Ok real shit I might

Unintentionally

Become la freak

To you, the child I was, I would not abandon the man you have become.

And while I may scorn your ways and all your mistakes, I too know that I would have also gone back and fixed them all.

We are both shortsighted, I much less than you but alas that time machine we wished for never appeared.

I'll wander those back alley streets and wonder why I walk them.

Do I seek them out as I do your flaws? Your backstreets, your dimly lit pavements, your surface streets to nowhere?

Does it enrich how I feel for you, knowing I do feel despite everything?

It feels selfish.

I wish I could find it in myself to fall utterly head first for someone again.

If you read this Mori, I still love you but you don't need to reciprocate the feelings.

I'm keeping these for myself for better or worse.

I WILL BECOME THE LA CREATURA

AND THEN

I TRANSITION INTO A FUCKING FURRRYYYYYRRRAAAAAHHHHH