Actually so right. I was gutted choosing between her and Sonar

Also Live at: www.youtube.com/live/m72HsA6...

ALSO LIVE AT:

www.youtube.com/live/RFw2QJd...

the effects of Avril Lavigne on modern pop culture are highly underrated, it should be studied

HEY (HEY)
YOU (YOU)

Or, yknow

Leah fits in easily with her cottage core aesthetic and so it just made sense

The way I thought it was a kitchen

A ZETA BROOOO AAAAAAA

or well, thats also a performance. But a different kind.

I want to be able to pursue myself. that version of myself that ideal of myself. and I don't feel like I'm given the time or space to do so.

I had no obligation to anyone else other than myself. I was alone and had full freedom to do what I wanted when I wanted wherever I wanted and I had to do an assignment the entire time. But that feeling of freedom was addictive.

I feel like I'm always performing except when I'm onstream.

I think back to that hotel room in New Zealand, cuz it legit was the first time I was *truly* alone. I wasn't travelling with anyone. I didn't know anyone other than Rumi and her group of friends who I only met on the last day. For two days up until that point I was just alone to my devices.

Streaming unlocked a piece of myself that legitimately made me realise who I am and what I want and who I want to be, and I feel constrained in how much I get to fucking show that cuz I have NO space to actually do it. I feel so fucking suffocated being here where I can't just BE myself.