it's fine. I'll just fold up again. I don't know why I came out in the first place. I dunno. I thought the internet would be a place to communicate, and that people would understand if you're weird.
Turns out, it's all the same.
Back into my hovel I go. where I shall rest my sweetie.

sorry, I've lost faith in humanity or whatever.

it's better to have no friends, than to have people you imagine are your friends but who don't actually care about you and enjoy watching you crash and burn.

happy holidays!

maybe it's the physical touch factor. her Med Assistant took my blood pressure, and then she came in, and asked me questions and listened to me, and then she touched my back with her stethoscope. It was nice, feeling a human touch, connection.

(yes, it is that bad. How did I get to this point)

I feel hopeful. not about the world, but about my fate and my ability to live in the world. I haven't even filled the Zoloft Rx yet, but already I feel more hopeful. Is this the Placebo Effect, or did I just enjoy talking today for 50 min with a lovely person? Time will tell.... hahhahhhaaaa

I strive to be confrontable, and not take everything so personally.

2/2

The appointment ended with her asking me, so what else should I know? what other ques do you have? nothing, and none.

She wants to see me for a followup in 5 weeks. I said, okey-dokey! She's like, No I mean it. and made me schedule the follow-up appt right then and there.

NP's, man! 💗🙏

thank you for this. as you said, it's never too late to start.

In advance of winter holidays, I found this essay very thoughtful, compassionate, and well-sourced. And one that I'll share with family who are beginning to question why I "still" mask.

misfitmentalhealth.substack.com/p/why-are-pe...

what Kroger is to Harris Teeter.

what diluted-vinegar is to Windex

what Oakland is to Berkeley

^ Sorry if I've offended anyone living in Phoenix. Sorry. dude, but it's not my fault you live there.

what rayon is to polyester

what jalopenoes are to serranos

what Tucson is to Phoenix

what
lemonade is to Crystal Light

what Saturday is to Thursday, what rivers are to lakes, what roasted is to boiled, what Tide is to All, what key lime is to lemon meringue, what brick is to cement, what collie is to terrier, what kiwi is ti pineapple, what 7 pm is to 2 pm, what Bose is to Sonos, what you are to other people.

is to Jordache, what Coke is to Pepsi, what Georgia is to Alabama, what Macy's is to JC Penny, what cobblestones are to gravel, what Little Caesars is to Dominoes, what the Smokies are to the Rockies, what purple is to maroon, what Maron is to Burr, what basketball is to badminton.

here we go. Teach the children well.

If you're an old person who's lucky enough to have little kids in your life. be a cool person and teach a kid something. like how to put up a pup-tent or play drums or or make food or change vehicle's oil.

happy thanksgiving, man.
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