Among the reasons I add "reddit" onto my searches now: reddit's more fucking reliable

I'm sorry, little me. You didn't deserve the way I treated you ❤️

And I'm not totally happy with where my body is now, over 7 years after this "journey" began, but...I can give myself grace now.

When I look at the girl in the mirror, I don't hate her.

I can see myself in her. X

I've noticed, in the last few months, my body's been changing again and that it's been changing for a while. I was put on a different medication when it started happening and my sessions with my therapist ever so gently changed course as well. 5/6

I became numb to it. I didn't look in the mirror too long. I avoided scales like the plague. I dressed in ways that hid me.

My body, after a while, had "settled" and stopped changing, but it still didn't feel like mine.

My soul was wearing the wrong clothes. 4/?

This was nearly 7 years ago now. PPD hit me like a truck which only made things worse.

I was cruel to myself.
I gave so much grace and support to others but tore myself down at every turn. I felt trapped in a body I wasn't supposed to exist in and felt like there was no way out.

Eventually 3/?

up at night. Then I got pregnant. A planned and wanted pregnancy. I thought I had fully accepted that my body would change forever. I lied to myself that I'd be okay with whatever happened, that it wouldn't be too drastic.

I was wrong.

My post-partum body, while still beautiful, wasn't mine. 2/?

I've updated the app and my phone. I think at this point it's just bsky going to shit since the CEO change and moderation change :/

What were their names 🥺

for @/nixywulf

What were you taking? Good Rx might be able to help you (we recently had to change insurance types so I empsthize with the cost of meds u.u)