Even when I feel like I don’t deserve it? Even when I feel like I deserve nothing in life at all, even existence itself.

the sort of lasting contentment that sustains a person from day to day, step by step, season to season, year to year. How can I make the coming year full of things that help move me forward instead of hinder me?

And so the search continues for what makes one happiest above all else, knowing that there are challenges ahead, internal and external, that will come to do everything to keep happiness from being attainable. I have often been my own worst enemy in preventing my own happiness,

It also aches for the ones I have never known, but know could be possible. How is it that so many years of my life have passed and there’s still so much I wish I could know and understand and feel and experience?

My Cookie Monster pup by my side, the only consistent thing to make moment by moment in a new city livable. If you wonder if I miss you? The answer is yes. The answer will always be yes. My heart aches for people, love, and experiences I used to know.