Against all odds, i remain sick.

I think i am finally unsickening...

Good morning. Today, my normal bad flu turned into a normal bad flu mixed with a bad stomach flu. Everything is suffering. I hope that if you're reading this that you are having a better time than i am.

Okay I think i don't want to be sick anymore please. Can we do something else

If you see this, post a ghost

If i was pretty god would never have let this happen to me

Fever between 100 and 102 fluctuating. Deliriously talking to myself a lot can't stop. Crying. Repulsed by food and drink. Last time I was this sick my dog helped me Through it. She's gone now. Im alone. I miss you abby. You were the best girl in the world

It is either the flu or covid. I havent felt this horrible in years. Can't eat or drink. Had pounding. Coughing coz lasting over an hour. Went to an urgent care for tests and dayquil. Not helping so far. Ill what it is tomorrow if i last that long. I keep crying which just makes my head hurt more

Think I have covid

Sunday

I need to find a creative outlet. I need to get good at some form of art. Or at least not so bad im ashamed to share.

Some days are easier than others. Most days are hard. Most days, i dont understand how or why I'm even surviving. But then the okay days remind me, even if it's just a little bit, life can be okay.

I need to figure out how to create more of the okay days. I might really be happy some day.

It will be 2025 in about an hour and 15 minutes. I'm going to try very hard to be asleep during it. I hate new years. It's raining so I don't think fireworks will wake me. Goodnight 2024.