ngl this a much bigger gap in cultural clash because he's not jewish... like I've dated secular/datlishim before but they've been Jewish and that makes it so even tho they're not as interested/ invested as me, they're still in it, if that makes senses?

him "these datim that say 'Jews are Indigenous to Judea [so annex and occupy the West Bank] need to put their money where there mouth, is since all Jews are only descent from the Tribe of Judah, they should only live in Judea, Haifa was Tribe of Asher's land, soo what are they doing here than, huh?"

I think that's the reform synagogue

and sent my bank statements and letter for the unemployment back dated from February, writing a resume and cover letter to be an English teacher here in Haifa, filed my Canadian taxes all in the last 4 hours, and I sent my resume to work at masorti shul in Haifa last week

I say this while having moved last week to my first studio apartment with my cat to the neighbourhood I've been wanting to live in since I moved to Haifa in October, my first time living alone and first renting my own a legal apartment in Israel after 3 years here

something I'm trying to hold on to these days "life is long", I'm sad today, I'll probably be sad tomorrow, my life doesn't look like I want it to, I'm not living in congruency of my hashkafa, but life is long, one day soon, slowly but surely I will build a life for myself I want

do want to enter back into the world, I really appreciated it when I was living in Jerusalem this summer/fall, when I entered the shabbat world even if I'd go on my phone as soon as I got home from shabbat dinner or services, I love the world of Torah