I hope my doctor's appointment helps me find the issue for my low energy and if it isn't a problem with my body, I will try therapy again bc while my life does improve,i notice how I get more depressed the last few years
I don't want to fall into depression again, not after so much hard work (7/7)

It's not like I never do anything at all, I do a lot more stuff than ever! It's just exhausting to only do fun stuff every two-three months for like a week when my vacation starts...and then it's grinding at work for the rest, bc I need the weekends for restoring energy (6/?)

I want to start being active in online communities again, I want to properly learn how to draw and maybe one day start selling art, i want to have more time for friends and family...but I'm always too tired to do anything (5/?)

I'm trying to get a new position or job that takes less energy from me and I definitely don't want to work full-time anymore, it's just a bit annoying that I have to wait for job postings
I was thinking about reducing my hours but my colleagues are already kind of sensitive to this topic... (4/?)

I always need to decide if I put my energy into hobbies, friends, family or work, and I don't really have a choice but to put all my energy into work
Sometimes If I have enough energy i do go out with friends and my bf bc it helps me, but my hobbies? I draw once every 3 months if at all... (3/?)

I have been diagnosed with social anxiety which makes everything harder...
after years of therapy I'm good at managing this problem, but it's never going away and it's so exhausting to always calm myself before a big event, which just makes me even more tired (2/?)

it always takes so long...but it's also nice to look and appreciate the details of the figures while dusting 🙂‍↕️

Maybe i will Post some stuff i got, definitely Not everything bc it's A LOT and some stuff i already put in my folder
I did make Pictures of everything but they don't Look very pretty and I do want to try and post pictures that look at least decent

I feel Like it's not about the toy and the Joy of Collecting but about having something popular and showing Off...i do feel sorry for the ppl that genuinely Like them, they have to compete against scalpers 😔