There are 1000+ people who work at the Times. They can’t even agree on whether it’s Salutation + Last Name or Last Name Only. They could not pull off a cover up.

Now I’m only going to obsess over important things like how badly I fuck up the choreo in synchro

Now I’m only going to obsess over important things like how badly I fuck up the choreo in synchro

OCD is so stupid, you waste hours of your life convinced that the world will end if you don’t fix this one dumb thing and then you realign your brain and realize it’s completely inconsequential

We can keep playing Whac-A-Mole with the Matt Gaetzes of the world or we could, IDK, use those resources to combat poverty. I know which one I would choose!

This makes a ton of sense!

Yeah people act like NYT is five reporters hanging out in a room together and not a massive building of 1000+ people, many of whom never speak to each other

One of the big tells that this is all OCD is that when my mom pointed out that she has the same pan that she never uses because my brother bought her an upgrade and she could give me her old pan my brain went, "BUT HERS IS THE WRONG COLOR"

One of the things that's really fascinating is that when I did EMDR it didn't help but when I did OCD therapy it gave me the tools to better manage my trauma. I feel like I was shunting everything through my OCD first.

If my emotional reactions were always proportionate and my logic always sound I wouldn't have spent a small fortune on therapy

Matt Gaetz sucks *and also* even if she had never met him she would still have been a teen sex worker struggling to make ends meet

Okay I just read the NYT story about Gaetz’s accuser and the clear villain in the story is the structural poverty that made her turn to sex work in the first place

Yeah, giving up and taking my mom’s backup pan is def the move, I can come back to it in the future when I feel more sane. I also have other pans lol. I just like this one.

❤️

Lol I have synchro practice so dinner will likely be a protein bar I wolf down after.

I talk about my OCD publicly because it is therapeutic to do so and creates a kind of accountability for me but man it is frustrating when people who don’t understand OCD reply.

A key thing that people who don’t have OCD don’t understand is that OCD necessarily makes you an unreliable narrator. My OCD convinces me that I’m balding, my OCD tells me minor imperfections in my apartment will make everyone hate me. Focusing on the obsession and trying to “fix” it is a trap.

It’s frustrating because I will say things like “my OCD is making me think I’m going bald” and people will make recommendations for collagen pills and the issue is not my hair

The issue isn’t the pan, the issue is OCD