first time I saw this poster I immediately thought it was the coolest poster ever, and was even more stoked to see you had made it :3

knower is phenomenal, and they had incredible musicians backing them up!!!!!!!! a truly delicious and wonderful treat with many friends in the audience :3

i want snow so bad,,,, 😭

seattle :D

although you can't go wrong with either, lots of lovely people in both places and we intermingle with the PNW as a whole (including vancouver). portland is cheaper tho :'3

it's hard for me to walk up to people and talk to them, but if I can give a show, there's at least an entry point of discussion. performing feels cathartic and vulnerable, and I'm given the right to do so in front of people. idk, it's just really special to me???

no matter what though, i'll always try!!!

still, the residual traumas haunt me. the part of me that feels bad wants to come out more often. i don't feel good about myself, and i am scared of people. everyone is going through it, i'm not special for feeling sad. the desire to give up looms over me like a suffocating cloud.

despite all of this, i'm grateful to have better understanding of my mind and how i can comfort myself. i've learned to accept my being for what it is, and believe the nice things people say about me. i've been able to talk myself out of spending too much time in bed. i love life on my best days.

i've always had a big disconnect with my physical form, i never really liked how i look or sound. when i get attention for my physical appearance, i feel afterimages of shame and disgust in me. i feel like an asshole?? i don't want my opinion of myself to get in the way of believing what people say.

lately, i've been feeling sadder about my mom's passing and having recurring bad dreams about it. i have dreams where i'm trying to tell her not to die, and when i wake myself up from crying, i feel numb. on top of the whole political climate against trans people, bleh... feels bad... it all does.

IF YOU FIND A FIX LMK!!! I think some Windows update might have borked it??? when I played it on windows 10 it was fine... sh4 FMVs got borked after a recent update in August for windows 11......

this one!!!! i think I only stopped cus my PC doesn't like the FMVs and just shows a black screen which is sad (not related to the mod)......

youtu.be/Savmy2M1EJs?...

DO IT!!!!!!! I recently replayed 1 and started replaying 3 with a camera mod, and i'm also replaying the 2 remake rn >:D