My issue is that I went through someone who was supposedly reputable and does business through a verified platform. I’m so tired, like everything was going well and then just fell apart. I wouldn’t even be so stressed out had I not lost my job in the Joann’s liquidation

I’ll just open my phone at random and throw more out there every day. I haven’t given up but it’s exhausting.

I’m working on more assets too… I guess I’m just tired… it’s a lot to have go absolutely no where after losing my job at Joann’s and the job search turning up nothing…. There’s been mass lay offs in the area while I’ve put out 150ish applications in the last month alone, I’m losing count because

I’m randomly just passing out or my chronic pain is spiking to levels I did not know it could because I’m pushing myself so hard to make stuff for the shop and stream.
I go live anywhere from 4-8 times a week as a result of this. I even made assets like 3D throwable potions.

It’s why I bottle things up, it’s why I keep to myself, it’s why I don’t like to leave the house. To sit here and call a child these things because they were being abused is beyond fucked up and you should be ashamed.

This literally fucked me up for the rest of my life this is where the BPD started to get worse and what started to lead to me not understanding how a relationship is supposed to be. This is why I STRUGGLE even now with anything and everything.