Nik
@nikthebrat.bsky.social
35, nonbinary, they/them
I am simply a dragon trapped in a human body for now. That's the reason my meatsuit keeps breaking down. lol
I am simply a dragon trapped in a human body for now. That's the reason my meatsuit keeps breaking down. lol
May 28, 2025 at 6:39 AM
Aww fuck. I'm feeling like painting again. I hate this bc it becomes obsessive. Trying to figure out what I need to create to purge my brain of the itch!!!! ><'
The music is catching me. Not yet so maybe I can out run it.
The music is catching me. Not yet so maybe I can out run it.
May 27, 2025 at 7:18 AM
Aww fuck. I'm feeling like painting again. I hate this bc it becomes obsessive. Trying to figure out what I need to create to purge my brain of the itch!!!! ><'
The music is catching me. Not yet so maybe I can out run it.
The music is catching me. Not yet so maybe I can out run it.
This account has just basically become me screaming into the void on occasion. Lol
May 13, 2025 at 8:21 PM
This account has just basically become me screaming into the void on occasion. Lol
May 11, 2025 at 5:44 AM
May 9, 2025 at 6:07 AM
....my spine is that of a 60-70 year old that has done hard labor their whole life. 😳
I'm 35.
But yet, with all of my other chronic illnesses and whatnot, I am not eligible for disability. They don't want to even pay for my anti-inflammatory meds.
Apparently it'd be easier to get pain meds. Nope.
I'm 35.
But yet, with all of my other chronic illnesses and whatnot, I am not eligible for disability. They don't want to even pay for my anti-inflammatory meds.
Apparently it'd be easier to get pain meds. Nope.
May 8, 2025 at 1:39 AM
....my spine is that of a 60-70 year old that has done hard labor their whole life. 😳
I'm 35.
But yet, with all of my other chronic illnesses and whatnot, I am not eligible for disability. They don't want to even pay for my anti-inflammatory meds.
Apparently it'd be easier to get pain meds. Nope.
I'm 35.
But yet, with all of my other chronic illnesses and whatnot, I am not eligible for disability. They don't want to even pay for my anti-inflammatory meds.
Apparently it'd be easier to get pain meds. Nope.
Depresso espresso.
I'm deep in the dark brew lol
I'm deep in the dark brew lol
April 23, 2025 at 11:21 PM
Depresso espresso.
I'm deep in the dark brew lol
I'm deep in the dark brew lol
I'm fighting a battle I can't win. A defeat I can only put off a little longer.
Pain
My truest constant companion that once was simply a passing aquantince.
Now, at all times, they are there, ever present, chipping fragments of my will from my damaged bones as I watch it all, trapped in decay.
Pain
My truest constant companion that once was simply a passing aquantince.
Now, at all times, they are there, ever present, chipping fragments of my will from my damaged bones as I watch it all, trapped in decay.
April 21, 2025 at 2:34 PM
I'm fighting a battle I can't win. A defeat I can only put off a little longer.
Pain
My truest constant companion that once was simply a passing aquantince.
Now, at all times, they are there, ever present, chipping fragments of my will from my damaged bones as I watch it all, trapped in decay.
Pain
My truest constant companion that once was simply a passing aquantince.
Now, at all times, they are there, ever present, chipping fragments of my will from my damaged bones as I watch it all, trapped in decay.
My cat gummy is gone. She decided to go outside and my mom let her out. A dog got her. I cant forget her pain.
April 7, 2025 at 2:09 AM
My cat gummy is gone. She decided to go outside and my mom let her out. A dog got her. I cant forget her pain.
I feel like I'm losing this fight.
March 15, 2025 at 12:01 AM
I feel like I'm losing this fight.
I hate having anxiety. It's sucks lol. I wanna sleep but I can't bc of a completely benign thing that my brain is spiraling out over that I shouldn't be worrying about at all. I hate the reality of not being able to stop the worries no matter how hard i try.
March 9, 2025 at 5:56 AM
I hate having anxiety. It's sucks lol. I wanna sleep but I can't bc of a completely benign thing that my brain is spiraling out over that I shouldn't be worrying about at all. I hate the reality of not being able to stop the worries no matter how hard i try.
I'm kinda broken I think today. Went to the doctor. It's not Lupus at least. But now I have to have another MRI scheduled. So that's going to be 3 in 6 months. Add to that the ortho people were withholding my info. I'm tired of doctors and appointments. I just feel like stopping all of it.
February 25, 2025 at 1:28 AM
I'm kinda broken I think today. Went to the doctor. It's not Lupus at least. But now I have to have another MRI scheduled. So that's going to be 3 in 6 months. Add to that the ortho people were withholding my info. I'm tired of doctors and appointments. I just feel like stopping all of it.
Fighting this bout of anxiety and paranoia as hard as I can. It's this sticky, lingering feeling in my mind that won't let go of me. I'm trying so hard to ignore it. But that isn't working, so now I'm writing it out in hopes that it'll help loosen it.
February 23, 2025 at 2:32 AM
Fighting this bout of anxiety and paranoia as hard as I can. It's this sticky, lingering feeling in my mind that won't let go of me. I'm trying so hard to ignore it. But that isn't working, so now I'm writing it out in hopes that it'll help loosen it.
Having *Anxiety* tonight. I hate feeling this way. The problem that got brought up in the work chat has NOTHING to do with me. Still, **ANXIOUS**
#Queer #anxiety #neurospicy
#Queer #anxiety #neurospicy
February 18, 2025 at 6:01 AM
Having *Anxiety* tonight. I hate feeling this way. The problem that got brought up in the work chat has NOTHING to do with me. Still, **ANXIOUS**
#Queer #anxiety #neurospicy
#Queer #anxiety #neurospicy
I understand that we shouldnt comply by choosing not to get help we need from doctors due to what is going on politically. I get it, I really do. But this is a near impossible ask for someone that doesn't have the spoons to ask & then having to deal with the fallout when they're barely holding on.
February 18, 2025 at 12:07 AM
I understand that we shouldnt comply by choosing not to get help we need from doctors due to what is going on politically. I get it, I really do. But this is a near impossible ask for someone that doesn't have the spoons to ask & then having to deal with the fallout when they're barely holding on.
Idk what to even talk about.
Ohhhh!!! THE NEW JURASSIC PARK! IT LOOKS SO COOL AND IT GIVES VIBES OF THE ORIGINAL TRILOGY!
I know it's probably not gonna be as good as it looks but honestly I am excited for it. I wanna actually go to a movie theater to watch it for my bday! (That's a big deal for me)
Ohhhh!!! THE NEW JURASSIC PARK! IT LOOKS SO COOL AND IT GIVES VIBES OF THE ORIGINAL TRILOGY!
I know it's probably not gonna be as good as it looks but honestly I am excited for it. I wanna actually go to a movie theater to watch it for my bday! (That's a big deal for me)
February 13, 2025 at 12:55 AM
Idk what to even talk about.
Ohhhh!!! THE NEW JURASSIC PARK! IT LOOKS SO COOL AND IT GIVES VIBES OF THE ORIGINAL TRILOGY!
I know it's probably not gonna be as good as it looks but honestly I am excited for it. I wanna actually go to a movie theater to watch it for my bday! (That's a big deal for me)
Ohhhh!!! THE NEW JURASSIC PARK! IT LOOKS SO COOL AND IT GIVES VIBES OF THE ORIGINAL TRILOGY!
I know it's probably not gonna be as good as it looks but honestly I am excited for it. I wanna actually go to a movie theater to watch it for my bday! (That's a big deal for me)
Survived Superbowl at work. Pain wasn't too bad. But I have so much to accomplish this week
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February 10, 2025 at 6:34 AM
Survived Superbowl at work. Pain wasn't too bad. But I have so much to accomplish this week
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Today has been.... a day.
Mom bought, drove, then returned a car she thought would cheer me up. Lemon.
Coworker did the most... not bright thing in a situation and po'd our boss. I had 4 anxiety attacks and my pain is holding steady at a 5.5. 😞
I'm so tired.
I did make mom a cake to cheer her up.
Mom bought, drove, then returned a car she thought would cheer me up. Lemon.
Coworker did the most... not bright thing in a situation and po'd our boss. I had 4 anxiety attacks and my pain is holding steady at a 5.5. 😞
I'm so tired.
I did make mom a cake to cheer her up.
February 7, 2025 at 4:12 AM
Today has been.... a day.
Mom bought, drove, then returned a car she thought would cheer me up. Lemon.
Coworker did the most... not bright thing in a situation and po'd our boss. I had 4 anxiety attacks and my pain is holding steady at a 5.5. 😞
I'm so tired.
I did make mom a cake to cheer her up.
Mom bought, drove, then returned a car she thought would cheer me up. Lemon.
Coworker did the most... not bright thing in a situation and po'd our boss. I had 4 anxiety attacks and my pain is holding steady at a 5.5. 😞
I'm so tired.
I did make mom a cake to cheer her up.
They said the steroid shot would stop the pain. 😔 They lied. I had held hope that maybe I would feel better after the awfulness of the actual shot and following days. I was absolutely wrong. I'm still in pain. 😖
February 6, 2025 at 2:00 AM
They said the steroid shot would stop the pain. 😔 They lied. I had held hope that maybe I would feel better after the awfulness of the actual shot and following days. I was absolutely wrong. I'm still in pain. 😖
I completed like 20 of the catnip kickers/pillows. I gotta be awake in 5 hours to go to the doctors. 🥱
February 3, 2025 at 8:40 AM
I completed like 20 of the catnip kickers/pillows. I gotta be awake in 5 hours to go to the doctors. 🥱
Over 30 catnip kickers/pillows surged, now to sew and then stuff and close. If they sell them for like $5 each then hopefully it'll bring in $150 in kitty funds lol All from my scrap fabrics.
February 3, 2025 at 6:26 AM
Over 30 catnip kickers/pillows surged, now to sew and then stuff and close. If they sell them for like $5 each then hopefully it'll bring in $150 in kitty funds lol All from my scrap fabrics.
Trying to work up the energy to start working on a project to donate. I'm just so tired all the time now. I've been soaking in Epsom salt for almost 2 hours to help my back. Now I'm sleepy. 😖😴
February 3, 2025 at 3:19 AM
Trying to work up the energy to start working on a project to donate. I'm just so tired all the time now. I've been soaking in Epsom salt for almost 2 hours to help my back. Now I'm sleepy. 😖😴