and he's right! he really HASN'T lost support,

Too many "friends" said they were mortified by how i was treated by him still line up to glaze his art, or commission him
or donate to his ko-fi
"it's just business" is all I hear

Okay, Bad business IS business. My stolen money is MY business.

He has to make shit up about how dizzymilki loved "being dommed' by me, that I was abusive (oh but he cried so he must be sincere), to dismiss us both as an evil cabal against him

as he ignores every mention of the real money he owes me

what a sweet bean, a real fucking cinnamon roll

Honestly I'm so completely sick of hearing "I hope more people know about this"

everyone knows about it
everyone in this community knows about it
they don't think it's a big deal, it's "not their problem"
they think I'm unhinged for caring

I can read the room, I just refuse to forgive them for it.

To realize things I said were being manipulated in favor of someone else, someone whom I trusted, is what makes me feel like I’m not fit for this anymore.

I’m tired of playing this game of trying to incorporate to this community, I just can’t anymore.

I realize the bad nature of people and the moment I call them out for their behavior, I get made out to be the bad guy. All the while they are making themselves out to be “the one that cared so much about me.”

Its pathetic. I hate it. It upsets me.

To realize things I said were being manipulated in favor of someone else, someone whom I trusted, is what makes me feel like I’m not fit for this anymore.

I’m tired of playing this game of trying to incorporate to this community, I just can’t anymore.

To be told that “Your friend was a lot more civil than you were”, despite having the same thoughts and opinions, bothers me. It makes me believe I was inferior in their eyes and that they wanted to control me by telling me “X would call you an idiot”
… Despite said person thinking otherwise.

In truth, part of me feels likeI just don’t want to be around or be involved with people anymore. Not as a result of a few bad people in the community, but it’s due to a realization that my own belief and way of thinking does not line up with other people.

Despite hearing people say “I understand”

Most of the times it feels like I have to throw my feelings and thoughts away simply to satisfy people around me. That the way others feel is a lot more important than how I feel.

That I should be ignorant to people’s thoughts, opinions, and behavior. I feel alienated by the belief of it.

THE FACT I RECOGNIZED THIS VOICE FROM KID VS KATZ IS ACTUALLY INSANE KJSDFHG

BIG DOGGY

I did show him what Geo did. I showed him the entire conversation, and the “last time” Nori gave him permission was for a drawing that Nori made for **HIM**. So he never got permission for the recent drawing lol.

He has also told me Geo had bad intentions due to how he dodged responsibility

Nori specifically left to get away from Paige and other people that were causing me issues, because he felt that he would constantly remind me of them, despite him having expressed how it upsets them to see Paige and others continue their shitty behavior