Gonna have a hate shower where I hate the shower and myself 😭 Latest selfie for whatever (yesterday)
November 28, 2025 at 12:14 PM
Gonna have a hate shower where I hate the shower and myself 😭 Latest selfie for whatever (yesterday)
Gonna have a hate shower
October 21, 2025 at 10:57 AM
Gonna have a hate shower
Being middle aged and me in the UK, buying ibuprofen on the regular as one can only buy a small amount (which I understand). Stretching before a social having what I call floor time
October 10, 2025 at 1:07 PM
Being middle aged and me in the UK, buying ibuprofen on the regular as one can only buy a small amount (which I understand). Stretching before a social having what I call floor time
Yesterday evening, view of the St Pancras Clocktower at dusk. Was physically comfortable temperature-wise to be out. Spent the afternoon lying down in the dark indoors waiting for when it was ok to move outdoors. Meds and fat make it hard for me to regulate my temperature
August 13, 2025 at 9:57 AM
Yesterday evening, view of the St Pancras Clocktower at dusk. Was physically comfortable temperature-wise to be out. Spent the afternoon lying down in the dark indoors waiting for when it was ok to move outdoors. Meds and fat make it hard for me to regulate my temperature
And again. Though maybe it's just 20 minutes. I'll move after doing the alt text...
July 15, 2025 at 1:57 PM
And again. Though maybe it's just 20 minutes. I'll move after doing the alt text...
Took some pics in Regent's Park yesterday
June 12, 2025 at 11:51 AM
Took some pics in Regent's Park yesterday
Euro, U-Bahnstation and now Café. I am learning German casually and just for the points really. #Duolingo won't accept my pronunciations of these words and it's so frustrating! I can get it to accept Euro if I say it in a really slow and exaggerated way.
April 21, 2025 at 10:50 AM
Euro, U-Bahnstation and now Café. I am learning German casually and just for the points really. #Duolingo won't accept my pronunciations of these words and it's so frustrating! I can get it to accept Euro if I say it in a really slow and exaggerated way.
Every time. Currently in despair mode pre shower. Often have deathy thoughts in the shower. When I say often, I mean usually! Will do counting backwards from 299, and a little bit of self-hate
April 17, 2025 at 10:10 AM
Every time. Currently in despair mode pre shower. Often have deathy thoughts in the shower. When I say often, I mean usually! Will do counting backwards from 299, and a little bit of self-hate
Contents of this account is at least 50% wangst
The push pull of wanting to be social but getting overwhelmed in busy environments. I'm not an introvert, I bask in attention... but not when there's a lot going on. Here's my dread pre #ingressFS
The push pull of wanting to be social but getting overwhelmed in busy environments. I'm not an introvert, I bask in attention... but not when there's a lot going on. Here's my dread pre #ingressFS
April 5, 2025 at 9:52 AM
Contents of this account is at least 50% wangst
The push pull of wanting to be social but getting overwhelmed in busy environments. I'm not an introvert, I bask in attention... but not when there's a lot going on. Here's my dread pre #ingressFS
The push pull of wanting to be social but getting overwhelmed in busy environments. I'm not an introvert, I bask in attention... but not when there's a lot going on. Here's my dread pre #ingressFS
Had an ok time in the beautiful Regent's Park and London Zoo today. Ok is pretty damn good! Wading through something less viscous than treacle
March 27, 2025 at 7:00 PM
Had an ok time in the beautiful Regent's Park and London Zoo today. Ok is pretty damn good! Wading through something less viscous than treacle
Shame, self-hate, regret
March 25, 2025 at 2:09 PM
Shame, self-hate, regret
Anxious me thinks sitting in the cold getting colder thinking about all the things I'm anxious about is preferable to spending money on a hot drink and warming up/calming down before I go to the supermarket. Writing this helps me see the unhelpful behaviour
March 17, 2025 at 3:06 PM
Anxious me thinks sitting in the cold getting colder thinking about all the things I'm anxious about is preferable to spending money on a hot drink and warming up/calming down before I go to the supermarket. Writing this helps me see the unhelpful behaviour
I ventured out to Hilly Fields after getting overloaded around Borough Market. I appreciated the hills! Also swapped kit with the lovely Charlie. Quite a few unique caps #ingress
March 15, 2025 at 5:46 PM
I ventured out to Hilly Fields after getting overloaded around Borough Market. I appreciated the hills! Also swapped kit with the lovely Charlie. Quite a few unique caps #ingress
Sometimes there is good stuff
March 14, 2025 at 10:05 AM
Sometimes there is good stuff
Preface: am safe & can risk assess myself w this stuff. Ideation not plan. Just so many suicidal thoughts. Getting dressed after a bath or shower makes me want to die, as do a lot of other "boring" tasks where my hands need to be in use (that is, I can't be distracting myself in multiple ways).
March 4, 2025 at 12:56 PM
Preface: am safe & can risk assess myself w this stuff. Ideation not plan. Just so many suicidal thoughts. Getting dressed after a bath or shower makes me want to die, as do a lot of other "boring" tasks where my hands need to be in use (that is, I can't be distracting myself in multiple ways).
Another day, another staring at my phone how do I do things argh
February 25, 2025 at 10:24 AM
Another day, another staring at my phone how do I do things argh
It got crowded at the airport, so I'm hiding under my hoodie. I may not be able to fit under the seats, but I can still hide yay! Also got myself a free sunflower lanyard. Also, when ND ppl say they're not weird... 👀
February 17, 2025 at 8:14 AM
It got crowded at the airport, so I'm hiding under my hoodie. I may not be able to fit under the seats, but I can still hide yay! Also got myself a free sunflower lanyard. Also, when ND ppl say they're not weird... 👀
New anxiety thread! Let's see how many skeets I'll do on it over the next few days. There are multiple potential points of failure in my near future. Been crying and slapping myself in the street, as you do
February 13, 2025 at 4:18 PM
New anxiety thread! Let's see how many skeets I'll do on it over the next few days. There are multiple potential points of failure in my near future. Been crying and slapping myself in the street, as you do
Another day, another numb bum
February 11, 2025 at 10:26 AM
Another day, another numb bum
Having a sit down in Butterfly Paradise in the hope that my glasses will clear!
February 6, 2025 at 3:44 PM
Having a sit down in Butterfly Paradise in the hope that my glasses will clear!