cheese and cover it in an ungodly amount of mustard? Yes.
Am I ashamed? Yes.
Did I do it again right after? Also yes.
Am I ashamed? Yes.
Did I do it again right after? Also yes.