bad news is that there still is a small possibility it still can be, its really unlikely tho..

the real bad this is that we know there is *something* with me,,,

we just don't fucking know what

update, im not going to the hospital yet,,,

im getting psychiatrist visit in 6 days tho...

i guess that's good maybe

im....

so....

scared.....

also...

my mother im making a call to psychiatric hospital...

I'm goin there soon......

worst part is i couldn't even tell them...

we didn't talk most of yesterday, the only time we spoke under pressure i said some things i regret...

and today they broke up with me...