even then, she continues to cut down any who stands in her way, and is lost forever to the dark.

damn bad endings make u sad

normally keeps her going and then it takes over. she uses that darkness and that power to destroy her enemies, ruthlessly cutting down all who oppose her. and when her friends, too, stand in her way, pleading with her to remember who she is, begging for her to stop, to see what she's become?

she still hasn't recovered from and maybe never will. in another world, where she isn't successful in driving off esteem's takeover, i think she truly falls. her own reflection, warped by her guilt and anger during what is probably the darkest time in her life, kills the spark of light that

and how easily it takes control. things going wrong with WAR is bad, but even further than that, things going wrong with DRK is worse. having to confront a manifestation of her deepest, most malicious self in that cold, dark place in ishgard put a chill into her bones that

but at the same time, she enjoys the violence. she enjoys fighting, it's *fun*. unfortunately, that doesn't stop the guilt. all of this is why WAR is so hard for her in canon, since it's kinda all about letting out your inner beast and working with it. kaede is deathly afraid of her inner beast,