Kier (Joanie)
@kiercreates.bsky.social
39 ☆ Enby ☆ Ace ☆ Huge Derp ☆ This is a Shitshow
Ever since she told me "then do it," I have moments where my brain becomes obsessed with wondering what people would say about me at my funeral. I hate it. I can't believe I still stayed after that. I can't believe I let her convince me that HER reaction at the time was MY fault.
November 12, 2025 at 5:25 AM
Ever since she told me "then do it," I have moments where my brain becomes obsessed with wondering what people would say about me at my funeral. I hate it. I can't believe I still stayed after that. I can't believe I let her convince me that HER reaction at the time was MY fault.
I thought a nice, simple, short conversation could prove that there was still hope for this friendship. But you just wanted another excuse to berrate me, assume the worst of me, and act like you've never done anything wrong. Happy Fucking Anniversary.
November 2, 2025 at 1:56 AM
I thought a nice, simple, short conversation could prove that there was still hope for this friendship. But you just wanted another excuse to berrate me, assume the worst of me, and act like you've never done anything wrong. Happy Fucking Anniversary.
MOOD 🤣
October 22, 2025 at 4:15 PM
MOOD 🤣
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I miss talking about silly shit.
I miss being asked my opinion.
I miss being heard.
Hobestly, I haven't had that in years.
I miss being asked my opinion.
I miss being heard.
Hobestly, I haven't had that in years.
July 14, 2025 at 2:51 AM
I miss talking about silly shit.
I miss being asked my opinion.
I miss being heard.
Hobestly, I haven't had that in years.
I miss being asked my opinion.
I miss being heard.
Hobestly, I haven't had that in years.
Trying to live on less than $1000 a month in Massachusetts is fucking hell.
July 14, 2025 at 2:37 AM
Trying to live on less than $1000 a month in Massachusetts is fucking hell.
This has got to be one of the worst depressive days I've had in a long time. I can't stop thinking about how incredibly bleak, lonely, and uncomfortable the rest of my life is shaping up to be.
Originally I had a huge post written up on this, but I've decided against it...
Originally I had a huge post written up on this, but I've decided against it...
July 5, 2025 at 3:06 AM
This has got to be one of the worst depressive days I've had in a long time. I can't stop thinking about how incredibly bleak, lonely, and uncomfortable the rest of my life is shaping up to be.
Originally I had a huge post written up on this, but I've decided against it...
Originally I had a huge post written up on this, but I've decided against it...
I hate this internalized whiplash. I desperately want to be doing something creative, but because I'm in a position where I can't do shit, I.mull over it for so long that I end up getting down on myself for the probability that I'll hate anything I make.
July 4, 2025 at 11:36 PM
I hate this internalized whiplash. I desperately want to be doing something creative, but because I'm in a position where I can't do shit, I.mull over it for so long that I end up getting down on myself for the probability that I'll hate anything I make.
I wish I'd never asked her out; maybe then I'd still have my best friend.
July 4, 2025 at 6:22 PM
I wish I'd never asked her out; maybe then I'd still have my best friend.
Pros to bsky: My ex isn't active on here... I think.
Cons to bsky: Even if I were to detail out every depressed thought in my head and beg for help, I'm pretty sure no one would say anything. Are my friends just missing my posts every time? Or am I too much? Fuck if I know. 🫠
Cons to bsky: Even if I were to detail out every depressed thought in my head and beg for help, I'm pretty sure no one would say anything. Are my friends just missing my posts every time? Or am I too much? Fuck if I know. 🫠
July 4, 2025 at 3:40 AM
Pros to bsky: My ex isn't active on here... I think.
Cons to bsky: Even if I were to detail out every depressed thought in my head and beg for help, I'm pretty sure no one would say anything. Are my friends just missing my posts every time? Or am I too much? Fuck if I know. 🫠
Cons to bsky: Even if I were to detail out every depressed thought in my head and beg for help, I'm pretty sure no one would say anything. Are my friends just missing my posts every time? Or am I too much? Fuck if I know. 🫠
I just wish fucking *anyone* would acknowledge that they can hear me...
July 1, 2025 at 5:15 AM
I just wish fucking *anyone* would acknowledge that they can hear me...
I'm so tired of getting my hopes up, just to have it ripped out of my hands and shattered at my feet.
July 1, 2025 at 5:14 AM
I'm so tired of getting my hopes up, just to have it ripped out of my hands and shattered at my feet.
Two more weeks. Just gotta get through two more weeks. It's gotta get better after that, right?
That feeling when I've been saying, "It's gotta get better after XYZ, right?!" for the past 10 years...
That feeling when I've been saying, "It's gotta get better after XYZ, right?!" for the past 10 years...
July 1, 2025 at 4:08 AM
Two more weeks. Just gotta get through two more weeks. It's gotta get better after that, right?
That feeling when I've been saying, "It's gotta get better after XYZ, right?!" for the past 10 years...
That feeling when I've been saying, "It's gotta get better after XYZ, right?!" for the past 10 years...
I want my life back.
June 12, 2025 at 1:07 AM
I want my life back.
I miss drawing. I miss creating. I miss designing. I'd rather be doing literally anything artistic right now. Instead im packing up the last 25 years of my life, wondering where the fuck I'll end up (metaphorically - I know where I'm going physically).
June 12, 2025 at 1:04 AM
I miss drawing. I miss creating. I miss designing. I'd rather be doing literally anything artistic right now. Instead im packing up the last 25 years of my life, wondering where the fuck I'll end up (metaphorically - I know where I'm going physically).
I hate feeling like this. I can't directly tell any of my friends what's happening, so no one knows how bad it is? They're all mutual friends with her, and I can't risk making her angry. It's fucked up that *this* is the space I'm the most honest in.
June 11, 2025 at 4:41 AM
I hate feeling like this. I can't directly tell any of my friends what's happening, so no one knows how bad it is? They're all mutual friends with her, and I can't risk making her angry. It's fucked up that *this* is the space I'm the most honest in.
I just want everything to stop hurting so much. I've realized I'll never be someone's first priority. My heart feels like it's tearing itself apart from the inside out. She makes it look so easy to just stop caring. I want to fucking scream until my throat bleeds...
June 11, 2025 at 4:27 AM
I just want everything to stop hurting so much. I've realized I'll never be someone's first priority. My heart feels like it's tearing itself apart from the inside out. She makes it look so easy to just stop caring. I want to fucking scream until my throat bleeds...
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I illustrated the standee and also designed the outfit—it was such a fun project! アクリルスタンドのイラストと衣装デザインを担当しました！🏳️🌈✨
June 4, 2025 at 3:08 AM
I illustrated the standee and also designed the outfit—it was such a fun project! アクリルスタンドのイラストと衣装デザインを担当しました！🏳️🌈✨
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this past week be like
May 21, 2025 at 12:26 AM
this past week be like
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It just occured to me that towards the end of the original Evangelion TV series, the three pilots are systematically taken down from within. Asuka's mind is taken by Arael, Rei's body is taken by Armisael, and Shinji's heart is taken by Tabris.
May 17, 2025 at 5:05 AM
It just occured to me that towards the end of the original Evangelion TV series, the three pilots are systematically taken down from within. Asuka's mind is taken by Arael, Rei's body is taken by Armisael, and Shinji's heart is taken by Tabris.
I'm fucking drowning in existential grief and burning anger and I have no choice but to put on my sweetest smile to get through it all. Somebody fucking kill me, I don't wanna do this life anymore.
April 2, 2025 at 3:48 AM
I'm fucking drowning in existential grief and burning anger and I have no choice but to put on my sweetest smile to get through it all. Somebody fucking kill me, I don't wanna do this life anymore.