Wait, Thats so true.

Is, My blue sky bugged or,. Is there is nothing 😭

I don't know...

Thats all i wanted to say.

Its not like its a recent thing, i have this on my mind constantly, how i don't fit in, how i try my best to appeal to people, how i wanna be who i really wanna be.
But there are somethings i will never achieve, no matter how much people will say to: "don't give up on your dreams".

And in social ways its bad too.
I simply don't have things going on to tell about, most of the time i spend in my bed, being on the internet, IRL i have no friends because, im too boring for them. i been on online and homeschooling i didn't have opportunities to socialise, to make friends.

It affects everything.
I can't walk, i can't get up from my bed.
I can't brush my teeth by my own.
I can't take showers.
I have hard time drinking.
Every day i feel sore and sick.
It gives me dysphoria because my parents simply refuse to help with it, and because it makes me feel worthless.

Sometimes i have to bite, either because i feel sick all the time, or someone has hurt people who i care about.
And ableism, i have experienced it so much. i am disabled in a severe case of muscle dystrophy, and a lot of the time i have to stay quiet about it, because most cases i am dismissed.

Now, i believe that positivity is good and that it should be encouraged, i have to keep pretending that everything is good, that im alright or people gonna say that i should complain less, sometimes im going through so much things that i can't keep being kind and positive-

That's gotta be annoying. Im never complaining about not getting dms again.

Thats a lot of minors.