Ostracized, cannibalized. Cast out and excommunicated over the audacity to think about a subject, not simply act upon the will of others.

What the fuck did I do to deserve that?

Back to hating myself over something that doesn't feel like it should make me hate myself. Yaaaaaaay

Loneliness is rearing it's ugly head again, bout to be an even worse week than it's already been, yaaaay =y=

Loneliness, please go away. I had a good day today, why do you need to sour that?

I wanna stay in bed so bad, ugh

It's over, and yet I still feel empty

Valentine's day is shit, and I always hate dealing with it. All it serves to do is alienate single people and put stress on those in relationships with the stigma to do something grandois for thier SO.

Fuck this commercialized, segregational holiday 🖕

I feel hopeless

I really hate my big stupid mouth. All I do is talk and talk and talk, like holy shit, shut the fuck up

It's hard being the annoying one of the group. I never mean to be, I never want to be, I care so much about my friends that I'd never want to be a burden to their day. My eccentricities, my manner of speech, feel like curses, because when I find out I've been bothering others, I hate myself for it.

I always do the same thing to myself. I have fun, I enjoy the company, and then I push myself away as soon as I feel like they've had enough of me. Why do I need to do that? Why can't I enjoy the company? I want the company, really really bad.

I feel so, so lonely at times.