Julie is a REAL BIRD
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I'm @jmatwood on Twitter. Featuring: Immature/informative/TMI posts about: birds, plants, bees, disability, chronic illness, silliness, my own health, etc 🦜🌱🐝♿😷🪿🏥
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User pic is from Effin Birds (used w/permission)
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NO TERFS, NO UNSOLICITED ADVICE
User pic is from Effin Birds (used w/permission)
So much love to you! I hope we get to the "all the way healed" part FREAKING SOON 😆 💜🫂
July 29, 2025 at 11:40 PM
So much love to you! I hope we get to the "all the way healed" part FREAKING SOON 😆 💜🫂
I do, yes! Especially since my energy has dwindled, those chapters are like bite sized and so perfect every day.
July 28, 2025 at 11:35 PM
I do, yes! Especially since my energy has dwindled, those chapters are like bite sized and so perfect every day.
They truly are. They get almost as many cuddles as they want 😂 (Maggie would prefer to continue getting scritches and hugs instead of going to bed!)
July 28, 2025 at 11:34 PM
They truly are. They get almost as many cuddles as they want 😂 (Maggie would prefer to continue getting scritches and hugs instead of going to bed!)
I love it so much I read it every October!
July 28, 2025 at 9:54 PM
I love it so much I read it every October!
Thank you so much! 💜 I love that!
July 28, 2025 at 8:22 PM
Thank you so much! 💜 I love that!
Even I am sick of hearing myself complain! 😂
But of course that means I keep shrinking away from all my support systems, and I lose connection with people and I feel ever more isolated and alone WHICH DOESN'T HELP EITHER.
Why couldn't I be an octopus instead?
Anyway, sorry. Here's Maggie:
But of course that means I keep shrinking away from all my support systems, and I lose connection with people and I feel ever more isolated and alone WHICH DOESN'T HELP EITHER.
Why couldn't I be an octopus instead?
Anyway, sorry. Here's Maggie:
May 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM
Even I am sick of hearing myself complain! 😂
But of course that means I keep shrinking away from all my support systems, and I lose connection with people and I feel ever more isolated and alone WHICH DOESN'T HELP EITHER.
Why couldn't I be an octopus instead?
Anyway, sorry. Here's Maggie:
But of course that means I keep shrinking away from all my support systems, and I lose connection with people and I feel ever more isolated and alone WHICH DOESN'T HELP EITHER.
Why couldn't I be an octopus instead?
Anyway, sorry. Here's Maggie:
And also, all I have to say these days are depressing things! I'm struggling, I'm sick, I'm stuck, I'm a pincushion and bruised and scarred. I can't even dredge up a single cheery "but hey at least this thing is great!" sign off to end on an artificial high note so we can pretend I'm ok.
May 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM
And also, all I have to say these days are depressing things! I'm struggling, I'm sick, I'm stuck, I'm a pincushion and bruised and scarred. I can't even dredge up a single cheery "but hey at least this thing is great!" sign off to end on an artificial high note so we can pretend I'm ok.
I already lost almost all my gains thanks to pneumonia popping back up (it wasn't even something I caught fresh; it was just an opportunistic relapse after taking prednisone), and that's already devastating enough.
So I just...can't know more. I can't do more. I can't see or hear more.
So I just...can't know more. I can't do more. I can't see or hear more.
May 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM
I already lost almost all my gains thanks to pneumonia popping back up (it wasn't even something I caught fresh; it was just an opportunistic relapse after taking prednisone), and that's already devastating enough.
So I just...can't know more. I can't do more. I can't see or hear more.
So I just...can't know more. I can't do more. I can't see or hear more.
It's been a really long slump for me. Previously I held out hope for successful treatment because I thought it would mean I would get to go back out into the world and be a part of things. But I'll never get so much better that I'll be able to catch a disease with no fallout. I'll lose everything.
May 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM
It's been a really long slump for me. Previously I held out hope for successful treatment because I thought it would mean I would get to go back out into the world and be a part of things. But I'll never get so much better that I'll be able to catch a disease with no fallout. I'll lose everything.
And if I poke my head up and get more details on exactly how this world has gone to shit, knowing all the intensely horrible things I'm going through now are for nothing...I won't survive.
I know these things are happening. But looking at them dead in the eyes will kill only me, not them.
I know these things are happening. But looking at them dead in the eyes will kill only me, not them.
May 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM
And if I poke my head up and get more details on exactly how this world has gone to shit, knowing all the intensely horrible things I'm going through now are for nothing...I won't survive.
I know these things are happening. But looking at them dead in the eyes will kill only me, not them.
I know these things are happening. But looking at them dead in the eyes will kill only me, not them.
But the truth is, all these treatments are as brutal as everyone warned me they would be, and healing is non-linear so I'm currently in a slump where I've lost all my gains and am scared all this will be for nothing, that this is just a treadmill of bad stuff to suffer through with no end.
May 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM
But the truth is, all these treatments are as brutal as everyone warned me they would be, and healing is non-linear so I'm currently in a slump where I've lost all my gains and am scared all this will be for nothing, that this is just a treadmill of bad stuff to suffer through with no end.
Thank you. All the zerbets. ❤️
May 10, 2025 at 8:53 PM
Thank you. All the zerbets. ❤️
I dunno, I miss subjecting everyone to my every ridiculous thought, and reading everyone else's much better thoughts, lol.
Also I realize I over-shared on the old 🐦 app and thus could use it to look up when I did XYZ, like a diary 😂
Now everything is in the wind & forgotten! Oops.
Niko's so good!
Also I realize I over-shared on the old 🐦 app and thus could use it to look up when I did XYZ, like a diary 😂
Now everything is in the wind & forgotten! Oops.
Niko's so good!
April 30, 2025 at 2:12 PM
I dunno, I miss subjecting everyone to my every ridiculous thought, and reading everyone else's much better thoughts, lol.
Also I realize I over-shared on the old 🐦 app and thus could use it to look up when I did XYZ, like a diary 😂
Now everything is in the wind & forgotten! Oops.
Niko's so good!
Also I realize I over-shared on the old 🐦 app and thus could use it to look up when I did XYZ, like a diary 😂
Now everything is in the wind & forgotten! Oops.
Niko's so good!
Brain power, I still have slightly more than before the surgery but I roused an old pneumonia from hibernation after using prednisone so I'm pretty foggy.
Birds are ok - it's springtime so they're both hormonal and Maggie has so many feelings!
I've been trying to get them outside every day:
Birds are ok - it's springtime so they're both hormonal and Maggie has so many feelings!
I've been trying to get them outside every day:
April 30, 2025 at 6:16 AM
Brain power, I still have slightly more than before the surgery but I roused an old pneumonia from hibernation after using prednisone so I'm pretty foggy.
Birds are ok - it's springtime so they're both hormonal and Maggie has so many feelings!
I've been trying to get them outside every day:
Birds are ok - it's springtime so they're both hormonal and Maggie has so many feelings!
I've been trying to get them outside every day:
I'm doing... Very varied. It's been nearly seven months from the fusion and as promised, it's a roller coaster of gains and losses, and at present more losses than gains.
I'm trying to both rest and be active, which is impossible. Lots of pain, but in the last couple of weeks slightly less...
I'm trying to both rest and be active, which is impossible. Lots of pain, but in the last couple of weeks slightly less...
April 30, 2025 at 6:12 AM
I'm doing... Very varied. It's been nearly seven months from the fusion and as promised, it's a roller coaster of gains and losses, and at present more losses than gains.
I'm trying to both rest and be active, which is impossible. Lots of pain, but in the last couple of weeks slightly less...
I'm trying to both rest and be active, which is impossible. Lots of pain, but in the last couple of weeks slightly less...
It's been a minute 😭 (such a long minute in fact that the app lost all its permissions and logged me out so I never got any notifications, haha)
As a present, please enjoy Niko using me as a tree to finish taking his bath.
As a present, please enjoy Niko using me as a tree to finish taking his bath.
April 30, 2025 at 6:10 AM
It's been a minute 😭 (such a long minute in fact that the app lost all its permissions and logged me out so I never got any notifications, haha)
As a present, please enjoy Niko using me as a tree to finish taking his bath.
As a present, please enjoy Niko using me as a tree to finish taking his bath.
Likewise, and thank you!
Here's a huge patch of stream violets!
Here's a huge patch of stream violets!
April 30, 2025 at 1:29 AM
Likewise, and thank you!
Here's a huge patch of stream violets!
Here's a huge patch of stream violets!
I hope the same for you! ❤️
Here's a bunny!
Here's a bunny!
April 30, 2025 at 1:24 AM
I hope the same for you! ❤️
Here's a bunny!
Here's a bunny!