[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] I am so proud to be able to know it says "Sayuri" in Hiragana there lmao.

Don't ask me wtf that means I still don't know many words and meanings, but.

:D

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Wait, you got ghosted for something that small-?

TBF there's plenty of times I don't feel like subbing so I get it, but I have pushed past it and let others Dom even tho I felt dominant myself and wasn't in the mood for it-

(I'm a big pushover when it comes to that-)

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] You can expect me to always be direct and blunt when I'm not comfortable, and I will usually give like- two or three warnings before I block or ghost.

If I ever take long to reply it's not that I'm ghosting anyone, I probably just genuinely forgot, with how many accounts I got.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] You truly are one of the greatest friends I could ask for..

Thanks.

And I'll be sure to rely and lean on you if I need to. Be sure to do the same if you ever need someone to talk to or just to be there to listen to your venting and such.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Oh yeah. I can do that.

If you know what I meant by the your lie in april part..

I think I might make a new muse like that, cause honestly, I really enjoy writing them.

Might make it a full on secret that is only revealed during RP though.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Remove the cheating and I'm in-

Lmao.

Cheating is just not my cup of tea, but the other stuff..

Yes.

Also angst. I want angst.

To have a muse walk into a room with the other one doing sh or something like that, or just the classic your lie in april kinda angst.

:)

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Yeah. From when I posted this, basically with the thought in mind that I wouldn't get past December..

Now I'm already looking up, thanks to all of you guys..

I know my mood is like a feather and the slightest gust of wind could make it flip entirely, but I want to believe..

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Been a while since I measured myself but I think I'm around 5'9" or so.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] ... I'll try.

That's as much as I can promise, okay..?

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Yeah.. tbh rn I don't have such a big want to end things. It's mostly because I fear how family meetings will go now that I'm starting to open up about being trans and coming out.

I think I'll just be bullied by all sides, except my parents, they only act aggressive about grades.

+ my own family.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] ... Okay nvm you scared the hell out of me, I want my afterlife to be pleasant, I won't do it--

Tbh I say that now but after the 25-26th of this month that might change again-

I feel like my more feminine makeover this year is going to get my bullied from basically all sides of +

+because no one will like the shit I make.

A simpler, more stable job..

That could work..

This was actually a helpful conversation.. even if I still doubt I'll make it past new year's, I think.. I know what to do if I ever do.

+doing the stuff I truly enjoy as a hobby, instead of trying to get a more important and advanced job..

Not everyone is destined for greatness. Most people, in fact, I actually feel like it'll be best to do this and at least do something helpful than become an app developer and fall into oblivion+

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Tbf I'm starting to question even that. I do like it.. but studying it is stressful.

I feel like.. I might stop next year instead of finishing, if I end up making it through this Christmas -which would be a miracle on its own- and get a simple job to live, and spend my time+

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] Maybe one day I would've gotten to know what that's like.

Maybe in a different life.

All my irl "friends" basically either don't know I'm trans, or know but ignore it and treat me the same as usual.

And my mom- well, you know how she is kinda from what I've said of her.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] That's still pretty amazing, honestly, wish I had friends like that.

[ ✍︎ writing.fox ] I'm glad you're enjoying them, I'm really enjoying RP too, these days

But I guess I've put studies too aside, and now my parents are insulting me and yelling at me almost everyday, every couple hours the moment anything related to studies is mentioned-

And a lot of other stuff-

"Ah.. I don't know.. reading and drawing..? And coding! Oh, and also playing a lot of videogames, mostly rpgs.."

She seems to have become a bit less shy- no, not shy at ALL now- just rambling on and on about her hobbies-