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shadowislewd.bsky.social
@shadowislewd.bsky.social
Life's falling apart. Boyfriend broke up with me and all my masking techniques are gone.

Please standby
Some days are better than others. Idk what I'm doing. I think I'm doing the right thing but I'm so stressed. I'm scared. I'm trying to be a good dragon...
November 18, 2025 at 2:14 AM
I wish I could smell the roses but it's time to get back to work. I'll be back soon.
November 9, 2025 at 8:04 PM
More screaming into the void. I'm not really getting better but I'm trying. The panic attacks and paranoia is getting worse. It's affecting my work too. I want it to end man. Why fucking me... I'm so tired..
October 29, 2025 at 1:12 AM
I've lost 23 pounds in a month.
October 19, 2025 at 1:05 PM
Love isn't easy. That's why I wanted to try stuff. You mean a lot to me. I'm finding out how much you meant to me... I'm around so many people and yet I feel alone.

Come back fox... I need you.

I want a forever fox. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss you... So much.. goodbye y'all.
October 19, 2025 at 1:02 PM
All I'm gonna do is stress you out further... Fox I wanna make it work. I'm just so scared you don't... And you don't want me to hurt me more. I want closure but idk if it's what I want.

I'm so broken and idk if I can do this shit without you. You became so much to me and now it's gone. Love hurts
October 19, 2025 at 12:58 PM
My entire life feels like it's collapsing in. I loved someone too much... He became a big part of me. I just didn't say I loved you enough. I wish I had. Fox there's nothing more in this world than what I wanna do for you. I want you back so fucking badly but I feel like you're gone.
October 19, 2025 at 12:56 PM
You left me for reasons... I don't know all of the reasons but the ones I do know I'm trying so hard to change. I know you're working on a list. But what if it's not enough? Idk man. I want to build something with you again. I truly do. Even with all this pain this has caused. My feeling's are there
October 19, 2025 at 12:54 PM
You want space I know.. I'm trying. This is the hardest thing I've ever fucking done. I think about you constantly. At heb when the sample people were out I turned to tell you.. You weren't there. I have so many things I want to tell you but I can't. I need to be strong. I'm so tired fox. I'm scared
October 19, 2025 at 12:51 PM
I fight so hard and it's not gonna be enough I think. You are gone and I'm gonna be stuck loving someone who can't love me.. I'm scared. I wish I had started therapy sooner. Maybe I wouldn't have blown shit up. I'm a stupid dragon who doesn't know what to do. I just want you here with me so badly.
October 19, 2025 at 12:49 PM
It's killing me fox..idk what to do because I fucked it all up. You started to warm up to the idea of me changing and fixing things.... And then I broke down at afci. I should have been strong but all my masking hasn't been working. I'm so fucking scared.
October 19, 2025 at 12:47 PM
I wake up with panic attacks and racing thoughts. I just wish we could spend time together again like we use to. Your laugh and smile made me so fucking happy. I was happy for awhile. I found a forever fox... But I wasn't a forever dragon for you. My thoughts are just constantly about you...
October 19, 2025 at 12:45 PM
I can scream here cause one super close person uses this app. I'm constantly thinking about what I could have done. I want him back so fucking badly but I feel like I blew it at acfi. I got emotional and broke down. It hurt him. I just want my fox back so fucking badly I feel like I lost you forever
October 19, 2025 at 12:42 PM
The wall grows
October 14, 2025 at 10:08 PM
I'm losing my grip on reality. If I disappear I'm sorry. This roller coaster of life is killing me. I can't keep it together for much longer. I miss him so much. I'm tired of fighting so hard for what?
October 3, 2025 at 5:43 PM
Thinking about you ;3
June 16, 2025 at 12:00 AM
Anyone wanna help me clean up?
June 15, 2025 at 11:54 PM
I need some hole to pound
May 17, 2025 at 1:05 PM
Who's gonna be at tff?
April 8, 2025 at 11:48 AM
I'm tired boss lol
February 28, 2025 at 2:16 AM
Sorry I've been MIA again... Trying to make things better for myself. That just involves spending my entire waking day working.

I can rest soon I hope but fuckkkkk I'm tired. I started a business and am working 55 hours a week at my day job.

My horny has been off and on because of stress. BRB ;3
February 28, 2025 at 2:11 AM
Sorry I quit using Twitter. I try not to support the products of a fascist.
February 13, 2025 at 12:58 AM
What y'all wanna see from me?
January 14, 2025 at 12:18 PM
I've been MIA again. Little life update, working 50 plus hours a week at my day job and boot strapping a company.
December 21, 2024 at 3:31 PM
Just paid all my bills, time to spend money like a reckless dragon I am.
November 29, 2024 at 4:58 PM