he notices the change in her breathing pretty quickly and wakes her up

sorry no art so if you have gotten this far i love you for reading 💜

way are sometimes worse because depending on the day she be shaken and ruminate on it for a while.

they never go completely away and get particularly bad while she is pregnant with baby hope, and after she comes back from the ascended timeline, but if astarion is there

turns to ash. outwardly she doesn't scream but she starts holding her breath and will tense up painfully - which sometimes is for the best because a muscle cramp will wake her up.

she also has occasional recurrent nightmares about being pregnant after that night and about her family, which in a

happened, so it always hijacks normal dreams in the shape of all the lights going out. suddenly she doesn't know where she is or what is happening beyond being terrified and in pain, and in her dreams it doesn't stop, she can feel herself burn and melt until she manages to wake herself up or

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has to be one of my oldest unfinished awbonee wips, i don't even want to check when i started it 😂😂

it is too early to be making me doubt reality 😂