Hello I'm Nny, i lost my food stamps & I'm pretty fucking scared rn. I'm on SSI & live in HUD housing so I basically have nothing to fill the gap. Anything helps, I'll be thankful just for shares & likes if that's all you can give. Thank you!
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i hope everyone has been good while i have been gone i will try and catch up with everyone but no promises because I am always either working on something for work or school rn

for now I am focusing on
- quitting weed
- losing weight to be back to a "comfortable" weight
- getting back to exercising daily
- finishing my degree
- getting my hours for my license
- get my finances under control

+ swollen for about a month now so I am trying to get myself figured out and have a lot of appointments constantly
- i am focusing hard on quitting weed because it is taking up too much of my life
- i survived the first anniversary of my dads death and didn't blow up my life entirely

updates from when I was here last:
- in my second term of grad school and it is kicking my butt but I am learning a lot
- i am still working on my hours for my license and genuinely struggling to manage it while also in grad school
- i am dealing with health issues such as my lymph node being +

Maybe I can smoke just one day of the weekend and that’ll keep it under control but I literally cannot be smoking more than one day a week

So yeah maybe I’m not the most reliable right now at work but I’m juggling grad school, working with KIDS, my grief, and my shit health all while trying to meet everyone’s expectations and show no weakness. I’m doing my best.

Yeah I’ve missed work because sometimes I get so caught up in the fact my father shot himself in the park he basically raised me in with the same gun as his uncle did and because of that I’m going crazy. Oh and it also triggered all my health issues and I’ve had to quit all substances

This is literally what happens to me but trust me that meant it was working for me. It quieted and steadied my brain to the point I could actually sleep it was miraculous. Wish you the best of luck with the meds 🤍

Now everyone is gonna treat me weird and I am even more scared to go back there I almost just want to go back to working in home because the dynamics of working with others has been soul crushing

I wish you and her the best of luck 🤍 I did have police records when I broke my lease so that might be necessary. I would also check laws because some states will press charges for domestic regardless of the victims wishes if they see evidence of abuse.

I’m sorry that you can relate to this honestly it’s the worst feeling. I know someday I’ll end up like my dad and his uncle. It’s just the way things go

If she ever needs out of her lease quickly certain states have laws that will let her break the lease with no consequences if there is domestic abuse within the residence. I have done it before and only had to pay the remaining rent balance — just in case this info helps 🤍

If I’m with others this isn’t a problem but when I’m alone I just can’t turn it off. The weed helped that too much and now I just feel unbalanced.