Antônio Julio
@vagner4242.bsky.social
Undiagnosed aspie.
No face picture because safety reasons. For now. 🤞
Be advised, I will be liking most post that have trees in them.
I like trees.
No face picture because safety reasons. For now. 🤞
Be advised, I will be liking most post that have trees in them.
I like trees.
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Antônio Julio
@vagner4242.bsky.social
· Sep 7
Updating the "I am a person, not a bot" post.
Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.
Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.
Updating the "I am a person, not a bot" post.
Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.
Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.
September 7, 2025 at 10:16 PM
Updating the "I am a person, not a bot" post.
Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.
Will try doing this at least every 06 months, let's see how it goes.
Every so often I find myself being strangled by my own hands. Following arbitrary rules that don't mean anything and have no reason to exist whatsoever.
It is liberating to realize, yet again, that I'm the owner of my own life and may do with it as I please.
It is liberating to realize, yet again, that I'm the owner of my own life and may do with it as I please.
July 26, 2025 at 11:05 AM
Every so often I find myself being strangled by my own hands. Following arbitrary rules that don't mean anything and have no reason to exist whatsoever.
It is liberating to realize, yet again, that I'm the owner of my own life and may do with it as I please.
It is liberating to realize, yet again, that I'm the owner of my own life and may do with it as I please.
Got myself hooked on a game now. For the moment, Oxygen Not Included is sucking all my free time and giving me back all that sweet sweet happiness juice.
Thought I know it won't last, and 02-03 weeks from now I'll be hating it, I'm going to enjoy it while I can.
"The sun shall rise again tomorrow"
Thought I know it won't last, and 02-03 weeks from now I'll be hating it, I'm going to enjoy it while I can.
"The sun shall rise again tomorrow"
July 20, 2025 at 12:42 PM
Got myself hooked on a game now. For the moment, Oxygen Not Included is sucking all my free time and giving me back all that sweet sweet happiness juice.
Thought I know it won't last, and 02-03 weeks from now I'll be hating it, I'm going to enjoy it while I can.
"The sun shall rise again tomorrow"
Thought I know it won't last, and 02-03 weeks from now I'll be hating it, I'm going to enjoy it while I can.
"The sun shall rise again tomorrow"
Funny how you are listening to some songs while drawing and just, BAM!!!
A Dio's song you have never heard before?!?!?!???
A Dio's song you have never heard before?!?!?!???
May 30, 2025 at 1:01 AM
Funny how you are listening to some songs while drawing and just, BAM!!!
A Dio's song you have never heard before?!?!?!???
A Dio's song you have never heard before?!?!?!???
This piece is called "one-eyed quick sketch made while waiting for the doctor after having my pupil dilated"
Also, I caved and bought more pens. (shame!)
But, after having to do this trunk without a fine-liner, I don't regret it.
Also also, I used hatching again. Not that bad if I might say it.
Also, I caved and bought more pens. (shame!)
But, after having to do this trunk without a fine-liner, I don't regret it.
Also also, I used hatching again. Not that bad if I might say it.
May 22, 2025 at 5:17 PM
This piece is called "one-eyed quick sketch made while waiting for the doctor after having my pupil dilated"
Also, I caved and bought more pens. (shame!)
But, after having to do this trunk without a fine-liner, I don't regret it.
Also also, I used hatching again. Not that bad if I might say it.
Also, I caved and bought more pens. (shame!)
But, after having to do this trunk without a fine-liner, I don't regret it.
Also also, I used hatching again. Not that bad if I might say it.
I have successfully stopped myself, yet again, from buying more fine-liner pens.
It is like a moth to a flame.
Whenever I see a pretty pen, specially if it has a fine point and it's black ink, my brain gets into monkey mode.
It is like a moth to a flame.
Whenever I see a pretty pen, specially if it has a fine point and it's black ink, my brain gets into monkey mode.
May 11, 2025 at 11:49 AM
I have successfully stopped myself, yet again, from buying more fine-liner pens.
It is like a moth to a flame.
Whenever I see a pretty pen, specially if it has a fine point and it's black ink, my brain gets into monkey mode.
It is like a moth to a flame.
Whenever I see a pretty pen, specially if it has a fine point and it's black ink, my brain gets into monkey mode.
More and more I fear being my true self here.
I'm not what is considered "normal" or "adequate". I live by imitating what others are, how they behave, how they talk, how they smile.
I don't have that.
Every day at work I must put up an act. Pretending to be normal, to be common.
I HATE IT.
I'm not what is considered "normal" or "adequate". I live by imitating what others are, how they behave, how they talk, how they smile.
I don't have that.
Every day at work I must put up an act. Pretending to be normal, to be common.
I HATE IT.
April 3, 2025 at 3:11 AM
More and more I fear being my true self here.
I'm not what is considered "normal" or "adequate". I live by imitating what others are, how they behave, how they talk, how they smile.
I don't have that.
Every day at work I must put up an act. Pretending to be normal, to be common.
I HATE IT.
I'm not what is considered "normal" or "adequate". I live by imitating what others are, how they behave, how they talk, how they smile.
I don't have that.
Every day at work I must put up an act. Pretending to be normal, to be common.
I HATE IT.
Thought about the caretaker some days ago.
It made me sad. Thinking about all that it could've been.
So I drew.
It helped a little.
Also, I have to stop always projecting light from the left. It is creating a bad habit.
It made me sad. Thinking about all that it could've been.
So I drew.
It helped a little.
Also, I have to stop always projecting light from the left. It is creating a bad habit.
February 28, 2025 at 12:09 AM
Thought about the caretaker some days ago.
It made me sad. Thinking about all that it could've been.
So I drew.
It helped a little.
Also, I have to stop always projecting light from the left. It is creating a bad habit.
It made me sad. Thinking about all that it could've been.
So I drew.
It helped a little.
Also, I have to stop always projecting light from the left. It is creating a bad habit.
Stuff has been delayed yet again to next month.
It sucks.
But it was necessary.
Pictured here: I was overthinking it.
Once more, yet again.
It sucks.
But it was necessary.
Pictured here: I was overthinking it.
Once more, yet again.
February 4, 2025 at 11:19 PM
Stuff has been delayed yet again to next month.
It sucks.
But it was necessary.
Pictured here: I was overthinking it.
Once more, yet again.
It sucks.
But it was necessary.
Pictured here: I was overthinking it.
Once more, yet again.
I'm back.
Here in Brazil, there's a 03 months "probation" period when you get a new job. Until then, the employer can fire you without any reason whatsoever, and you only get the money you worked for.
After the 03 months, you get fully hired and are now protected by many things.
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Here in Brazil, there's a 03 months "probation" period when you get a new job. Until then, the employer can fire you without any reason whatsoever, and you only get the money you worked for.
After the 03 months, you get fully hired and are now protected by many things.
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November 23, 2024 at 10:56 PM
I'm back.
Here in Brazil, there's a 03 months "probation" period when you get a new job. Until then, the employer can fire you without any reason whatsoever, and you only get the money you worked for.
After the 03 months, you get fully hired and are now protected by many things.
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Here in Brazil, there's a 03 months "probation" period when you get a new job. Until then, the employer can fire you without any reason whatsoever, and you only get the money you worked for.
After the 03 months, you get fully hired and are now protected by many things.
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It has been some time.
Employer stopped paying me. Had tp get a lawyer. Had to look for a new job.
Had to do some introspection. The hardest part.
Got something lined up now. Feeling better. Hopefully everything goes to plan.
Had to wait for some time, decided to draw.
It was good doing it again.
Employer stopped paying me. Had tp get a lawyer. Had to look for a new job.
Had to do some introspection. The hardest part.
Got something lined up now. Feeling better. Hopefully everything goes to plan.
Had to wait for some time, decided to draw.
It was good doing it again.
August 19, 2024 at 2:34 PM
It has been some time.
Employer stopped paying me. Had tp get a lawyer. Had to look for a new job.
Had to do some introspection. The hardest part.
Got something lined up now. Feeling better. Hopefully everything goes to plan.
Had to wait for some time, decided to draw.
It was good doing it again.
Employer stopped paying me. Had tp get a lawyer. Had to look for a new job.
Had to do some introspection. The hardest part.
Got something lined up now. Feeling better. Hopefully everything goes to plan.
Had to wait for some time, decided to draw.
It was good doing it again.
This took almost two weeks to finish.
It should've been only an hour or two.
At most!
On another note, I finished a book yesterday where the end that I predicted didn't come to be. Not only that, but it was something completely unexpected/unpredictable.
I was pleased.
It should've been only an hour or two.
At most!
On another note, I finished a book yesterday where the end that I predicted didn't come to be. Not only that, but it was something completely unexpected/unpredictable.
I was pleased.
June 21, 2024 at 5:40 PM
This took almost two weeks to finish.
It should've been only an hour or two.
At most!
On another note, I finished a book yesterday where the end that I predicted didn't come to be. Not only that, but it was something completely unexpected/unpredictable.
I was pleased.
It should've been only an hour or two.
At most!
On another note, I finished a book yesterday where the end that I predicted didn't come to be. Not only that, but it was something completely unexpected/unpredictable.
I was pleased.
Are things supposed to get boring?
Programming, painting, drawing, gaming, writing, etc. I do it for some time, then it gets INCREDIBLY BORING. Then, back to normal after some time.
Maybe I haven't found my "thing" yet. At least I hope so.
I'm tired of this.
(Credits to @TheMartoon on Twitter)
Programming, painting, drawing, gaming, writing, etc. I do it for some time, then it gets INCREDIBLY BORING. Then, back to normal after some time.
Maybe I haven't found my "thing" yet. At least I hope so.
I'm tired of this.
(Credits to @TheMartoon on Twitter)
June 20, 2024 at 2:01 PM
Are things supposed to get boring?
Programming, painting, drawing, gaming, writing, etc. I do it for some time, then it gets INCREDIBLY BORING. Then, back to normal after some time.
Maybe I haven't found my "thing" yet. At least I hope so.
I'm tired of this.
(Credits to @TheMartoon on Twitter)
Programming, painting, drawing, gaming, writing, etc. I do it for some time, then it gets INCREDIBLY BORING. Then, back to normal after some time.
Maybe I haven't found my "thing" yet. At least I hope so.
I'm tired of this.
(Credits to @TheMartoon on Twitter)
Trying really hard to find the wiil draw, but it appears that executive dysfunction has me by the balls (and not in the good way).
My body won't move.
I want to draw, but I simply can't do it.
It sucks.
Might be because I'm currently in waiting mode for the DRG update tomorrow.
Well, anyway...
My body won't move.
I want to draw, but I simply can't do it.
It sucks.
Might be because I'm currently in waiting mode for the DRG update tomorrow.
Well, anyway...
June 12, 2024 at 6:22 PM
Trying really hard to find the wiil draw, but it appears that executive dysfunction has me by the balls (and not in the good way).
My body won't move.
I want to draw, but I simply can't do it.
It sucks.
Might be because I'm currently in waiting mode for the DRG update tomorrow.
Well, anyway...
My body won't move.
I want to draw, but I simply can't do it.
It sucks.
Might be because I'm currently in waiting mode for the DRG update tomorrow.
Well, anyway...
Every time. Every time I use these straight lines, they end up way more darker (and "weirder"?) than they should.
They are not my favorite too. I still want to learn it, but I'm not super inclined to try them again.
The trunk came out nice tho. So there's that.
They are not my favorite too. I still want to learn it, but I'm not super inclined to try them again.
The trunk came out nice tho. So there's that.
June 11, 2024 at 1:49 PM
Every time. Every time I use these straight lines, they end up way more darker (and "weirder"?) than they should.
They are not my favorite too. I still want to learn it, but I'm not super inclined to try them again.
The trunk came out nice tho. So there's that.
They are not my favorite too. I still want to learn it, but I'm not super inclined to try them again.
The trunk came out nice tho. So there's that.
I've finished the book. It was good.
I officially recommend The Magic of Recluce. Whatever that means.
Drawings are... different. Now that I'm trying to go more by feeling, rather than using what others said is right, they have changed.
Not for worse or bad. But... changed.
Will experiment more.
I officially recommend The Magic of Recluce. Whatever that means.
Drawings are... different. Now that I'm trying to go more by feeling, rather than using what others said is right, they have changed.
Not for worse or bad. But... changed.
Will experiment more.
June 7, 2024 at 8:11 PM
I've finished the book. It was good.
I officially recommend The Magic of Recluce. Whatever that means.
Drawings are... different. Now that I'm trying to go more by feeling, rather than using what others said is right, they have changed.
Not for worse or bad. But... changed.
Will experiment more.
I officially recommend The Magic of Recluce. Whatever that means.
Drawings are... different. Now that I'm trying to go more by feeling, rather than using what others said is right, they have changed.
Not for worse or bad. But... changed.
Will experiment more.
Seriously, high pattern recognition is the worst, at least for books.
Everyone but one single person has a reason to kill the protagonist.
It is clear as day to me. The one guy that is his friend is the one trying to kill him.
I hate this.
Everyone but one single person has a reason to kill the protagonist.
It is clear as day to me. The one guy that is his friend is the one trying to kill him.
I hate this.
June 6, 2024 at 3:47 PM
Seriously, high pattern recognition is the worst, at least for books.
Everyone but one single person has a reason to kill the protagonist.
It is clear as day to me. The one guy that is his friend is the one trying to kill him.
I hate this.
Everyone but one single person has a reason to kill the protagonist.
It is clear as day to me. The one guy that is his friend is the one trying to kill him.
I hate this.
Reading "The Magic Of Recluce" now, and oof, it feels like I'm reading Fitz Chivalry all over again.
He wants to know the answers.
They give him a book with answers.
He doesn't read it.
*gets mad for not having answers.*
busy at work, not much time to draw. Here is something from 3-4 weeks ago.
He wants to know the answers.
They give him a book with answers.
He doesn't read it.
*gets mad for not having answers.*
busy at work, not much time to draw. Here is something from 3-4 weeks ago.
June 6, 2024 at 11:49 AM
Reading "The Magic Of Recluce" now, and oof, it feels like I'm reading Fitz Chivalry all over again.
He wants to know the answers.
They give him a book with answers.
He doesn't read it.
*gets mad for not having answers.*
busy at work, not much time to draw. Here is something from 3-4 weeks ago.
He wants to know the answers.
They give him a book with answers.
He doesn't read it.
*gets mad for not having answers.*
busy at work, not much time to draw. Here is something from 3-4 weeks ago.
Trying to use a bit more of... Me.
I'm using too much what I've seen in videos and tutorials. Although it does help, and it does serve a purpose, at some point, you have to see how far you can reach on your own.
This might not be my *masterpiece*, but it is Me. And that is good enough for now.
I'm using too much what I've seen in videos and tutorials. Although it does help, and it does serve a purpose, at some point, you have to see how far you can reach on your own.
This might not be my *masterpiece*, but it is Me. And that is good enough for now.
June 5, 2024 at 11:36 AM
Trying to use a bit more of... Me.
I'm using too much what I've seen in videos and tutorials. Although it does help, and it does serve a purpose, at some point, you have to see how far you can reach on your own.
This might not be my *masterpiece*, but it is Me. And that is good enough for now.
I'm using too much what I've seen in videos and tutorials. Although it does help, and it does serve a purpose, at some point, you have to see how far you can reach on your own.
This might not be my *masterpiece*, but it is Me. And that is good enough for now.
Oh, the things that ADHD focus is able to do.
I just finished reading 180 chapters in barely a week. Only because I was really interested in it.
If only I could control even just a tiny sliver of that attention/willpower. I would be unstoppable.
Anyhow, another drawing. I'm learning as I "fail."
I just finished reading 180 chapters in barely a week. Only because I was really interested in it.
If only I could control even just a tiny sliver of that attention/willpower. I would be unstoppable.
Anyhow, another drawing. I'm learning as I "fail."
May 29, 2024 at 6:33 PM
Oh, the things that ADHD focus is able to do.
I just finished reading 180 chapters in barely a week. Only because I was really interested in it.
If only I could control even just a tiny sliver of that attention/willpower. I would be unstoppable.
Anyhow, another drawing. I'm learning as I "fail."
I just finished reading 180 chapters in barely a week. Only because I was really interested in it.
If only I could control even just a tiny sliver of that attention/willpower. I would be unstoppable.
Anyhow, another drawing. I'm learning as I "fail."
Have you ever seen a bad painting from DaVinci? Picasso? Michelangelo?
The works that get displayed are always the great ones, never the lesser, never the "failures."
It gives the impression that they only made masterpieces.
That is why I post even the worst looking ones.
I'm not there, for now.
The works that get displayed are always the great ones, never the lesser, never the "failures."
It gives the impression that they only made masterpieces.
That is why I post even the worst looking ones.
I'm not there, for now.
May 22, 2024 at 8:17 PM
Have you ever seen a bad painting from DaVinci? Picasso? Michelangelo?
The works that get displayed are always the great ones, never the lesser, never the "failures."
It gives the impression that they only made masterpieces.
That is why I post even the worst looking ones.
I'm not there, for now.
The works that get displayed are always the great ones, never the lesser, never the "failures."
It gives the impression that they only made masterpieces.
That is why I post even the worst looking ones.
I'm not there, for now.
Been sick for an entire week. Just now getting better. It made me so disheartened, couldn't gather enough strength to do anything.
Also, my new fineliners arrived. Now I can go down to 0.05 pen tip. Not that it changes much, but it does make it easier to do detail.
Also, my new fineliners arrived. Now I can go down to 0.05 pen tip. Not that it changes much, but it does make it easier to do detail.
May 20, 2024 at 5:45 PM
Been sick for an entire week. Just now getting better. It made me so disheartened, couldn't gather enough strength to do anything.
Also, my new fineliners arrived. Now I can go down to 0.05 pen tip. Not that it changes much, but it does make it easier to do detail.
Also, my new fineliners arrived. Now I can go down to 0.05 pen tip. Not that it changes much, but it does make it easier to do detail.
I've been in a mental block these past 2-3. It always happens when I lose the interest that was keeping me anchored to this existence. Now that I have finished the book I was reading, until I find something else to listen to, I'm just here existing without will.
AuDHD truly is a bitch.
AuDHD truly is a bitch.
May 14, 2024 at 7:27 PM
I've been in a mental block these past 2-3. It always happens when I lose the interest that was keeping me anchored to this existence. Now that I have finished the book I was reading, until I find something else to listen to, I'm just here existing without will.
AuDHD truly is a bitch.
AuDHD truly is a bitch.
Realizing, now that I am a mere 1/3 away from finishing the 5th book in The Infinite Realm series, that there will be a 6th book. =|
Now I'm torn between "Yes! More books" and "Shit, I will have to wait for it."
On another note, these types of tree shapes are much harder to do.
Now I'm torn between "Yes! More books" and "Shit, I will have to wait for it."
On another note, these types of tree shapes are much harder to do.
May 8, 2024 at 11:14 AM
Realizing, now that I am a mere 1/3 away from finishing the 5th book in The Infinite Realm series, that there will be a 6th book. =|
Now I'm torn between "Yes! More books" and "Shit, I will have to wait for it."
On another note, these types of tree shapes are much harder to do.
Now I'm torn between "Yes! More books" and "Shit, I will have to wait for it."
On another note, these types of tree shapes are much harder to do.
Just finished the third book in the Infinite Realm Saga, and, oh man, the difference between good and bad writing is astonishing.
Through the whole 3rd act, I was completely entranced while listening to it.
There are still two books left, but even so, I 10/10 would recommend it.
Through the whole 3rd act, I was completely entranced while listening to it.
There are still two books left, but even so, I 10/10 would recommend it.
May 2, 2024 at 8:48 PM
Just finished the third book in the Infinite Realm Saga, and, oh man, the difference between good and bad writing is astonishing.
Through the whole 3rd act, I was completely entranced while listening to it.
There are still two books left, but even so, I 10/10 would recommend it.
Through the whole 3rd act, I was completely entranced while listening to it.
There are still two books left, but even so, I 10/10 would recommend it.