But I, I am only to be used then thrown away. I do not deserve compassion anymore. I do not deserve support because all I do is suicide bait all day so I?

All I ever do is suicide bait right? All I do is be depressed with no merit right? I was never hurt before. I was the hurter right? Do you think I don’t miss you everyday? Do you think I miss when everyone on here didn’t hate me? How do you think it feels to be left alone abandoned every time?

I truly wish i could say I am tried of this suffering and I’m going to kill myself but there are no words anymore

It reminds me how truly no matter what people say I am truly alone in this life

I wrote notes and no one checking back on them no one seemed to care or react to it at all

It was my first full on attempt since January

@sammystylez.bsky.social
I loved and cherished every second with you, i truly did. I don't know what happened or why you didn't feel the same way, but well, i guess that what life is, people floating in and out, looking for happiness, and leaving when they dont find it, ill miss you sammy :)

@spoookypumpkin.bsky.social
You we're nice, truly nice i don't think I've ever seen you hurt a soul, i wish i could of been like that, i regret rejecting your silly little hug emojis, i see you truly meant them and you only wanted me to be happy & safe, im sorry i failed on both of those degrees.

@ralsei6659.bsky.social
You we're truly amazing, for the time we're together i love'd you so so so much, and admittingly still do to a degree, I'll miss you, truly i will. somenights i wished that it would of worked out and we we're together, time has pas though and people move on i supose

none of you people can accept id rather be gone from this world then have to go through this same painful loop over and over again

because i love them

i wasnt really talking about in spefic them but atleast if they stabbed me they would still be with me

nothing is worse then this

“Is it so wrong to be selfish for a change”

seemingly a lot of people decided to just leave me especially the ones who “cared”
so I don’t think most will grieve and the ones who will I guess should of cared more

I don’t think you understand how much it is worth it for my own sake

why did it all happen then if I’m wantable