LOL you aren't wrong but I'll take the momentary productivity even if it's in a different way at this point.

right? like, just let me equalize for a bit before shoving me again

I'm tired guys.

I just want like, one excellent year to set up myself and my husband, and then the world can go to shit again. I just want to find my fucking footing and REST.

My brain feels like fuzz and I struggle to keep my focus like I used to. At first I thought it was unmasking but then the minute I got on some form of pain relief my brain cleared a little, and it made me realize I am dealing with way worse than I realize.

I can barely move or function without wnting to cry in pain.

Typiung hurts, moving hurts, thinking hurts, sitting still HURTS.

And yet the only thing doctors will tell me is "it'll get better" in 5 years it's just gotten worse. WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE.

I cry all the time from just pain.

I am so deep bone tired, the kind of tired where a week of sleep doesn't help.

The minute I look around it's like I have no desire to try, why would I? There's no upward movement in life, jobs are Non-existant for my spouse, and each day brings more pain.

Kristan Britain-Green rider series. HAS MY SOUL I TELL YOU