Yeah, it’s about 11% of my debt load gone in an instant! It gives me hope that I can afford my own place soon. Hope for a future again. Hope that can keep me running for just a little longer.

But I’m not gonna celebrate yet. I still have a long way to go with another $13.4k to stabilize my crippling debt enough to afford a new start. But for now, I’m gonna focus on my next stretch goal of $2,600. Even a small donation or spreading the word helps.

#gofundme

gofund.me/f330eb0f1

and i don’t wanna elaborate

LETSFUCKINGGOOOOOO 🥳

…tired of setting aside my own needs and wants to care of someone whom i only feel like i am hurting more. tired of my finances holding all my goals back. and super fucking tired of my dysphoria!

i dunno, maybe i just need to eat and sleep or smth…

…is it selfish of me to feel jealous and sad that my friend got bottom surgery but i can’t? maybe. but i don’t know how to rid myself of that jealousy, or the guilt i have for feeling it.

and i’m just…tired. so tired. tired of working a dead end job where my coworkers barely respect me sometimes…

…but i can’t fucking afford it! hell, i had to set up a gofundme to help knock down my debts enough to just move out on my own. and even that is stalling about 11% towards my final goal of $15k, and i greatly fear that the worst is yet to come for my life...

…and there’s another issue there. my girlfriends love me, and i love them. yet i feel like i’m not enough for them, not worthy of them, solely because of what i have below. and yeah, i’m a t4t lesbian. i love girldick! just…not mine. and i know bottom surgery will help remove that insecurity for me…

…and even after that, i need to make sure i don’t have any stragglers that laser can’t touch, then get electrolysis, and only then can i get bottom surgery.

at this point, there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to get bottom surgery, other than anything illegal or that which might hurt the people i love…

When the fajita man comes out sizzling in hell #YIAYsizzle

I’m learning that with each donation. Just…such overwhelming support I never expected to receive!

Link to the GoFundMe is pinned, but in case you missed it, here it is again.

gofund.me/1690bef80

But we still have a long way to go. Second stretch goal is $2,600. Any amount helps, be it $1 or $100. And if you don't have the means, just spreading the word is enough.

From the bottom of my heart, a zillion thank yous!

Ashley Wilson