i need 2 chill the fuck out. i need 2 stop grinding my teeth. i need 2 watch anime. i need 2 doodle in my stupid lil faggot sketchbook. i need 2 play games. i need 2 listen 2 music. i need 2 jerk off. i need 2 throw my phone in the ocean.

i just want more experiences that make me feel that way again lol experiences that feel undeniable. experiences that don’t make me feel liek i hav 2 fucking fake something out of obligation, which has happened a lot 2 me as an adult & it pisses me off.

idk i had a specific experience earlier this year that made me feel that way again 4 a brief moment again tho! i was rly close 2 jacking off in a public restroom it was so fucking intense. ended up getting my dick sucked in a car in the parking lot instead of xp

but ya idk there’s still a large part of me that misses the kind of horniness u get on t that makes u genuinely nauseous & it makes ur body feel like its on fire & u feel like ur going 2 fucking explode

lol idk def pain but also like rly rly fuvked up rp shit. shout out incest, shout out agere, shout out cnc, shout out general fear/intense dynamics lmao

the closest i can get these days 2 how it was 4 me as a teen is liek taking a fuck ton of pain. like specifically what i would quantify as an ‘unavoidable’ amount of pain & then reluctantly letting it wash over me & submitting fully 2 it

these days i generally feel v little by comparison & it sucks a lot :/// but also all of the other things i liek about being on e kinda just barely make up 4 the lack of feeling/sex drive. i thought i was rly strictly ace 4 a long time but i just don’t feel like that’s true at all

2-3 years on e i could still get rly wet at the very least. these days im p much dry as fuck & it sucks :/ i miss being a teen on t & feeling so desperately horny that my body felt charged up p much at all times. if someone so much as looked at me or brushed past me i would feel it in my stomach

fucking insane, so impressive. is this on e?????? i v genuinely would liek 2 know how u did this bc i wish i could still shoot crazy rope liek this after 6 years on e lmao XP

awwww so cute!!!! ^~^ ❤︎

i liek this A LOTTTTT ;~; luvluvluv ❤︎

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